A/N: Okay so this chapter is everything I wish someone would have said to Max in season 2 and it just sounded so right coming from OC. I did my best to stay true to character so let me know what you all think.

A/N 2: It will get to some Maxie Alec lovin I just can't let go of my angst state of mind yet prepare for some heat flash backs in chapter 3 though.

Disclaimer: Don't own anything. All I have is my love for Jensen and you can't have that. So please don't sue me.

Rating: Most likely M

Don't Know What You Got

"Okay boo let OC see if she can get this right.. You went into heat, jumped your boy, took off before he woke up and then when he finally tracked yo ass down he tells you he in love wit ya."

"Pretty much." Max sighed sinking down onto the couch next her bestfriend. Cindy looked at Max carefully she knew that there had been something going on between her boo and hot boy. She also knew that Alec's admission of love would not have gotten her boo as spun as she was, something else had gone down and there was no way Cindy was going to let Max keep running from her feelings. It was about time Max figured this bitch out.

"Hmm.. Suge OC got the feeling you ain't tellin her everythin. So if you want the wisdom yo ass best give the whole story."

Max bit her lower lip considering how best to tell Cindy all the hurtful things she had said to Alec. "Well I didn't know what to think I mean god it's Alec..." Cindy raised her eyebrows indicating she was still waiting.

"And then well he kissed me and I completely lost it. Cindy I said some stuff that I really should not have said and I really don't mean it. He just has a way of making me feel so turned around and out of control that I didn't think."

"What exactlly did you say Max?"

"I kind of implied that I wished I had never helped save his life when White had that bomb in his head."

Cindy sucked in a quick breath and then let it out slowly. "So the man tells you he's in love wit ya and you tell him you wish he was dead."

Max dropped her head into her lap and let out a scream of frustration. "I know, I know I never should have said it but before I could say anything he left and all he said was fine." "What's that supposed to mean?" Cindy asked frowning in confusion.

"That's what I asked him. He said that I set him straight and that now he knew how I really felt about him. But..." "But what?" Cindy asked. "How can he know how I feel about him when I don't even know?"

"Damn suge when you tell someone that you wish they where dead so you could be bumpin uglies with someone else I think it's pretty clear what you think of them." Max let out a groan. "I didn't mean it though." "Did you tell him that?" "I told you he left before I could say anything."

"Mmmm." Max looked up sharply but before she could say a word Cindy interrupted. "You know you my girl and all Max and I got yo back." Max nodded her head. "But damn boo sometimes Original Cindy wishes she had a sledge hammer to knock some sense into that head of yours."

Cindy raised her hand to indicate she was not done talking when she saw the indignint look on her friends face.

"Why'd you go to Alec when you were in heat Max?" Max snorted "Cause I was in heat and needed a fuck." Cindy shook her head. "You got city full of fine ass males ready, willing and able and out of them all you chose Alec Max. What does that tell you?"

Max shook her head letting her friend know she didn't know where she was going with this. "When you usually go into heat you usually don't have one particular guy in mind do you?" Max shook her head no.

"From everything you told OC this time all roads led to Alec right?" "Well yeah but it kinda made sense, because I'm around him so much." Max tried to rationalize. OC smirked damn her boo really had blinders on sometimes.

"Max you were around Logan last year when you went into heat. But OC don't remember you tellin her about any X rated dreams staring roller boy." Max narrowed her gaze at her friend for using that name to describe her not like that boyfriend.

Cindy chuckled but held her hands up to apologise. "What are you getting at OC?" "What Original Cindy is saying is that maybe yo body and heart are tellin you somethin boo." Max began to shake her head. "No that's not possible. I love Logan?" "Who you tryin to convince girl?" Max suddenly stood up and began pacing the floor of her old apartment while OC watched with a mixture of amusment and sadness for her friend.

"I'm not trying to convince anyone. I know I love Logan. We've waited so long and he makes me happy. He makes me feel normal." Cindy scoffed at this statement causing Max to stop and stare at her friend in shock at her out burst.

"Happy! You call sulking around being a bitch to everyone being happy? Max you've changed. Two years ago you were a kick ass, girl who didn't give a shit what someone thought about her who wanted to have a good time and cared about getting her family back. Since you met Mr. High and mighty Eyes Only you changed. Starting dropping what you wanted to do to be at his beck and call."

"I still am like that I just have responsibilities now and I haven't given up on my family. I'm so sorry I was upset that my touch could kill the man that loves me. Logan just showed me that there were more important things I could be doing with my abilities, like helping people what's so bad about that?" Max said staring at her friend.

Cindy shook her head, looks like it's time to break out the hammer Cindy thought. " Ain't nothin wrong wit helpin folks but Max if you was that same girl why do hide it from Logan when you do heist that has nothing to with Eyes Only? And while we on that thread if he loves you so much why don't he think twice bout throwin you into dangerous situations just so he can get the low down."

"I take back up." Max defended half heartedly. "Only cuz hot boy won't let you go it alone anymore." Cindy pointed out.

"As for your family, when was the last time Logan actually gave you any info on them?" Max shook her head unable to come up with a single time. "And the last time one of them was here you had to send him away. That don't sound like my old boo." "Zack was brainwashed he was going to kill Logan." "Max you have a city full of transgenics including the one's who manticore used to brainwash people. Did you ever think to ask them to help?"

Max sank down on the couch blinking back tears. "Oh god." Cindy pulled Max into a hug.

"Look boo I didn't want to hurt you but you needed it laid out for ya." Cindy took Max's hands and forced her to look her in the eye.

"Look Max I know you wanna be normal but damn girl you know how many people go through life tryin to be anythin but that. You need to accept who you are. Cause there ain't nothin wrong wit it girl. And anyone who makes you feel that you need to be somthin else ain't worth it." Cindy sighed.

"Max when I see you wit Alec I see that old Max that spitefire that loves life and don't have no problem usin and bein proud of her gifts. I see the passion girl, and it's directed at a certin hazel eyed pretty boy. But when the supposed love of yo life walks in the room boo I see that passion and happiness drain right out of your eyes and that ain't right."

Max was unable to hold back the tears any more. "Boo OC thinks you got some thinking to bout what she's said to you." Max swallowed the lump in her throat and hugged her friend. "I think your right." Cindy smiled hoping that saying, you don't know what you got till it's gone would not apply to her friend. "Just don't take too long." she warned.