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Chapter 2: For a couple hours, can we not be ourselves?
Day 2
Rhode liked to get to know her victims; it was the way she fought them. She liked to get inside their heads, feel what it's like to think like them and what their weaknesses then she would exploit these factors. She would learn what made them tick or what would make them snap and break. She liked to do this over a period of time, wanting to savor the power of beginning inside them, thinking what they are thinking, feeling what they are feeling, hearing what they were hearing and touching what they were touching and then she would attack. In that last moment she would reveal her secrets, tell her victim that she was been with them the entire time, she loved their reactions. The wide eyes and the terror that showed so clearly in their faces seconds before death took them.
Yes, Rhode loved torturing her victims with the worst way possible, through their minds the one place that could be themselves or forget about what their doing a place for meditation, this is what Rhode like to take away from people.
So when the Earl gave them permission to kill any exorcist they wanted and to do it any way they wanted, Rhode was ecstatic. She could finally do the one thing she had always wanted to do, infiltrate the Black Order, so she did. She became a Finder, Finder Jamie Lynn. All the other Finders grew close to her, they liked her, she knew personal secrets about them and their families and Rhode couldn't wait to break them; but that would have to wait.
Two months after Rhode became Jamie Lynn the Finder, she saw something she shouldn't have. In the hallways or the Black Order she saw Allen and Kanda, standing in the hallway, flush against each other, lips locked.
Rhode decided then and there, she would break both of them, through each other.
Allen knew he shouldn't be doing this with him of all people. He knew that it was wrong against his own rules, he could dream about it, stare at it but ever would he ever act on his feelings, because it was, to put it plainly, stupid. He knew it would never work out, he knew that in the end they would fall apart and all they had would fall with them, but when he looked back at him like that, with those deep brown eyes full of adoration and pure want, Allen said to hell with morals.
It was a long and dark December
I remember from the rooftops
There was snow,
White snow
So Allen threw way his thoughts and let float away with the wind, out the wind and into the sea, and he grabbed Kanda by the shirt and pulled him into himself. He knew Kanda was surprised when Allen had mashed their lips together, but Allen didn't give a damn, he just wanted, he been wanting for far too long and this was a perfect opportunity as any. So Allen grabbed, pulled and kissed in less then two seconds he flush against his dream, Kanda Yu, and it was all Allen was thinking about.
Clearly I remember
From the windows they were watching
While we froze down below
Kanda didn't think that after sitting in a room with Komui for three hours being briefed on his next mission would put him outside the door to his room with a Moyashi pressing himself against him and kissing him like there was no tomorrow. Kanda really didn't know how to react either, he was attacked and for the first time in his life he couldn't fight back. Then his mind computed that Allen's lips actually felt good and that's when Kanda decided that he didn't want to fight back. Kanda did the opposite of fighting back; he wrapped his hand around the back of Allen's head and kissed him back with as much force.
When the future's architectured
By a carnival of idiots on show
You'd better lie low
"Kanda…." Allen breathed out as Kanda finally had the sense to not kiss in the hallway but to open his door and shove him and Allen inside. When Allen breathed out his name Kanda had him pinned to the back of the door from inside his dark room, and was all ready to throw Allen onto his bed. So when Allen breathed out his name right into his ear, his hot breathe tickling his cheek slightly, Kanda felt a wave of something hot and deep flow through him and he deemed this feeling very, very good. That's how Allen ended up on his back, on Kanda's bed his hands tangled in Kanda's dark hair as his shirt was being ripped from his body.
Kanda didn't know, at the moment, that was he was feeling was love.
If you love me
Won't you let me know?
A Few Hours Earlier
"Only TWENTY left?!" Lavi jumped up from the dark, green couch and ran up to Komui's desk. His arms were spread out and waving like some insane person or a really good imitation of a retarded bird trying to fly. Either or it didn't matter, Allen was just trying not to laugh and Kanda was trying to decide whether he should stab Komui while he was preoccupied with Lavi or to stab Lavi while his back was turned.
