Author's Note: SORRIES FOR NOT UPDATING!! I GOT REALLLLLY BUSY AFTER I CAME BACK FROM NONNA'S! My cousin from out of town
came for a visit and then I was off to Disneyland, California. Well I will update faster and make longer chapters!! LOVES YOU GUYS!! FREE COOKIES AND CAKE FOR ALL!! ONCE AGAIN LOVE YOU GUYS!!
Chapter Sixteen:
I awoke sweating from the nightmare I had. They aren't as bad as they used to be. But, I'm...glad I said yes. I couldn't keep the cerade up. But, I still wonder why Temari was so out of it. I crawled out of bed, not one of my morning days, searching for my phone. I scrambled through my purse, band-aids...change...where the hell is my phone!! Finally, I find it. Sure, it's the most anicent thing in the world but it's reliable. It may not have all the fancy doo-dahs like Ino's but she complains about it breaking all the time. I punch in Temari's number and listen to the phone ring...no answer...that's strange. Usually, she'd be home at this time. Oh well...
Suddenly, there was a knock at the door and I rush, almost tripping to answer it.
"Temari?" I say. She looked like she had been crying. "I brought your CD's," She says shakily. "What's wrong?" I ask. Why is she like this?? "It's nothing!" She snapped and handed me my CD bag. "Temari..."I said sternly. "Okay, I'll tell you, just can I sit down," She sighed. Her normally high head was drooping. "Lock the door please," She said quietly. I did as told and sat beside her. "So?" I asked. "There's something I didn't tell you, about Pein," She sighed. I quietly listened.
"We used to date. He was, well...everything... But of course, my brothers couldn't stand me with him. They made me break up with him...and it hurt him so much," She said the tears starting to come. I couldn't believe it. Temari...and Pein? "So, I thought, that if I saw him with another person, it would help me get over him. Help ease the hurting. I was wrong...it just made it hurt more. But, then I see him happy, and you happy like I was and I couldn't harm that," She said quietly. I hugged her. "It's alright," I sighed. "I just wanted to do the right thing. I really did, but you what, I think I did," She said suddenly smiling. "Well, I'm going to leave now,"She said and walked on. "Uh...bye?" I replied.
That was...awkward. Pein and...'Mari-chan? Is she serious? No, she has to be...why would she have cried then. Well that also explains match-maker...I guess. But why wouldn't she tell me! I would have understood... I just wish she would have told me. She must have felt crushed after the 'Seven Minutes in Heaven'. I picked her ex-boyfriend... that she would still be with if her brothers kept there stupid mouth shut. I feel so terrible.
I started to fumble through my CD bag...looking for my Megadeth CD with the song A Tout Le Monde on it. I always mix up album names...Finally after much aggravation of searching I find it. I walk over to my stereo and pop it in and skip to my favourite song. Dave Mustaine's voice pouring out into the room and the beat coursing through my veins.
Don't remember where I was
I realized, life was a game
Life truly is a game, some people are lucky and get to play on 'easy' all their lives. Some people, are not so lucky and have to play on 'hard' all their lives. I'm thankful for all the blessings I have. There are people out there suffering more than me.
The more seriously I took things
The harder the rules became
I think I've finally figured out...that I just need to live in the moment. Because, I was making everything harder for my self.
I look at life now with a new perspective...Just like mom used to say...'Fly, Konan, don't be sad it'll only stop you from reaching your dreams,'
I had no idea what it cost
My life passed before my eyes
I found out how little I accomplished
All my plans denied
I felt so small before... So unimportant...but now I feel like I can truly believe what Mom said...
So as you read this, know my friends
I'd love to stay with you all
Smile as you think of me
My body's gone, that's all
I think solely of my mother during that line. She's here, I just can't see her...I no longer feel alone like I used to...
As the chorus starts I instaneously begin joining in with my voice. The song is so powerful...It feels like it awakes a new part of me.
A tout le monde
A tout les amis
Je vous aime
Je dois patir
These are the last words
I'll ever speak
And they'll set me free...
I truly feel free...
Author's Note: I'm sorry if the chapter is a bit all over the place...I have a BAD case of summer brain...also the version of the song is the old one...not the one with the girl from Lacuna Coil. Also, we all hate the thought... but I'm going to have to end the fanfiction at some point so please give me some ideas on what you want? LOVE YOU GUYS!!