Its time to move on
As Liberty approached the Nelson home she could hear music blasting out for all corners, she looked inside to see everyone already there having the time of their lives school was over that was a huge reason to celebrate but somehow Liberty could enjoy it she was to rapped up with thoughts of JT to even think about the party.Either way she need to go Mrs. Nelson had made this party especially for the graduates and it would be rude if Liberty didn't show up, Liberty took a deep breath and wiped any access tears she had on her face and knocked on the door, seconds later the flew opened and Liberty came across Spike and Archie "Congratulations" the yelled in collectively and blew little party whistles " Liberty laughed thanked them before they let her in . Liberty looked around to see any familiar faces but didn't see any, "were the rest of the group? she asked " the back yard" they replied Liberty thanked them and walked towards the back.
" I cant believe our Degrassi days are over " Kendra sighed Emma nodded "I miss it already" " me too" Manny agreed Sean rolled his eyes at the girls "come on, you were just complaining to me four weeks ago about how hard it was and how you guys flunk and blah blah blah" "Well I for one am happy that we are done but the same time I am upset, upset to never be in Degrassi again but happy to never be called the school nerd, I mean once we are in university it's a new life" "yeah but still Tobes, Degrassi was our home we faced the good, the bad, and the ugly in it, it has all our memories everything" Manny exclaimed "I agree with Manny, sorry Toby besides it should be important to you all of your memories are there to and most importantly all the memories with JT" Emma reminded him Toby went quiet for a bit and then said "I miss him guys, I went to visit today cause its his first anniversary " Emma, Manny and Sean nodded " we did to, in the morning we just dropped by to talk to him for a bit and place flowers on his grave".Manny wiped away a tear Emma hugged her Sean rapped his arms around Emma and Toby placed his hand on Manny shoulder and Kendra took Toby hand they all stood silently.
" Oh well isn't this just so cute " a voice rose from behind them breaking the silence they all looked to see Liberty stand in the doorway "hey guys" she smiled, as Liberty came closer towards them they all could visibly see Liberty had been crying although there was no sign of smudged make up, her red puffy eyes gave it away "hey Lib, were have you been you're an nearly 2 hours late" Emma asked already knowing the answer " "oh i just had to take care of something that's all" she replied smiling Emma nodded knowing that Liberty didn't want to discuss it any further.
Just them Archie voice could be heard "come on guys its time to cut the cake" "oooh cake" Kendra eyes widen and she bolted into the house Toby rolled his eyes and laughed to himself knowing that this was one of the feature he loved about her. Emma took Sean's hand and pulled him inside leaving Manny and Liberty " come on Lib, time for cake" Manny clapped impatiently she turned to see tears falling from Liberty's eyes " oh Lib, what's wrong?" Manny asked rushing to her side, she rubbed her back gently as Liberty dug her head into Manny shoulder "oh honey its gonna be ok, I promise " Manny tried to sooth her but she know that there was nothing she could do or say to make the pain Liberty was feeling go away "I miss him so much Manny, he should be here celebrating with us, I keep thinking that he is gonna walk through the door and surprise us but then reality hits me, his gone" Manny arms were placed so tightly around Liberty that she could feel every single convolution Liberty's body made, Manny couldn't say a thing she didn't know what to say, she just held Liberty " Guys were cutting the …….." Emma came outside to see Liberty crying in Manny's arms , she gently pulled Liberty from Manny's grasp " come Lib lets get you home" Liberty frowned " I'm sorry for all this guys, this was suppose to be a happy day for us" "hey don't worry about it Lib all that matters is that your ok" Manny reassured her " exactly" Emma agreed.
As they walked in all eyes were fixated on them, they all saw Liberty tear stained face "girls is everything ok?" Spike asked as her focus came on to the girls "everything is fine mom, Liberty just needs to head off" Liberty grabbed her stuff " thank you Mr. and Mrs. Simpson for this wonderful party I'm sorry I couldn't stay longer" Liberty fiddled with her bag because she knew all eyes where on her, she quickly said her goodbyes to her friends and was about ready to go when Sean stopped her "wait Liberty you cant drive like this, let me take you home" Liberty was to weak to argue with anyone she just nodded and waited for Sean to get his keys " are you sure your gonna be ok Liberty I can call your parents if you want" Archie suggested Liberty gave Archie a small smile " that wont be necessary Mr. Simpson ill be ok" Archie nodded respecting her wishes " well if you need anything Liberty and I mean anything please don't hesitate to call ok" Spike told her " of course and thank you" " lets go" Sean called out Liberty hugged Emma, Manny, Toby and Kendra headed off with Sean.
The ride home with Sean was a quiet one neither of them said anything to each other Sean focused on getting Liberty home safely and Liberty stared at the window vacantly, finally Sean broke the silence " you know JT wouldn't want you to be like this" Liberty looked over at Sean " I know, I know its just so hard" Liberty sighed "I loved him, I still love him, you know its just so hard to let go of someone you shared so much with " Sean reached for Liberty and placed his hand on Liberty's shoulder "I'm sorry Liberty I know he meant so much to you" tears fell from Liberty's eyes she wiped them quickly not wanting Sean to know she was crying again "thanks Sean".
