Disclaimer: I do not own the rights to the Kingdom Hearts Universe. I am not writing this for a profit. I am writing this to express my love for the game, the characters, and to deepen my writing abilities.
A/N: People are probably going to be confused after reading this. Don't you just love philosophy? There are no right or wrong questions and answers, thus the extreme way of thinking outside the box.
Spontaneous Combustion – A collection of Axel x Roxas drabbles and one shots
By Tat
Theme 2. Fade to black
"Roxas!" Axel calls, then fumes at the fact the adolescent boy doesn't respond. Roxas's steps neither stop nor hitch when he is called. He doesn't know of any other boys called Roxas, nor does he acknowledge that as his name. Axel grabs him by the neck of his coat. It's impossible to not react to him now.
"Roxas, Xemnas wants--"
"If you must name me, stick with 'Number Thirteen,'" the blonde replies.
Silence settles over the two while Roxas waits for Axel to continue; however, Axel's previous thoughts are on hold. He understands the boy's defiance against pretending to be real, yet he can't bring himself to refer to his junior by a serial number.
"Even if I were to pretend to be real, I don't need a name to define me," Roxas continues. "There is more to an individual than a word."
"If you consider us farce existences (and truthfully we are), then the laws of what makes an individual do not apply. It doesn't matter if I call you Number Thirteen or Roxas. If I define you as Roxas, you are Roxas."
"So if I saw a dog and defined it as a cat it would be a cat?" Roxas countered. "If I put my hand on a hot stove and claimed it was cold, would it be cold?"
"No."
"Then if I were to say I existed by name alone, would even I--a Nobody-- begin to exist?"
"No," Axel admitted. He believed this too, as much as he denied it.
"No. I cannot exist--even with a name--because I am a Nobody. I lack a heart, one of the two factors necessary to make an individual. I have the other ingredient though--I am surrounded by the worlds that aid individualism. If I had a heart…"
Underlining Roxas' deadpan tone was a hint of longing.
"Axel--" he pauses, caught using the name unexpectedly, and seeing that Axel doesn't point out his hypocrisy, Roxas continues. "That which does not exist... does not belong here. Nobodies don't have a reason to be. We have no goals, future, nothing to contribute to the worlds. The worlds will notice this and someday, we will fade away."
"I know." Axel sighed. "We will fade away."
"Then why are you in the Organization?" Roxas questions.
"You tell me why you joined."
"The same reason you did," Roxas answered, raising then lowering his gaze idly, ashamed of his weakness. "I wanted to belong until then."