Panic. It enters your system quickly, like a virus spreading into every pore of your body carrying fear and worry with it. And as it spreads your body begins to tremble to the reaction, your adrenaline pumping loudly within your veins, breath becoming jagged as you try to speak only coming to realize your words remain logged in the bottomless crevises of your throat. It freezes you, turns you immobile, until all the thoughts in your brain are swimming rapidly at a deadly pace.
Panic strikes deligently, and as a virus you simply have to wait it out until it slowly begins to fade. Breaking the barrier until the words slip out of the cavern.
"Wh-hat...what do you mean?" I whispered to Donavon, still unable to move and it seemed that was the only coherent thought that seemed to transfer into words.
"Oh, please Bella. I've known you for far too long to not know what is going on. I know why you didn't tell me it's quite understandable-"
"I-I was going to! I just needed to find the right...opportunity" I started
"I know, Bella. We can't talk about this now, it's too dangerous. We'll discuss it at home. Five o'clock in the gardens. The family would go into a raged frenzy if they found out." He stated just as we stopped in front of my next class. I hadn't even noticed we were walking anywhere, everyone seemed as a blur to me in my panicked state.
"Five o'clock. I'll see you then" He smiled at me and swiftly turned away disappearing into the sea of people devouring the halls.
I still couldn't breathe properly, he knew. He had to. Someone knew about Edward and I, the thought scared me half to death. However a sense of relief also washed through me, someone knew. One less person we had to hide from. If we could only live in a society where we didn't have to hide.
Where I could display even the most innocent of gestures, like holding his hand, without endangering our very existence. Kiss him without fear of someone watching, someone telling our families.
I walked into biology in haze, simply yearning for this agonizing day to be over. I walked up to the stumpy looking teacher sitting behind the desk and introduced myself quietly.
"Hello Isabella. My name is Mr. Banner, I will be your biology teacher for the year. You may go take a seat in the third row."
I nodded my head once and made my way down the isle, pulling the rusty red chair out of its empty space and sitting down. I felt as if I had a migraine. Could vampires getm migraines? I placed my head against my arm, laying it on the desk fully aware of the stares that were penetrating my back.
Suddenly I felt someone stir beside me and gently entwine their fingers with my one unattended hand under the desk. My head shot up shockingly and whipped around to see the face of an angel.
"Edward!" I screamed, squeezing his hand tightly under the table.
"Shh, love. We don't want any attention drawn to us. If anyone tells our families we even spoke they will get suspicious. We don't want that. It's hard enough as is keeping our secret, and it's only been a day!" He laughed beautifully.
I loved that laugh of his I thought as I laughed along with him softly.
We smiled at each other and turned out attention back to the class, making sure we didn't do anything to make the other students think we had anything other than hatred for one another. However, what they couldn't see couldn't hurt us. So his hand was kept softly within my own drawing loving circles into my skin. Even with that simple gesture my body began to react above my control as my power trickled lightly within me causing warmth to spread onto his own hand.
From my peripheral vision I saw him crookedly smile from just a second before he composed himself again, masking his feelings for me with a black expression.
The class started to take notes on the stages of meiosis. I figured I would at least try to blend in, even though I could recite the subject in my sleep. I saw Edward do the same next to me.
As I started writing down meaningless notes I felt a piece of paper hit my hand. I picked it up curiously and opened the folds.
I can't stand not talking to you, it's torture being so close yet having to act as if you're not even there.
Edward's elegant handwriting showed. I smiled to myself, eagerly writing back to him in handwriting I would hardly call legible.
I know how you feel, I don't want to hide like this. I wish we could just be ourselves without any threat.
I passed it swiftly to him at vampire speed so know one would see. Not even five seconds later I found the note beside my hand again.
Do you think you could get away from your family after school?
I thought about this for a minute, I could go home and say I needed to hunt. That would give me enough time with Edward.
Yes I wrote back I'll say I'm out hunting, where are you whisking me off to, Mr. Cullen?
He smiled gently and passed the note back,
That my dear is for me to know, and for you to find out.
Surprises. I hated surprises, my entire family knew that, especially Donavon. But that didn't stop anyone from stopping. They all just loved popping out from various dark places and scaring me to death. Kidnapping me and taking me to stupid black tie events that I would rather gouge my eyes out rather than attend.
Surprises were just not my thing.
I groaned at the note and sent him an aggravated yet playful glare his way.