The rest of the ride was spent in silence, until they finally reached their destination "here we are Lib" Liberty smiled " thanks for everything Sean, I really appreciate it" Liberty hugged Sean " anything for a friend" Sean said hugging her back Liberty got out of the car and walked towards the house she opened the door and waved to Sean to let him know she was ok , he waved back and drove off. "home sweet home" Liberty sighed Liberty turned on the light to see a note on the table she read it ….
Liberty
Your father and I won't be home to really late, dinner is in the stove, and Danny is staying over Derek's house tonight, you have the house to yourself so be good and we will be back as soon as possible
Love you,
Mom
"the house all to myself what ever should I do " Liberty rolled her eyes knowing that she probably will end up going to bed, Liberty was to depressed to go out or do anything she went to the refrigerator and got out a carton of choc chip ice-cream and then grabbed the whipped cream and the chocolate syrup and poured as much as she could all over the ice-cream finally she went to the cupboard and got out Danny's secret marshmallow stash she grabbed a bunch in her hand and sprinkled it over the top " There" she grinned.Liberty walked up to her room and change in to her t-shirt and short went to her closet and grabbed out a old photo album of the her and JT on the cover of it, it read 'Four Years In The Making' JT had got it custom made for them for their anniversary Liberty signed she held the Ice-cream in one hand and the photo album in the other " she opened it up and read the letter JT had made for her inside………
To My Libby Tibby,
Ok so I have to warn you I am not really good at this mushy stuff but here goes nothing…. Liberty no words on this Earth could ever express how much you mean to me, I know that I have hurt you in the past by saying I don't like you even when my friends always believed I did come Lib lets faced it I wasn't the brightest kid in Degrassi . But seriously Liberty I put this photo album for you to show you what we have been through, each of these memories whether they are good or bad made us the couple we are today, some have made us stronger then before while others have broken us down but we managed to get through all the tough time. Yes and I have to admit I was wrong maybe I was just to stubborn to see what was right in front of me ……….True love, I am thankful to have you as a part of my past, present and hopefully my future, so this is for you so you can relieve all over memories for years to come and when we are old and grey we can look back at it together and see that it was all worth it. I adore you and I hope that fill up the blank pages of this album with new memories. Our Journey Has Only Begun.
JT
Tears stained the photo album as Liberty took a big spoonful of ice-cream and flipped the page of the photo album she came across pictures of her now past, picture of the 7th grade science competition, pictures of her, Manny and Emma at their first dance pictures of her and JT before his death. Each photo has a little note indicating JT sense of humor like in one picture it was of there 8th grade homecoming dance JT wrote "remember how Manny feed Paige a peanut butter cup even though she know Paige was allergic, Paige swelled up like balloon, she didn't even realize it sand when she went to get her crown as homecoming she posed because she though she looked good and she later on found out what Manny had done. Those photos ended up going on the school year book and posted out for everyone to see and Paige had a fit…. Ah the good old days" Liberty chuckled to herself JT was always the one to remember all the drama that occurred , she turned the page over to see a picture of her and JT cuddling which Manny had randomly took one day Liberty smiled before taking another big gulp of her now half melted ice-cream .
" You know that stuff isn't good for you, you have had about three of those sundaes this month" a voice came from behind her without even looking up Liberty responded " one and a half, besides its not like I do this all the time" she exclaimed defensively, familiar laughter now filled the air " ok whatever Lib but you know and I know that your wrong" Liberty sighed in defeat " so I see you are looking though the photo album I made you, you know how long that thing took to make" Liberty laughed " 5 weeks" she said absentmindedly, she peeled her eyes of the album and looked at the surprised face "Toby told me he said you couldn't stop complaining about it, what ribbons to put, what color it should be, what the cover should say" Liberty rolled her eyes " but I love it, its beautiful JT" they both smiled "anything for my Libby " Liberty sighed "am i dreaming or is this real?" she asked not being able to believe her eyes JT smiled "why don't you feel it for yourself" JT told her.
Liberty's trembling hand reached for JT's face and she touched his cheek and immediately cried out " you're here, its really you" she cried "oh my god" she sobbed uncontrollably " I'm here Lib, I never left you" JT placed his hands over Liberty's " do you see these eyes they are still made to see you" he smiled " see these lips they are still made to kiss you" JT said as he kisses her hand "See this heart" he said moving Liberty's hand from his face to his chest he whispered in her ear "it still beats for you" .
Liberty's heart caught in her throat she couldn't say a thing " but I'm gone Liberty and your still here, you need to live your life and be happy, I want you to move on Lib, and fall in love again, I'm watching over you and I cant bear to see you this way, its been a year Liberty its ok you can move on" JT caressed her face gently but Liberty shook her head "no no I cant I cant JT, I don't want to" JT looked straight into her eyes " you have to for me, ok do it for me besides I'm gonna be watching over you so you I'll know if you don't do this, so you better be good " he laughed before his face turned serious " I have to get going but I'll be back to check on you ok, I love you Liberty and I just want you to be happy" JT leaned forewords and kissed Liberty's head " ill see you soon ok" he reassured her " I love you too JT" Liberty choked out JT walked away before turning around again "by the way, I'm doing just fine don't worry about me, thanks for visiting me today " he turned back around and disappeared. Liberty knees bucked and she fell to the floor crying " It is only you JT nobody but you"