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"Bella, it was really no problem." He said warmly. "But you will always be considered part of this family. When or if you need another home we're always here. And please call me Carlisle."
"Thank you. But that won't be necessary." Bella smiled up at me, kissing me on the chin. "Well," I cleared my throat. "We should be off."
"Bella, please." Alice begged, running up to the two of us. She clutched Bella's hand tightly. "I miss my best friend."
"Well." I sniffed, my voice lower than usual. "I missed my best friend for 50 years."
"But..but…we didn't KNOW!" She stressed the words like a very unhappy small child.
"Do we have to go through this again?" Adrien muttered, grinning down at me.
"Very funny." I punched him in the shoulder, then turned back to Alice. The words in my mouth could not form. My mouth would not let me speak the "Get out of my life" sentence. I couldn't do it. "I can't." Everyone's face fell as my husband stayed silent. "I just need time." I explained quickly. "I can't just forgive and forget. It's too hard. Maybe one day…but not now."
Carlisle nodded slowly, "Okay dear, we shall wait until the day you are ready to rejoin our family. Adrien included." He added when I looked up at Adrien.
"Thank you." I was so happy that they had been able to understand, and not blow up in my face. But I had thought too soon.
"THAT'S NOT FAIR!" Edward exploded as we turned to stare at him.
"Edward, go to your room." Carlisle's voice sounded deadly, as if this were a life or death matter.
"NO!" He yelled again. I put my hand in Adrien's.
"What's not fair?" I questioned sweetly. I had a minimal idea of what it could be, but he had no right to say it.
"YOU CANNOT JUST LEAVE EVERYONE IN PAIN FOR THE NEXT 20 YEARS DANGLING, WHEN YOU MIGHT NOT EVEN COME BACK. IT'S NOT FAIR TO JUST LET US SUFFER FOR SO LONG."
Everyone watched quietly as I advanced, my face blank. I would make sure that he understood. "When I said I would forgive." I murmured in his ear, that way no one could hear. "I meant them, not you. YOU will never be forgiven. Do you understand?" I pulled back, realizing what I had just said…how mean it was. "Anyway," I raised my voice. "You have Nicole. She should be enough." I turned on my heel, and headed to the door.
EPOV
I sprinted up the stairs as I heard the front door slam. I cracked my cds in half. I'd never be forgiven…and I had Nicole. But right now, she really didn't matter. I loved her…or I used to. But now it was like a sister, not a girlfriend. I checked my watch. Half past five. I was already late to go hang out with Nicole. I made a running leap out the window, landing on the balls of my feet. I tore through the evergreen forest, ignoring the McKaye mansion. I pressed my hand firmly on the doorbell. The door opened slowly, I groaned, it was Kristen. She hated me with her guts; I hated me too…for letting Nicole get obsessed with me and vice versa until now.
"Is Nicole here?" I asked, leaning my back against the porch. I already knew the answer, she was here…but blocking her thoughts. Something must have happened.
"Yeah she's here but leave." Kirsten made an effort to close the door, I quickly put my foot as a door stopped. I zeroed in on her thoughts. Stupid guy. I hate him. Especially after standing her up…by like 30 min, she's in hysterics, that's not normal. She's like obsessed. I felt like slamming my head against the door, I had done it AGAIN.
"We were supposed to hang out." I stared into her angry boiling eyes. What could I do to set things right between this girl and I? I had to try to be nice…and I was but it wasn't MY fault she hated me.
"Well you're late." She sniffed, looking down. I could tell that the mural was breaking.
"Family business." I murmured acidly.
"Kirsten let him in! God! It's okay." I stared up at the girl that I had once loved. She was still beautiful, despite the crumpled and tear stained shirt. I stepped into the light room, past Kirsten and up the steps.
"Sis don't do anything that I wouldn't do." Kirsten waved. God she was a bitch. How could Bella put up with her? But Bella was changed. The new Bella was probably just like her. But I wanted that new Bella.
