Special thanks and hugs sent to Insane Troll Logic for her fabulous beta skills. She definitely keeps me from overwriting my scenes.

Mari83: Thanks as always, and I know all about the holiday madness. I was sucked in too, I felt bad for not dropping more reviews for others works! I'm still working on the whole amnesia thing and where I'm going with it, so hopefully the ideas I have will work. You know the drill, research and make things sound plausable! Thanks so much for letting me know what I'm doing right!

Lisa: I'm trying to write faster! It is tough when my job needs me and I'm not allowed to bring my laptop in to write. I'm really trying to hold a first season tone for Logan. I figured he would act very similar. I really don't like a whiny mopey Logan. He's no fun to write!

lkaplon: Cool, I need to catch up on the episodes and make sure I have everything placed right. Let me know if I mess up!

annie2000: I've never lost my memories, Thank God, but I'm trying to imagine how he would act and what reactions to use, so I'm really glad it is working okay. Again let me know if you think I'm off.

dgurisko2000: I love writing the different POV, and I figured this story would be fun especially seeing reactions from different characters POV. I'm trying not to get confusing with them, let me know if I do!

jgrisham: I hope this chapter answers some of your questions, and the others are very good points I will definitely try to work in. I am trying to finagle a way to bring Bling back, but I need a reason for Max to be there too. My idea is if Bling was around, Max really would have taken off because Bling would be able to do just about everything for Logan and answer a lot of the questions so Max wouldn't be stuck in her predicament. You will start to see more and more flashes that are going to create a lot of conflict with Max and Logan. Great review btw, if you have any more questions or problems let me know! PS. I had finished this chap before your review so let me know if it's gotten better :)

Okay Major AN: This takes place right after the Hello Goodbye episode. Remember Joshua has met Annie and Alec has told him that he has to stay away. I'm trying to run this in a similar time line with the episodes, but I'm making a lot of changes that I think would happen. I'm not going to recap episode pieces. I really don't like reading them because I've already watched the episode. Instead I'm taking my own little tour through the DA verse. I'd love if you stay with me for the ride. I promise to try and make this an enjoyable ride, but I need you guys to tell me what is just plain stupid or redundant. (I'm sorry I'm not a mind reader, so you will have to tell me if I stray a little too much!)

I love reviews, and I wish there was a better way of saying thanks, but thank you to all who have taken the time to leave me all of the great and informative comments.

Chapter 6 - Everything All at Once

Thump.

"Shit!"

Max suppressed her groan of frustration and tried to focus on the inane cartoon playing on the television.

Logan had only been home for two days, but was already attempting moves in his wheelchair that had taken him months to perfect before. It seemed that his body retained the memory even if his mind hadn't. However he still had moments of recklessness.

"Are you okay?" Max called from the living room, knowing the noise had been Logan spinning too fast and knocking the wheel into the cabinet, again. She had witnessed the first two hits and was becoming familiar with the noise.

Logan had resolutely refused her offer to move the cabinet, but last night while he was sleeping she had moved some of the items so that they were less likely to fall if he did bump into it again.

"Fine," Logan's terse reply came from his office.

Alec shot her a wry grin but withheld his smart-assed remark when Max glared at him. "You know he'll get through this all right, right?"

He pulled her into a one armed hug and kissed the top of her head. Max took comfort in the embrace for a moment.

Upon returning from the hospital, Max had decided that she and Logan shouldn't be left alone for fear of her accidentally touching him and killing him or Logan hurting himself and her not being able to help effectively. The gloves had helped her relax, but she was still very hesitant to come into close contact with him. There was just too much that could go wrong even if she was just holding his hand.

"Hey Max," Logan said as he rolled into the living room. She immediately shrugged off Alec's hold and sat up straight looking to Logan.

Logan hadn't broached the subject of his relationship with Max, and she wasn't sure what to tell him. She knew once he was able to function better she couldn't keep hanging onto him. Hadn't the past eight months taught her that? How many near death experiences did he have to have before she kept her distance? She still hadn't figured out how to tell him all of these thoughts, but she knew it would come up sooner or later. Knowing Logan it would be sooner.

