Disclaimer: I do not own Blood+ or any of its characters
Series: Cut us Some Slack
Chapter Title: Miracles
Timeline: Set after episodes 12-13
Genre: Drama
Character/s: Julia Silverstein, David, and mentions of Lewis
Summary: She wants to believe in miracles too.
Julia Silverstein tried her hardest to be as competent as she was before. Trying in vain to do what is asked of her but she simply couldn't put herself to do it. It was strange. Images of that girl keep popping into her head. She tried to drown the thoughts away by working but all her efforts were futile because the poor girl is all she ever thought about. She wondered if there is any way to reverse the effect of whatever it is that turned the child into a monster but only a miracle can get her back the way she was.
Flashback:
She stood there beside Lewis, looking at the poor girl whose dreams have fallen into pieces after turning into something inhuman. It was sad. She pitied the unfortunate soul. Then she heard her colleague speak.
"Can we turn them back?" he asked.
She knows that they couldn't. She thought that maybe a miracle could save the young girl and the other children but she knows that it is a trivial thought.
"Do you believe?" she asked Lewis, "Will you believe in the existence of miracles?"
"If I'd relied on miracles, I would have gone to be with God a long time ago." was Lewis' reply.
She knew it, even Lewis, the seemingly optimistic one, would not consider a miracle as a possibility.
"But… I do want to believe." He finished and left her to think about everything to herself.
Flashback over:
"I do want to believe." Julia whispered to herself. Remembering the last thing Lewis said before he left her to think to herself. Thoughts of what happened filled her mind, slowly drowning everything else. It appears as if she's staring, but she sees nothing. The only thing that occupied her are visions of that girl, looking at the ground hopelessly, slightly aware of the tragedy that befell her. The tragedy of losing her dreams along with herself.
She wondered if the child believed in miracles. She wondered if anybody believed in miracles. Because maybe… just maybe; if everyone believed, one might just happen.
"Julia," the man said, drawing her back from the trance she is in, "Are you alright?"
Julia, finally saved from drowning in thoughts, looked behind her. She completely forgot that David is right behind her.
"I still haven't found anything." She said, trying to look drawn into her work,
"It's not like you're trying that hard either." David stated, "Is there something on your mind?"
"How about you," Julia asked, "do you believe in the existence of miracles?"
David stared at her. For a moment, he was confused but he caught up with her soon enough.
"If I start believing, would one happen right before my very eyes?" David asked, "Would those children go back to normal? Would this battle be over?"
"I'm not God." Julia said, "I don't know if a miracle would appear before you once you believe."
David sighed.
"Miracles are done through men, Julia." He said, "Perhaps we can do nothing about those who have been victimized by the chiroptera. The only thing we can do is perform in our full capacity; do what God has allowed us to do. And being capable of doing something… even something small is a miracle itself."
"So… that means you believe in miracles, right?" said Julia.
David nodded, "Yes, I do." He said, "Anyway, I'm going to see if Lewis found something. I'll see you later."
David then walked out the door, closing it behind him. Julia finally being left alone, she thought about what David said,
'He does not want to believe,' she thought, 'he already believes.'
She wished that she believed just like he did. Even in the tiniest of miracles, she wished that she believed. But even if she did, there is no way for that girl or those children to ever believe. And for the first time in a long time, tears came running down her face.