When Love Isn't Enough

Chapter 8 -

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"Summer." Seth called as he re-entered the house, startling Summer.

"Um, yeah," She said, quickly closing the diary and placing it back into the drawer, "I'm up here."

"Oh, hi," He said once he reached their bedroom, "Are you okay?" He asked noticing she looked very suspicious.

"Me? Yeah, I'm fine. Why?" She said quickly.

"Um nothing, never mind." He replied confused.

"Okay...," Summer said after and awkward minute of silence, "Well, I'm gonna go and take a shower, I'll be back soon." She said as she escaped the awkwardness.

Seth sighed as he sat down on the bed. He missed Summer so much and it pained him that it was so awkward between them, and now they had another child on the way..., things were way too complicated. He sat there for a good few minutes deep in thoughts when out of the corner of his eye, noticed that the drawer wasn't closed all the way. He pushed it in, but it was jammed. And what caused the jamming? The diary! The diary that held Summer's secret, the secret Seth didn't know. He picked up the book and didn't recognize it. He opened it and started skimming through the pages and finally realized it was Summer's diary. He knew he shouldn't be reading it, it was all in the past anyway, right? Wrong, he finally arrived at the latest entry, the entry with the secret.

He read it quickly and must have thought he read it incorrectly, so he kept reading it over and over. 'The only problem is, I'm not pregnant.' !!! Seth said there, speechless and astounded at what he just read. Why would she lie to him about that? They really needed to talk. He waited there with the book in his hand until she appeared again.

"Cohen, what are you doing?" She asked, eying the diary.

"Why don't you tell me." He said coldly.

"Look, if it's about that-"

"Yeah, it is Summer," He said, cutting her off, "Why did you lie?"

"I don't know." She said, but the truth was, she did know.

"That's not a good enough answer! Why?"

Summer just shook her head, her freshly applied makeup now smudged all over her face. She really screwed up when she told him she was pregnant.

"Cohen, I don't know, I really don't know."

"You're lying. People don't just randomly tell their husbands that they're pregnant when they are actually not. Summer, look at me," He said as Summer's eyes lifted up from the floor, now staring at him, "Why?" He asked.

"Look," Summer said, taking a deep breathe and wiping some tears away smudging more of her makeup, "Shortly after you left us, I regretted everything I said. And I know that this whole thing is my fault because it was my idea for you to leave. But, seeing the girls miserable and myself feeling miserable, I knew I made the wrong choice. And I just didn't know how to tell you that. And then, we were going to go to New York to see you, and I thought I would just tell you everything there and see how things fall into place. But my luck, we couldn't get there. And I just felt so confused and I didn't know what else to do. And I called you but you never called me back. And that lie was the first thing that popped into my head. I thought maybe, just maybe, if I said that, you would feel like you needed to stay, or it would make you love me again. Because I know that you don't love me any more because of what I did to you. But I need you to love me because I still love you so much." Summer said hysterically crying.

"Summer," Seth said after taking her whole conversation in, "I love you so much. I never stopped, don't ever think that. We all make mistakes, and let me tell you, none of yours will ever make me stop loving you. It's just this whole situation isn't going to go away overnight, it's going to take time to fix. And just because I'm not willing to forget about, does not mean I don't love you. Because if there's one thing I am certain about in life it's my love for the kids, and my love for you. Okay?"

Summer just nodded her head and hugged him, burying her head in his chest, her tears soaking his shirt. "I'm sorry." She whispered.

"Me too," He said stroking her hair, "Me too."

"Okay," Seth said after a period of silence, "Are you ready to talk about it now?"

"Okay." She said barely above a whisper.

"All right, so I know this whole thing started because of my work habits. But I promise you Summer, it will change. I'll never be that way again."

"That's what you said last time, and that lead up to this whole thing. You couldn't keep that promise."

"I know, but I've learned now Summer. Now I know I could loose things that are much more important than my job, I almost lost my family."

"What about us?," She asked, "It's so awkward between the two of us."

"After awhile it will go away. We just have to put the past behind us. It'll get better."

"Are you sure you want to do this? You don't think it's being resolved too quickly?"

"This thing has been going on too long. I'm positive about this, I can't be apart from you any more."

"Me either. I love you." She said as tears formed in her eyes.

"I love you too."

The exchange of those small words made everything seem so much better.

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A/N - A S/S reunion, yay!

The next chapter will be the last of this story. Please Review: )