Komui thought he would get a reaction like this but he didn't expect to Lavi rush him and hover over his desk with one wide green eye staring at him like he deserved to be committed into the funny farm with his crazy friends who gave him this information.
"Lavi get back and let him explain," Lenalee's voice broke into Komui's thoughts and Lavi instantly back away from Komiu's desk and sat back down in between Allen and Kanda, which according to all the times they had gotten into a fight, this spot in between Kanda and Allen was not a good idea.
"As I was saying, there aren't a lot of Innocence and like Lavi screamed, there is only twenty," Komui paused and placed his hands under his mouth, his face turning serious. "There is also reason to believe that the Noah's are back and on the move."
Kanda jumped up this time. "What?! Didn't we kill those bastards once?!"
Komui blinked in surprise, but quickly went back to his serious state. "They have been, lets day, recreated."
"Then why did we kill them in the first place?" Allen was the one who spoke up this time. "If they are just going to come back, maybe we shouldn't fight them, maybe we should just let them do what they want. What's the point? We'll just loose more comrades."
Lenalee, Lavi, Komui and Kanda all turned their heads to stare incredulously at Allen, not believing that those words had actually left his lips. Kanda was the one who was surprised the most, his eyes wider then the rest, Lavi had gotten over the shock and understood why Allen felt the way he was feeling, Komui had suspected this reaction like Lavi's outburst, but Lenalee didn't know what to do with herself, she just stood.
"We are all tried of fighting this war, Allen-"
Allen cut him off. "WAR?! What war!? Is this a war!? Every one who is close to us dying and the enemy, the one killing innocence people, coming back to life and yet, at the same time, our friends' just lie in the god damn earth and rot!? No this is not a war anymore, this is a massacre!"
Allen during his outburst had stood up like Kanda and had opened his arms dramatically and Kanda couldn't help but stare at the black hand that was stretched out, it was the reason that Allen had to fight this war and Kanda couldn't but hate it because of that.
"Allen, sit down," Komui ordered with a level voice.
Allen widened his eyes. "Sit DOWN!? That's all you have to say!? Your not-"
"You don't think I'm worried!?" Komui slammed his hands onto his desk, Lenalee flinched. "you don't think in kills me to send you guys out there like bait to retrieve, what, a piece of metal. You think it kills me when one of you comes back in a casket and me knowing that I sent that person to their deaths. It does hurt me but I have to do it because there are people out there who need protection and unfortunately I have protect them with you!"
Everyone was quite through this exchange; even Lavi remained silent and out of character.
"Still, what's the point, they will just come back to life?" Allen asked quietly head bowed down.
Komui sighed and sat back down. "That's why you won't fight them, you'll race them," He received looks that had what the fuck written all over them.
"What the fuck?" Kanda liked to speak his thoughts sometimes.
"You going to race them to the remaining Innocent pieces," Kanda finally sat back down, knowing that Komui was now going to get onto what their missions were actually going to entail and not just facts about what was going on while they sat and twiddled their fingers. "You need to get as many of those last twenty as you possibly can. So I'm sending all three of you out, Miranda and Krory are already out on missions so they will be informed too."
"This is all you will do. If you run into a Noah, which you probably will try not to get into an all out battle, because there will not be enough time to get you back to head quarters and fixed up, it's a race, remember. I will give each papers containing all the information you need to get the innocent pieces you have been assigned to, I have tried getting close together so you don't have to far to get one piece."
"You will be gone for a long time and there will be cases were the Earl will come in," Lenalee was almost crying at this point cause she knew that what her brother meant, it meant that they might be a chance that some might not come back from this. "This is it, it is the end, if we get the Heart then the Noah and Earl and gone. Good Luck"
Was a long and dark December
When the banks became cathedrals
And the fog
Became God
Lenalee let a single tear roll down her cheek because she knew.
The Next Morning
When Allen had woken up in Kanda's bed he had said nothing. When Kanda had gotten up and put on his uniform and started to pack his bags for his mission, Allen said nothing, not a word or a noise. Allen just laid in his bed with the covers drawn up to nose and metal, blue eyes staring at Kanda. When Kanda picked up his bag and walked to his door, Allen said nothing and when Kanda dropped his bag walked over to his bed and kissed Allen, Allen said nothing.
