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Genre: Angst
Rating: M for safety measures
Envy"Sesshomaru-sama…" I turned to see Rin tugging at my hand. She looked so innocent as she looked up at me. "What do you want?" I said with more coldness then what was in my heart. She seemed to know this, because she didn't seem hurt. "I just wanted to let you know that I'll always love you!" her smiled rivaled the rays of the sun. I resisted smiling back. Instead I turned away from her. 'Yes Rin…' I thought to myself, 'I'll always love you…'
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"Sesshomaru…" I turned to see a woman with a soft face. She didn't need to tug my hand. She didn't need to add Sama after my name. "What is it?" I said with a sigh. She took no offense to it. After all, she's been with me for about ten years. "I'm going to be leaving soon." Her tears rivaled even the harshest rain. I resisted showing my pain.
"What is out there for you, Rin?" I asked. She looked out the open window. The sun was beginning to rise. "A whole world, Sesshomaru." She replied softly. I scowled, "The world that had you killed by wolves? Do you wish to die again?" she looked at me with sadness in her eyes. "No, Sesshomaru. But I can't stay here for the rest of my life. I'm almost 19." I scorned humans for wanting so much…freedom. Demons would be more than happy to remain in one place.
"What is out there for you Rin?" I repeated. This time, she didn't have an answer. Instead, she headed for the front of my castle. I watched her hold the door. "Sesshomaru." She said quietly, looking away from me. I kept my eyes on her. Suddenly, she looked up at me with tears, "I just wanted you to know that I'll always love you!"
I watched her quickly open the door and run. I knew she had no idea where she was going, but still she ran. "The answer is nothing." I said in response to my earlier question. "Nothing."
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It's been months since Rin left. I continuously told myself not to worry, but I did anyway. I felt lost without this human.
"DAMMIT SESSHOMARU!" I screamed to myself. My voice echoed throughout the castle walls. I was too afraid that if I went to search for her, that I'd become soft. That I would start loving humans and all of that stupid shit.
I looked out the window. The same window she looked out of. I felt my pride subside. "Rin, I'm going to find you and bring you home." I said confidently. I headed for the door. As I touched it, I could still feel the warmth of her hands. It made me more determined to find her.
Quickly I headed in the direction she did long ago. I never forgot her aimless run into the unforgiving world. I used my unique sense of smell to try and pick up her scent. It was no use. Water was everywhere.
Soon I came to small footsteps in the dirt that seemed to fade over time. They were definitely woman's feet. I hoped that they were Rin's and followed them diligently. It led me past the waterfall. "Got it!" I said triumphantly. I was starting to get a whiff of Rin's scent. It was more mature than the last time I smelled her. In fact…she seemed to be sweating. The smell was slightly salt as I edged closer. I could now hear her breathing loudly. She was saying something…"I love you."
"I LOVE you!?' I yelled incredulously, "Who could she be saying this too?" I quickened my agility to an almost neck breaking speed. I was going to find out who my precious Rin was cooing these words to!
Finally, I came to a small hut in the middle of the woods. I could hear her panting…no. NO! I opened the door to see exactly what I feared. Rin was sweating underneath some guy I didn't know. He was inside her and she was begging for more. "Rin…" I said in such a cold voice, I felt the temperature drop. Rin saw me and quickly got from underneath her lover. "Sesshomaru!" she cried. The man looked at me with fear in his eyes.
"You…You SOILED her!" I screamed, releasing Tokijin. "No, Wait!" Rin cried, standing before this nobody. "I love him!" she sobbed. I looked at her with the pain in my heart clearly visible. "You…you what?" I stuttered. Before she could answer my question, I violently pushed her out the way. "You've made her forget me!" I screamed to the man. He backed up against the wall. I edged closer with Tokijin burning brightly in my hand. "I'll cut you where you stand!"
"Sesshomaru!" Rin cried. It was too late. I wedged my sword deep into this asshole's heart. I made sure it went through his back. Then I forcefully pulled Tokijin upwards. His head fell in two opposite directions. "EYAAAAAHH!" Rin screamed. The painful sound echoed throughout my heart.
"You…" I said, turning on her. "You loved him? What about ME?" She stood up, still naked and crying. I walked slowly to her, "You said you'd always love me! You said it twice!" I was so close to her, I could practically taste the man's sweat on her body. It was disgusting.
My anger took over any other emotion, "I WON"T BE LIED TO!" Before I knew what was happening; I raised my sword and struck my precious Rin in the stomach. She fell, holding on to her gut. She was losing a lot of blood.
"RIN!" I cried, realizing what I have done. I held on to her. She looked up me slowly. Warmth was still in her eyes. "Sesshomaru…" she said softly. I gave her my undivided attention. "I just wanted you to know…I sill lo…" she closed her eyes and fainted in my hands. "Rin!" I cried taking out Tensaiga. I saw the messengers coming for her.
I lifted my sword…and put it back in its sheath. "If I revive her…" I said to myself, "She'll find love elsewhere again." I watched the messengers go away. "I think she's had enough of my envy."
Remorse
After all these years, you've got me
It feels different from your dreams
My body limply going down…
Why did you catch me?
I was your target
The reason you felt hate
I've caused so many tears
I really can relate
Finally it's time to lower that precious box
Be happy, you can't kill me again
Sadistic dreams become memories as you hold me one last time
Tell me,
Would you kill me again?
By the way, the poem is mine. I'm going to enter it in some poetry contest, so don't go stealing it!