Logan looked at them strangely for a moment, but quickly hid the expression and plowed on with his initial question. "I needed to ask you some questions about some files I found on my computer." He looked to Alec, "but if this is, uh, a bad time…"

"No, not at all," Max almost jumped to her feet. "I wasn't sure what you wanted me to do, so I figured that I'd wait and see."

"I have a bunch of files on my computer that I know nothing about, and I spent all day yesterday researching what I could… when someone wasn't yelling at me, to take it easy and rest more," Logan quirked an eyebrow in Max's direction. "I was just wondering if you could give me an overview on those files."

Alec stood from the couch, "Well I can see I'm not needed here. I need to get going anyway."

"No, no you don't," Max said trying to keep the panic out of her voice.

"I gotta go check on Joshua, Max. Have you even seen him since Logan here left the hospital?"

Max felt like she was drowning. She didn't want to be left here alone with Logan. She had made sure they were chaperoned the entire time they had been in the apartment. She wasn't sure if she was ready for the questions Logan might ask if they were left alone. "I saw Joshua yesterday. He said he was fine, but seemed a little upset and said he wanted to be alone."

The truth was that Joshua seemed a lot upset and was working on a third painting of a young woman. He had only told Max that he hated being a freak and wanted to be left alone.

"You can go if you want, Alec," Logan interrupted. "I promise not to touch her." His voice held a bitter edge.

Alec looked at Max slightly chagrined, "I'll have to explain the story when we have more time, but for now I'm gonna go bring him food and make sure he is all right." Alec said. He nodded in Logan's direction and gave Max a soft tap on the arm as he collected his jacket and walked to the door.

Max watched the door swing shut. She turned her face to Logan. "So wanna go take a look at these files?"

Logan stared at her for a moment, she felt like was trying to see right through her. "Yeah, sure," He spun and began to wheel toward the office and Max followed. "I'm beginning to regret that habit of deleting old case files."

Max took a seat in the chair on the opposite side of the office. "I always wondered what happened with that stuff."

"It's safer. All of the needed material gets sent to the proper parties. All of my documents, with the exception of some notes about the outcomes I leave encrypted on my hard drive get shredded and deleted. I don't want to take any chances compromising the safety of my contacts or informants." He grinned, "It keeps me the man of mystery."

Max smiled back, she missed the ease in which they used to communicate. Things between them had been getting so tense lately… It was tough when they both knew what they could have had. It was a battle of wills on both ends. This Logan didn't remember what they had shared and how close they had come to being everything to each other. Now Max just had to repress the memories and pain within herself.

"Did I ever say thank you for saving Sophie and Lauren?" Logan asked nonchalantly.

"Yeah," Max said distantly as she scratched her arm and froze. She had nearly forgotten about the mark on her arm from White's cult ritual. She inwardly groaned. Logan was supposed to be looking into it. Now she had to figure out how to catch Logan up on White and the cult, not to mention the entire transgenic community running all over the city. It had been hard enough dealing with just the Eyes Only cases. She had left out a lot of the transgenic stuff because she figured that would just add more confusion to this already confusing mess.

"I want to thank you again, being I don't remember thanking you the first time," Logan said. She realized, to her embarrassment, that she had been having an inner debate while Logan had been staring at her.

"Sorry. I was just thinking of the stuff I need to catch you up on. We got most of the cases you've done out of the way at least," Max said as she stood up. "I'm not sure what else you need to know."

"Well I pulled up these files on Transgenics and I have some strange drawing in this file, I've marked - Max," Logan said he turned to the computer and pulled up the files and showing her the picture he had taken of the mark.

"Oh, that," Max said silently cursing herself and trying to figure out how to explain all of this new information. In the end her mouth answered before her brain had received the message. "I got it a few weeks ago when we were rescuing a boy named Ray from his delusional father who is a member of a psychotic cult. I think they're bent on world domination or some kind of Coming."

Logan stared at her for a moment, incredulity covering his face, "I guess that's why I seem to have a bunch of files on Transgenics and on prophecies," Logan said as he regained his composure. "I really did miss a lot these past two years, huh?"

Max hated that she had let Logan find out about all of the happenings this way. She had no idea how to tell him, and now she had inadvertently dumped everything on him at once. "This cult stuff only started about seven months ago, but between you, myself and the other Transgenics we kept coming up with newer and scarier things. I'm still not sure what's really happening or when it's supposed to happen."