I hate surprises, will you please just tell me where you are taking me...
Not a chance, I think you'll like this surprise. And get used to it, there will be plenty more where this came from.
Well, maybe this surprise wouldn't be so bad. It was Edward after all, and I suppose I could wait a few hours to see where he was taking me. Even though I was incredibly impatient.
Alright then. But just this once! Where are meeting?
Just this once, eh? We shall see about that. Go home first and meet me in front of the school after you have told them you're going hunting. You can't find where I am taking you unless you already know where you are going. I love you.
Even though he's told me before, I could help the butterflies raging in my stomach every time he told me he loved me. The amazing sensation that flowed through me caused by three simple words with such an engaging meaning.
I love you too. I wrote back, feeling as if those words weren't sufficient enough to express my true feelings for him. No words were, I couldn't explain this feeling that washed over me every moment I thought of him, spoke to him, looked at that brilliant face of his. The way my body overreacted every second he was near me, those feelings couldn't be directed into a simple phrase. And I love you, even though felt feeble, had to do for now.
Bella, the period is ending in two minutes and I fear that people are wondering why we aren't "at each other's throats", so what ever I might say to you please know is a complete lie. Don't believe any word that comes out of my mouth from now until the end of the period. Know that I love you and would never want to intentionally hurt you.
Edward gently slid his hand out of my own, brushing his fingertips along my thighs. I closed my eyes at the sensation, the spark that was sent throughout my body. I didn't even have time to respond to the note before he began the performance of a lifetime.
"What are the chances I would get a Swan sitting next to me. Now I have to stare at your depraved face for an entire forty four minute period, what ever am I going to do?"
Even though I knew it was all a charade it still pierced my heart, and I couldn't help the anger and pain flaring from within me.
"Well, what I would suggest is bringing a mirror into class every day and stare into it for the entire forty four minute period. If your talking about depravation, I'm sure you will have no problem finding it there underneath your obnoxious demeanor."
He looked at me incredulously, with a twinge of pain in his eyes. All I wanted to do was make that pain go away, stop this stupid show which by now the entire class was staring at, feeding on every word that escaped our mouths like vultures.
He stood up now, his tall wonderfully built body hovering over my own "Well I would take an obnoxious demeanor over a cold hearted drone any day." He snapped at me.
This one broke through the ice and I stood up with urgency. "Talking about cold hearted drones, where is your family?" I screamed.
His hand touched mine for the slightest second, by now my anger had flared above the normal level, my hands shaking on the table, supporting all of my weight, as the pain erupted in my chest. I hadn't even noticed the inferno my body had created underneath my finger tips.
And as his hand touched my own, I knew he had felt it. He yanked his hand away immediately in pain just as the bell rang. I looked at him shocked, shocked that I let that happen. Even if it wasn't intentional. He was still looking at me, pain, sorrow, anger, love, all in the same dismal expression.
The entire class had exited now, even the teacher and I knew if we didn't hurry we would be late to our next class. But I couldn't move, and neither did he. We were still in the same defensive stance, looking into one anothers eyes. And suddenly he grabbed my hand in his own and dragged me off to a barren side of the room, shaded by the darkness of the clouds and crashed his lips into my own.
I eagerly kissed him back, my eyelids closing on their own putting all of my false rage and pain into the kiss. "Im sorry, Bella. Im so sorry" he kept whispering in the small amount of time our lips were apart. My only response was to push my body deeper into his, stroke his face gently with my fingertips, silently telling him everything was alright.
I heard footsteps approaching the door a few feet away and it seemed he heard them as well for we both reluctantly broke apart at the same time. As I opened my eyes he was already across the room in less than one second.
They came to the door and opened it, panic soared throughout my body for what seemed like the millionth time today. But as I looked over at Edward he seemed to relax his body and let out a sigh of relief.
I looked over to the door and saw none other than...
OHH, hehe. Who is it?! It's not too hard to figure out, don't worry. I'll update next week, sorry if this seemed a bit OOC. But when people know 2 families hate each other and are constantly enraged with one another, not being able to sit in the same room together not to mention the next seat, they begin to wonder why these two people are smily sitting quietly next to one another without one single negative remark. Edward hears their thoughts, and that's why he feels as if he has to put on this show for suspicion to be minimill.
The next chapter will be longer!! And it will include who is at the door, where Edward is taking Bella, AND Bella's talk with Don. So it will probably be the longest one yet!!
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