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"Goddammit Ross" Rachel yelled, she then turned around revealing her bump. She would finally be released of this heavy burden.
Ross took a step back, confused at the sight before him. His mouth went dry, and his face softened. "Rachel.." He said quietly.
"That's right" She continued to yell "So Im sorry if you and your little horny girlfriend broke up. Im sorry its all because of me." She then started to laugh " Why am I so fucking selfish. This is clearly all my fault…to run into you and your girlfriend" Rachel spat out sarcastically.
Ross couldn't get over the fact that Rachel was pregnant…was it his..? Or had she moved on in Paris?
"If you want to get a lawyer and work out the details for Emma that's fine" Rachel continued saying whatever came to mind. " I'm sorry Im such a bitch Ross, truly I am."
Ross went to say something, but Rachel continued.
"You know what else Im sorry for?" Rachel paused "Im sorry I got pregnant, and was too afraid to tell anyone. I'm sorry that I put you in this situation. " Rachel laughed, "Guess what Ross, its yours."
That was all Ross needed before he walked over to her and wrapped his arms around her.
Rachel then broke down and started to cry after her outburst. "Im so sorry…Im so so sorry" This was all she could say, repeating it over and over. She finally got out all she had to say, and she was even sorry for what she had said just moments before. She just didn't know how to take him reacting like that where there were so many bigger issues at hand. She just rested there in his arms and sobbed.
Ross had so many questions running through his mind right now. He knew that it was not the time to ask however, so as the mother of his child sobbed, all he could do was rub her back and kiss the top of her head. "Itll be alright" He said softly, not so sure of things himself.
After a few minutes Rachel pulled away and ran a finger under her eyes to collect the tears. She walked over to a brown leather couch that was now in the place of Monica's old one and sat down, gesturing for him to do the same. Through sniffles she was now ready to talk again "I think, hm, I think we need to talk"
Ross nodded his head as he took a seat next to her to and then turned to face her. "So whats the story? Why didn't you tell me sooner? Why didn't you just come home?" Ross had so many questions all at once he just couldn't stop himself. He had no idea where to start.
Rachel looked down, placing a hand on her stomach "Well, after I left I settled in, in Paris, and things were going fine for the first two months, I mean Emma and I were going to come in for Thanksgiving and everything. " She paused "I didn't mean for this to happen Ross, I never meant to shut any of you out. Youre all family. Anyway, a little bit before July, I started to feel sick after a couple weeks of it not letting down, what I feared had finally become a reality. I was pregnant again."
Rachel paused, and leaned over to grab a tissue from the coffee table, dabbing her eyes " I was worried and I didn't know what to do. I figured I didn't want to see you again so soon after what had happened at the airport. That's why I couldn't tell you then. I knew that if I kept in touch with anyone else, they were bound to find out my little secret too…so I just stopped. I stopped talk to everyone." Reaching for his hand she continued "I never intended not ot tell you Ross, I just didn't know how…I didn't know if you had moved on, and I didn't want to hurt you again…but I guess that happened anyway." Rachel looked down "Really, Im sorry…and Im stupid, and I understand if you don't want to ever deal with me again…be it because of Emma, or Bonnie. Im always ruining things for you Ross…"
Ross took this all in and thought about it for a bit. Sure he was still upset at the way Rachel had handled her problems, but he couldn't be mad at her over all this, especially if she was having his baby again.
"Can I touch it?" Was all Ross could say.
Rachel nodded her head pulling up her tank top to expose the bump underneath. Ross smiled and placed two hands around Rachels stomach. Rachel closed her eyes, she could stay like this forever.
"When are you due?" Ross asked
"March 1st."
After a few moments of the two sitting in silence like this Ross finally opened his mouth again. "You didn't ruin anything Rach." He Stated.
"Hm?" Mumbled Rachel, woken out of her trance.
Ross look her in the eyes "You never, ever have ruined anything in my life Rachel." He paused now looking down at her stomach "You've only ever made it worth living"
Rachel breathed in deep and smiled. She longed to kiss him, but felt that it wasn't the time. Who knew what he wanted. Instead she told him what she truly felt. Placing her hands on top of his she opened up her heart. "I wish I knew then what I know now…I would have stayed" Rachel paused "I'm sorry for leaving"
Ross looked her in the eyes, and held her attention for a few moments before removing one of his hands from her stomach and placing it on the back of her neck, fingers in her hair. He began to lean in, Rachel giving him an accepting look, telling him it was okay to continue, and he kissed the lips he had missed for the past six months.
At first the kiss started off slow, but then grew more passionate as the seconds went by. As Rachel pulled away she made sure to bite his bottom lip, as she had remembered he always enjoyed.
Rachel smiled at him and he did the same "Rachel I lo-"
Rachel placed her hands on his lips telling him to stop, shaking her head. She wished that simple I love yous could fix everything and they would live 'happily ever after again', but the world that she knew was not like that.
He looked confused, but soon she began to speak " Ross, I want to start over again, if youre willing" She looked at him hopelessly. She loved him so much she did not want to screw this up. "We still have so much to talk about. I still have so much more to explain to you"
Ross never took his eyes off of her "I want that too" he said simply.
Rachel smiled, thinking that everything might work out okay after all, she rested her head on his shoulder. "I have a doctors appointment tomorrow, I was wondering if you wanted to go with me?" Rachel questioned.
"Wouldn't miss it for the world"
Rachel reached down to her stomach where one of Ross's hands still rested. She reached for it, intertwining her fingers with his. Rachel wanted so bad for them to be a family.
They sat like that for what seemed like hours, until Ross announced that he had an early class to teach tomorrow morning. The two decided it was best for him to leave, since they were starting over after all.
As Rachel slipped into bed that evening she slept a little easier than she had in a long time. She was glad that a day that had started out so horrible now ended with a smile on her face.