Priests clutched to their bibles
Hollowed out to fit their rifles
And the cross was held aloft
It was a silent agreement that they shared. They would keep to themselves, that what had ever happened last night was a one time thing, it meant nothing, it was nothing so they decided that they would nothing, because there was nothing to say. When Kanda had kissed Allen, Allen still said nothing because he didn't want to make this something even though deep down inside he knew that he was lying to himself. So when Kanda walked back to his door, picked up his bag and reached for the door knob, Allen said nothing, but when Kanda right before leaving had to break the rule.
"You better get ready Moyashi, your train leaves in ten minutes, Lavi will be waiting," Allen knew at that point that Kanda had just made this into something and from this point on had doomed them both into love.
Bury me in honor
When I'm dead and hit the ground
A love back home it unfolds
Lavi didn't want to see Lenalee; he didn't want to see her face because it was already burned into his mind. He didn't want to her voice because it was ringing around him as he sat on the edge of his bed in his room. He didn't want to touch her because her skin was permanently felt on his fingers. Eh didn't want to see her because he knew that if he did he wouldn't be able to get away from her. He knew that he would never be able to leave this place if he saw her. So Lavi packed in his bags quickly and waited to last moment, he knew as he walked down that hallway that lead to the front door her knew that Lenalee would pissed when he came back.
He would have to do a lot of nice things ofr Lenalee after he got back from his mission.
So if you love me
Why'd you let me go?
Lenalee waited in the library for Lavi. She had arranged her self across the table like Lavi had done the last time, laying herself across the wood with a leg propped up and a hand holding up her head like a model. She also set some of his favorite books around her so that he could see how much Lenalee remembered about and how much she cared for him. She thought he would really like it if she got up before him and tease him before he left for months and month's maybe even years. So Lenalee laid across a cold table with all his favorite books around and waited for him to walk through those doors and into his special room.
The doors never opened. She waited though; she waited past the time he was set to arrive on his train. She waited for hours past the time it took for the train to get to its destination, she waited and waited. She was found by her brother a couple hours later.
I took my love down to Violet hill
There we sat in snow
All that time she was silent still
Komui had found his sister cuddled up atop a wooden table. Her legs bent into her stomach and arms wrapped around her knees. He had found her with tears rolling down her face and eyes closed tight blocking out the world. He found her surrounded by all different kinds of books, he regonized them as Lavi's books, they were the ones he had found the boy reading a lot when he would walk into the library.
Komui had taken his sister into his arms and pulled her off the table. He carried her in his arms to her room; her small hands clinging to his shirt the entire time. Her laid her down on her bed and tucked the covers over her lithe form.
So if you love me
Won't you let me know?
She had waited for him, laying on a book filled table, for hours. She had waited for him to come into his room in the library and smile at her. She had waited for him to laugh at her like she did at him and then bring her in his arms like she had done. She had waited for him to kiss her like she did to him and she waited for him to pull her close to his body so she could hear her his heart beat before he left.
She had waited and waited, but her love never came.
So if you love me
Won't you let me know?
Lavi, Kanda and Allen waited for each other before they left. They walked to the train station together with out a word passed between them. They stopped walking and turned to each other before they parted ways, going on their different trains. They turned to each other and a single thought passed through their minds, 'For the last time I will say goodbye'. And with that single thought they walked away.
Their backs turned to the looming tower and to each other as they took one step then two away form everyone they knew. That's how they said goodbye. Lavi leaving Lenalee in tears and his own heart breaking. Allen and Kanda didn't let one word of affection fall from their lips even though they knew there was something and some there would probably be none of them, but they didn't say a thing, because it was better this way.
They were so close to crying that one word would send them over the edge, so they walked away in silence.
Allen looked back at Kanda once and Kanda looked back at Allen once, though it was at different times.
If you love me
Won't you let me know?
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