Logan sat for a moment fiddling with the rims on his chair. "I guess we need to start at the beginning. Tell me about Ames White."

Max took a deep breath and started from the beginning. She talked about first meeting Ames White when he captured her trying to save the group of young soldiers stuck in a barn and the weird things that Ames had told her about her DNA. She progressed through their different encounters and how they found out about the cult and rescued Ray from the cult run academy.

Logan sat quietly listening to Max's condensed version. At a few points she wondered if he was going to break his silence, but he stopped himself and allowed her to continue. She felt bad, but she omitted a lot of the Eyes Only broadcast's. She wanted Logan safe, and he never would be if he continued to do broadcasts and research on the Transgenics.

When she finished, he seemed to think for a moment before speaking, "So basically we don't have much information on this cult, and Ames White seems to have an all access pass from the government." He paused, "And here, I used to think that corrupt politicians were bad." he shook his head and swung his chair around and smacked his knee into on of the desk legs. "Ouch, damn it!"

It only took Max a moment to remember the results of Logan's last Transgenic transfusion. She opened her mouth to ask if he was alright but the words wouldn't come. It had only been two days. It had taken two transfusions and several weeks before the last one had taken effect. She didn't know what to tell Logan.

He turned his head to look at her, "The neurologist that Bev hooked me up with, the one I used before, Sam, told me to expect phantom sensations, I just never expected them to feel like that." he must have noticed her expression because he asked, "Max is everything alright?"

Here was her second big revelation for the day. She took a deep breath, "Logan, I didn't tell you, and to be honest I really didn't think about it, but last year I transfused you and you were able to have some feeling and function of your legs, but it was only for a few days." She said rapidly hearing the sadness that crept into her voice as softened toward the end.

"Joshua transfused me," Logan said obviously trying to absorb the revelation of whether or not he might have function back in his legs. Even for a brief time.

Max watched transfixed as the emotions cascaded over Logan's face. She didn't know what else to say. Silently she berated herself for giving him false hope. She had just told him that he might walk again but only for a short time. "I'm sorry," she whispered.

Logan brought his gaze to meet hers, "I think I remember something." His face was expressionless. "It was just a flash, but I remember Elliot Bay and you next to me."

Max paled slightly at the memory.

She wanted more then anything to tell Logan about that day and how good and bad it was. How they stood with their feet in the freezing water and how he held her so tightly while he looked into her eyes. Then when they had their date, Zac called and everything just went wrong from there. Her hell bent trip to rescue him, when she finally returned and Logan pushed her away because his legs were ceasing to function.

She shook her head to clear the thoughts and avoid the tears that were threatening her eyes. She couldn't make it out to be more then it was, just a memory. She needed to keep herself separate from Logan, and try to avoid the heartache again. "You had just gained your legs back and had to use a cane," she said distantly, "but you told me you felt like anything was possible."

"Max, what were we?" Logan asked his voice low. He seemed like a child asking a question about the unknown for a second.

She knew the question was coming, she'd been expecting it, but she had just hoped that she wouldn't have to answer. She tried to force a smile, "We've always been friends, Logan," she answered almost automatically. "You're probably my best friend. Just don't tell OC okay?"

Logan looked at her for a moment before answering, "I won't." A small seemingly forced smile crossed his face before he continued, "So you and Alec?"

Max mentally cursed and bit into her lip. This was it, the out she had been looking for. The way to make Logan think that they were just friends and nothing more.

"Yeah," she lied softly. She hated the look of sadness that flashed through his green eyes, "Me and Alec."

Alright before you say it I was told that I'm an evil, rotten person for ending it this way. But feel free to tell me again! I'm tough I can take it (okay, maybe not that tough, please add something nice after you yell!)

I'm sorry in advance. I promise things will get better.

I'm sorry to tell everyone, I love Max and Alec as a brother/sister thing. Alec is an awsome character and I love seeing how Max had affected him in the series. He became a much better person, and hell Jensen is hot! I'm just being up front that I probably won't be adding too much in the M/A category, but who knows there might be a little bit down the road depending on where my mind decides to wander! Ultimately I am a M/L shipper though and hopefully this fic will arrive there.