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Chapter 9- Wake Up Worries

InuYasha groaned lightly and his eyes gradually flicked open. He groaned again as he sat up, surveying his surroundings. His eyes landed upon the sleeping form of Kagome, in the same position as last night. He unconsciously smiled as he looked over the girl. Her raven hair splashed about the pillow, shining in the newly up sun's pale golden light. Her chest rose and fell to her slow, steady breathing. He sighed in content and took and deep breath welcoming the scent of Kagome. She smelled of vanilla and lavender with a hint of white roses. He thought over everything. He thought about how he had met her. He had been pinned to the sacred tree for 50 years until Kagome fell down the well. She ran into trouble and ran towards the tree blindly searching for help. It was her desperate cries for help that had made him awaken from suspended animation. When she was, literally, in a bind with him, because of mistress centipede, he had basically forced her to release him, otherwise, they'd both end up dead. She reached as far as she could, grasped the arrow in his chest and pulled it out, releasing him. He murdered mistress centipede and tried to kill Kagome as well. He grimaced at the thought. He wanted to kill her then, but he defiantly didn't now. The thought reminded him of his goal that he desperalty wanted to achieve: to be a full fledged demon.

'But if I do turn into a full fledged demon how will I react to Kagome...and the others?' he thought miserably. In his mind, it was ether one or the other. How much did he want to be friends with Miroku, Sango and Kagome? And just how much did he want to become a full blooded demon? Where did he stand right now? To many questions were running through his head at once so he shook his head to clear his mind. All at once he began thinking of the terrifying realization of the first time he transformed into a full demon. he lost control of everything. He could hardly speak, his demon was in control. 'This is ridiculous! The power I wanted so badly, the power I desired, it wasn't like that...' he thought miserably remembering the time he nearly hurt Kagome the first time he turned. It took all his will power and everything in him to stop the assault his demon wanted to inflict on Kagome.

"You know very well I would never hurt her now" his demon sneered and left before he could answer back.. His heart filled with dread as he remembered the time he killed those bandits what seemed like so long ago. He remembered how long it took to wash off all that blood, how the stench of the blood alone nearly drove him mad, and if it weren't for Kagome, he wouldn't have been able to forgive himself for it.

Kagome had been there for him when noone else was. she was there through thick and thin. She had even promised him to never leave him, but how long would she be able to keep that promise? His heart's dread was replaced by pride and unlimbited happiness as he thought about the time Kagome said she wanted to stay with him. Down by the well how she asked him if she could stay. He vividly remembered all of the emotion the flicked through her chocolate orbs that afternoon. He remembered that day as perfectly as he remembered the days he'd slain the many bandits.

As soon as the thought of becoming a full demon crossed his mind, his heart filled with dread and happiness at the same time. He knew it would be a better sweet ending for him if he became a full demon. If he stayed half demon however, he could be with all his friends, Sango, Miroku, Kagome, and yes, even the little bratShippo. He could continue to have their love and friendship and kill only at will, not because it's a craving. This made his heart fill with nothing but complete content. Then he remembered something. Something distant, like something from a long forgotten dream, he could think of nothing more then what Kagome had once said to him.

Flashback

"InuYasha your perfect just the way you are. I mean, who cares if you're a half demon. I don't. And nether does Miroku, or Sango." said her smiling face and InuYasha looked at her with a look asking 'how can you sat that?' she giggled and turned back to the old god tree smiling that beautiful smile of hers.

Flashback ends

her words echoed in his head for quite some time before he could finally register what she had said. It was clear now. He would not become a full blooded demon, if he did that, he knew that he would only kill the ones he loved, forcing them to die and suffer a needless death. He shuddered at the thought of seeing Kagome's dead body. Dead, lifeless staring at him blankly, reflecting in the lightning that flashed around them, a puddle her deep crimson blood around her, soaking her. A gash in her side and a slit throat and other bloody scratches covered her body.

InuYasha shook his head violently to rid himself of the awful image. Then he heard something. A whimper. Of fear. He turned his head in the direction of the sound and was surprised to see Kagome's face pale. She looked absolutely terrified. She tossed and turned as if desperately trying to escape something that wished her dead.

"No InuYasha...don't do it...please..." she whimpered fearfully. InuYasha's eyes flashed fear and concern. 'She's dreaming about me? Why? I must be doing something bad if she's this scared' he thought clutching her hand. A flash of salt water entered his nostrils and he looked down to see a single tear roll down her face, and drip of her chin. She woke up screaming.

To Be Continued...

A/– oooooooooh what happened in Kagome's dream? You guys are probably guessing it right now and guessing right. I'll update eventually. But my eventually is like your forever...hehehe...he sighs and shakes head at myself