A/N: I know it's been a while but my laptop crashed with an almost complete chapter 3 for this fic and I kinda lost all will to write it over again for awhile.
Disclaimer: Don't own anything. All I have is my love for Jensen and you can't have that. So please don't sue me.
Rating: Most likely M
Don't Know What You Got
Max sat on the edge of the space needle going over the conversation she and Cindy had over and over again in her mind. Was Cindy right? Had Max's body known something she was trying to ignore over the last year. Had what she and Alec done been driven by love or lust? Max wasn't sure how she would be able to tell the difference between the two when it came to Alec. She knew her feelings for him had changed over the last year when that had happened she wasn't exactly sure but a big part of it was the night she had finally told him about Ben. There was no one else Max had ever felt safe enough around. But she knew Alec would understand and that he wouldn't judge her and he didn't. Maybe that was why she went to Alec during her heat. Max let out a sigh. That was part of it but that wasn't all of it and she knew that.
Cindy was right. Max had never had a heat like that before. One where all her body wanted, scratch that all her body craved was Alec. Max bit down on her lower lip to stifle the moan that threatened to break free as she remembered what Alec had done to her body over those three days. The way his soft full lips had kissed ever inch of her and left her body clamouring for more whenever he would move away. The way his strong, sure hands had known just what she wanted and caused her to feel as if she would melt at each touch. She had never felt so satisfied and fulfilled. Truth be told she had never thought it was a possibility for her. "He sure proved me wrong." Max reminisced in the memories for a few more minutes when a thought struck her. There's no way it would ever be like that with Logan.
"AAAGGGGHHHH!!" Max let out a frustrated cry.
"What am I thinking? There's more to a relationship then just sex. What Logan and I have is more than that." Max fell back on to the cool metal surface of the needle. How can I even think about comparing a few nights of mind blowing sex to the two years Logan and I spent together Max tried to convince herself. You can because you know in those three days you had more with Alec then you and Logan ever did. An annoying voice in the back of her mind, which sounded suspiciously like OC answered her back. "If I do love Alec then what about Logan? Was what we had ever love?" Max let out a half manic laugh when another thought occurred to her. I'm sitting here contemplating which of these two men I want when I don't even know if they'll still want me. There's no way Logan would forgive me if he found out. Then again why would Alec still want me after everything I said to him? I'll be lucky if he even talks to me again. As that final thought processed through her she felt a sudden stab of pain. Sure if Logan didn't forgive her and stopped talking to her she'd be hurt, but she'd get over it. However if Alec never spoke to her again or worse yet left her Max wasn't sure she could survive it. "That's it. I can't just sit here. I need to talk to him."
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Max stood outside the front door trying to gather her courage to do what she knew had to be done. "Come on Max. He's just one man. You can do this." With that last minute encouragement and a deep breath Max walked in. "Hey." Max said softly not wanting to surprise him. "Max!" Logan practically leaped off his chair. Max took a step back a little shocked. "I've been trying to call and page you for hours. No one knew where you were!" "Um. I went to see Cindy. Guess I lost track of time. Why what's up?" Max asked letting her curiosity side track her from her mission. Logan grinned at her like an idiot. "I'll tell you as soon as Alec gets here." "ALEC?" Max practically yelled. "Why would you call Alec over?" Logan turned back to the computer. "Because we need his help." Logan answered her oblivious to her discomfort. Max relaxed a little so this was all about an EO mission. She could handle that sure it would be awkward being in a room with the both of them but at least she and Alec could leave. Plus it may even give her a chance to talk to Alec now that she had figured some things out.
Max was brought out of her thoughts by the sound of footsteps behind her. "You beckoned oh great and mighty wizard." Alec drawled. Max kept her eyes on the floor avoiding looking at either man, although she could feel Alec's eyes on her. "Glad you could make it Alec. It took you long enough though; I called you over five hours ago." "You know how it is Logan, too many women, too little time." Max bristled at his comment. "Then again, maybe you don't." Alec smirked. "What did you want us to do Logan?" Max interrupted the two before the conversation could get any more uncomfortable. Logan adjusted his glasses turning to Max with a knowing smile. "I need you two to pick up a package from a contact." "You pulled us away from TC to play messengers?" Alec asked annoyance coming through loud and clear in his tone. Logan let out an annoyed huff before he addressed Max. "Max. It's the cure." Both Max and Alec were shocked into silence. Max felt her body begin to shake. Logan took her hands in his gloved ones. "It's finally happening Max. Everything we've waited for. Everything we've gone through to be together. It's all going to be over in a few short hours." Logan absolutely beamed at her as the tears began to fall mistaking them for tears of joy. "I can't believe this is happening." Logan laughed bringing Max's attention back to him. "It's true Max. I had it tested. We can finally put this virus behind us." Logan shook his head as his smile grew. "I never gave up, not even when Manticore had you. I knew you were alive I knew we were meant to be. Our love was the only thing that kept me going."
Max felt a wave of guilt hit her. He loved her, he waited for her, he had never given up on them and what had she done? She had fallen in love with another man. She had to tell him. Max looked at Alec and saw he was staring at her intently. Oh god they're waiting for me to answer. "Max?" For the first time since she had walked into the room today Logan looked unsure. Max looked back up at Logan intent on telling him the truth; but the moment she saw the hint of hurt that began to show in his eyes she felt herself falter. How can I do this to him? He's given so much to help us; and then her gaze fell on to the wheel chair sitting by the desk and she knew she couldn't do it. "Ya. This is great. I'm just so surprised." Max gave him a reassuring smile as she felt something inside her break.
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A/N: Okay so I know there was very little Alec in this chapter but I promise his thoughts on this whole delio will be known in the next chapter.