A/N- okay so this is my longest chapter yet. i'm really working hard to type these chapters, please, leave a review, tell me what you really think. it wont take long:D i've decided that i'm going to update this story every friday, please leave reviews and let me know if its worth it ;D

No part of twilight is mine but I truly wish I was a part of it.

My growl grew more pronounced as the face of the devil came into view. Jane. The snarl ripped through my teeth as the little girl looked at me with a lethal expression. Now, now, do be calm Edward. She thought to me, smiling slightly as she considered making me stop.

"Like the pain you could bring upon me could ever compare to what I've been through." I snarled at her. The tiny smile flew from her face.

"I'm guessing you wish to see Aro?" she scowled, her tone reproachful. "Is that what you've come here on, a death wish Edward?" She was taking in the pained look on my face. She knew that I wanted it gone.

Hearing my name receding from her filthy mouth caused another growl to rip through me. Now, I found myself hoping that she would decide to use her lethal weapon upon me. Maybe it would numb to growing pain of my longing to be with B- her. Now was not the time to be weak. Careful. She warned me.

"Do your worst." I spat back. She narrowed her eyes at me. What could be so bad? She wondered. All the same, she couldn't pass up an opportunity to kick the weak when they were down.

I stifled a scream as pain ripped through my chest, tearing my head in half. No, this actually wasn't as bad as what I'd been experiencing since Bella had died. I was finally able to break down, fall to the ground, let my despair get the better of me. I had the excuse I'd been needing for the last, maybe twelve hours? I left my body take control, it flinched and twisted into positions that would have snapped a human's spine and left them for dead. If only I was that fortunate.

The unknown force that had been tearing at my chest and head decreased, but never vanished. It only lowered to where it was just bearable. Barely, but I could at least somewhat handle it now that I knew the end was so near.

Jane scowled. She'd been hoping that her pain would bring on a more hurt look to me, but in her mind I looked had looked no different twitching on the ground then I had when she'd first laid her eyes on her. Ha! Did she truly believe she could afflict worst pain on me? Nothing could darken this endless night I was damned to live in.

"Take me," I took a deep breath as I forced my legs to hold me up despite the crippling pain in my chest. "To Aro." Jane scowled, but raised a hand, motioning me to follow her. Why would he want to see Aro? He looks so depressed. I wonder why I didn't even make him look worse as he was on the ground. Strange . . .

Her thoughts were boring and unsurprising. I blocked her out as we tore through the darkened city. My vision wasn't affected by the darkness of this night, everything was just changed into a more vivid, purple tint. Everything still was in perfect detail as it flashed past my face.Jane led me through many long dark alleys all branching off towards an ancient medieval castle. No doubt this was the center of the evil housed in this dark little city.

Now who's this Jane's dragged over? The thoughts of another vampire took me from surprise. I'd been blocking out the humans' and Jane's thoughts as we had sailing through the city, but a new, stronger voice caught me off guard. In a city with vampires lurking around every corner, I couldn't make sense of why this had surprised me so much. Oh, he looks awful. Poor boy, Jane must have him cursed.

I couldn't help but chuckle darkly. I would have preferred it if, right now, I still held the excuse of Jane's torturous gaze to drop to the ground and let the pain swallow me. "Jane." the vampire greeted her in a detached voice as he looked me over with disapproving eyes. I recognized this voice from the one time, many years ago, when Carlisle had stopped to visit Aro, Caius, and Marcus. They were old friends and we were passing by about to head back the US. I composed my face to the normal pained expression. It was as close to detached that I was ever going to get. Alec returned my glare. His expression shifted and he looked at me with confusion mixed with surprise. "Edward Cullen? Did Carlisle accompany you here?"

"I came alone." I responded curtly. Um . . . echoed from his head and I groaned in impatiently.

"He wants to see Aro." Jane informed Alec coldly. I think this is one of the few idiotic suicidal vampires. Humph. I snarled at Jane and she looked away sheepishly. She had forgotten I read minds.