"Hey Edward." I followed Nicole to Bella's old room. The room looked like a tornado had come through. This was quite unusual. Something had happened and I was probably the cause.
"Nicole, why are you blocking me?" I asked, my voice in a whisper, all my energy had been used up from the events of today.
"Why are you late?" She shot back with a sad smile on her tear stained face. I gently touched her face, passing down the red lines.
I tried to phrase this so she wouldn't be worried. "Some family problems." I held her in my lap, though I knew it was all wrong. I glanced around the room. Only an old shoebox caught my eye. I had never seen it before.
"What happened? Emmett? Rose? Alice? Jasper?-" Her voice was in sheer panic, I forced my eyes back to her face.
"No… nothing like that." I found myself mumbling. "Bella- Adrien." The words were not very understandable. I felt tears fall onto my glacial hands. "Sweetie, what's wrong? Are you okay? What happened?" I found myself gulping back the lies and guilt.
"N-nothing Edward." She stood up wobbly out of my arms, and crossed the room to the old rocking chair.
"Nicole." I let out an exasperated sigh. "Just tell me. I won't get mad." What could Nicole possibly say that would offset my anger.
"You love her." The words sliced through the air, I found myself tensing and shaking my head.
"No." I retorted.
"Yes."
"Nicole! I know who I love and don' t love. And I don't love her." I said through gritted teeth. More tears followed as she grasped the old box. I found myself shaking. It couldn't be THAT box.
"So you accidentally left this under the floor boards?" She threw the box at my face and I caught it without hesitation.
"How did you?" No wonder Bella hated me so much. She thought I was a monster….someone that had just let everything die. But I had had some hope that she would find it, and she hadn't.
"I fell over a loose floorboard when I was looking for my wallet, this came up." Nicole's voice cracked as she picked up one of the scattered pictures off the floor. "I really thought…that it had been just a joke between you two… but it was only wishful thinking." More tears streamed down her face, but I stayed frozen in place. I was glued to my seat, not able to move. "And now…she's taking you away from me…"
"It's not like that." I said acidly, though I wished it were. How much I wished that I could go back and time and fix it all.
"She may not love you…but you still love her." I swore under my breath, when had she gotten so smart as to read my face, my face was unreadable. I shook my head, no. At least I had her. "Yes Edward." Nicole held my face in her hands, a small watery smile touching her red lips. "And…and… I don't want to be with you if you still love her." She lifted the picture, so it reflected in the light. "I can see now that you only liked me because we look alike…"
"No, Nicole, please." I begged. I remembered the first day of school, and maybe Nicole was right…I hadn't loved her.
I walked into Forks High, a memory that I had long wished to forget. A memory of when my life had come to an end. I stood brooding in the back seat of Alice's new car.
"Ooh! I'm so excited!" She murmured happily. I raised my eyebrows, how could everyone move on from her but me?
"Shut up Alice." I played with my hands, going over the smooth veins.
"Get over her Edward. Please. It's ripping everyone apart." She had ignored my words of wisdom.
"I can't." I argued, my heart shredding at the mention of her.
" You can, she left you…okay? And- and I miss her too but it was better this way." I felt like roaring in anger, I had left, I had lied. Her eyes glazed over while a frown hung on her face. "She's back?" I entered Alice's mind and watch the scene unfold.
"Hi I'm Nicole." A beautiful girl had her hand out, waiting for me to shake it. Her features were identical to Bella's.
"I'm Edward. Would you like to go out sometime?" The words rushed out of my mouth before I could contain them. If she was anything like Bella then I could sort of move on, in a way.
Nicole threw me out of the memory. "Remember that day? You asked me out? You didn't even know me. Yet you acted like we'd known each other from before. Playing in on private jokes that I was supposed to understand but didn't. You were living a memory Edward." She pulled away. "I'm sorry but we're done."
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