"I've got it from here, Jane," Alec assured Jane, opening the large front door for me, though he still looked confused and undecided. "You may continue what you were doing." He added, his voice warning. I knew they were doing something they didn't want me to know about, so I blocked them out. Besides, I was dying soon. What did it matter?

Alec led me through an elaborate lobby and into a large spacious office with one large desk resting against the far wall. Music, it sent waves of painful memories down my throat and tearing at my chest, was tinkling harmlessly through small speakers above the desk. Behind the desk sat a human. Her name was Gianna and she was perhaps the dumbest mortal I had ever seen.

"Excuse me for a moment, Edward." Alec requested without looking at me to see my reaction as he sped off down a hall to the right of the desk to where Aro sat. I almost considering just staying where I was on my feet, but the pain was aching so badly right now, I needed some sort of relief.

I wandered over to one of the homey gray couches and was sitting so in one fluid movement and I was positive that Gianna hadn't seen any of that at all. I leaned back and clutched my arms so tight to my chest I was surprised I wasn't actually ripping myself apart. Strange enough it had the opposite effect. I sat for only minutes, I knew this, but it felt like hours, days, maybe even months, as the pain grew more and more intense as realization of what was truly going on sunk in. Even on the plane, something had been going on. Human thoughts had been buzzing in the back of my mind like an annoying housefly and had distracted me enough to prevent the truth in this nightmare to trickle in. Now, as Gianna's thoughts consisted of nothing more then dull busywork, the unwelcome reality sunk in.

Bella was dead

It was all my fault.

She had broken her promise.

And no doubt would I have most of my family on a plane following me by now.

Hopefully Aro would give me mercy and kill me now. My family did nothing to deserve another loss in our coven. Another train of thought filled my head as I sensed Alec approach me again. I coaxed the pain to lessen for it was soon to find its true end.

"Aro will see you now." Alec growled. I looked up, he was scowling at me. Something that had caused him displeasure had occurred in his short conversation with Aro, but he was hiding it in the back of his mind.

I nodded to him as he gestured the way to go, but didn't follow until I was a ways ahead of him. I walked down the hallway and, despite the warm, cozy look of it, it sent chills down my back and caused me to swallow down a growl. I pushed open the door after hesitating a second to see if Alec would lead the way. I took a step in and heard the door slam shut behind me.

A decrepit, white vampire starred down at me from a high wooden chair. He was surrounded by many other vampires that were hidden beneath black wool cloaks that might have look threatening if my body wasn't slowly shutting down.

"Edward Cullen," Aro greeted me, holding out his white, papery hand. Of course I knew what he wanted from me. He would want to know why I came and his gift, the ability to see everything that one's mind has ever thought, would be very useful at accomplishing this. I walked forward and placed my hand in his. Even though all vampires had always felt the same temperature to me, there was something about Aro that made his skin feel slightly colder and actually fragile.

I cringed as he began sorting through my memory and I couldn't keep myself from viewing it replay back from his mind. It started out as just me. I was walking through the dull points in life, viewing my vampire life as a long forever with nothing to keep me amused other then my music and family. Then, I wrapped an arm across my chest, Bella appeared. My life became bright as day, the sun breaking over the horizon. There, all my emotions were wiped back at me. I fought the intoxicating urge to double over in the pain. Bella's birthday party, the decision I had made that night, and then I was telling her good bye. My sun was setting, low on the horizon, to never rise again. The decision that had damned me an endless night. Not even the moon or stars would grace me with their presence.

Oh no.

I tried my hardest to block out what was coming next, but there was nothing I could do.

She killed herself.

Rosalie's fatal words echoed through my ears and I found myself doubled over in pain.

I breathed and remembered that it was all going to be over soon. I looked up to see that Aro had pulled back his hand to wrap it around his own chest.

"Oh my!" he exclaimed as he slowly lowered his arm, chuckling to himself. "That was quite painful." Is a human girl really worth that much agony? He wondered to himself. I snarled in disgust as he thought of Bella as just a human girl. She had been far more then that too me. I winced. The past tense hurt. "Is that what you really want?" Aro asked, calming his guard with a wave of his hand as he ignored my outburst.

"Yes," I growled. "I wish to die."