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Devoid, it was devoid, Kain's eyes were devoid of any emotion, his word, it's staggering, he failed?? What did he mean by that? I can't find my voice, can't move, just stood still like a statue, aghast by this revelation, my brother?, the one who usually cheered everyone's up, he just sat there grimly, his hair was ruffled and messy, his shoulder slumped, obviously he was tired mentally and physically, I can't bear it! I can't stand this! I can't see him like this! It's just too unbearable.

The usual mocking Kain was gone. Gone. The man that I saw before me was just someone who looked like him but when I found my voice, instead of comforting word, what come out of my mouth, I couldn't believe it myself, it was not comfort, was not anger, but, "Failed? You…? Fail? Somehow, I can't believe it… you who always deemed yourself capable of doing almost everything, failed…?"

It was mockery, realization came hard to me, just one single thought later, I gaped my mouth, shocked, how can I be so cruel, he was my brother, he never talked like that when I failed to do something, and here I was mocking him because this was his first failure, I just felt triumph that my brother had stumbled too, but my words, they were so harsh on him, I should comfort him not inflicting more pain on him. God, what have I done…? I wished, I could just take back what I said but I knew that it could never be undone. Instead of believing my mouth to speak again, I just approached him and wanted to hug him, but before I reached him, he just rose from his seat, and looked at me, that devoid eyes was gone, now it was placed with something else, anger? No it was more than that… madness? Not either… what was it?, "I see..., I guess it is reasonable for you to say that, because I just seem to be overconfident in everything, am I?"

That sound, mocking, teasing, but it was sad, it's lonely, and it's reverie like. He just left then, softly brushing me, and opened the door and closed it with a soft click. To me that click was the loudest sound I ever heard. My feet lost their grip on earth, I slouched down and wailed loudly, I felt terrible, I am the worst sister, Kain didn't deserve this. He deserved someone who could comfort him, not me! His sister who could only hurt him more when what he needed the most maybe was maybe just a hug, shushing sound, and telling him that 'it's all right'. I didn't know how long I cried but I knew one thing for sure, if he didn't forgive me for this then I'll be doomed, I'll spend the rest of my days guilty. Burdened with terrible crime, but even if he didn't forgive me, I would understand. He had every right to do so. Me, his sister was not only of no comfort, but his backstabbing monster. Morbid thought, but I couldn't help it…

I was feeling light then and when I woke up, light came through the curtain of my room. Wait, how did I get to my room? The last thing, I remembered was just crying in the study and probably felt asleep there, who brought me here? Certainly not Bud or Lisa, they couldn't carry me here. Unless they somehow levitated me, and brought me here, which made it more impossible. Since they couldn't even lift a big jug, let alone me, who was far heavier than that jug. That only narrows down the answer to… Kain. Kain was the one who carried me to my bedroom. How could he be so kind to me when I treated him like that? I felt something wet then, I just realized tears trailed down my cheek. I sobbed for a while then, founding no strength or will to stop it. Maybe it was desperation but I cried quite soundly and found no shame in it. Usually, I would resort to no tears but I guess this was my moment of weakness. I didn't recognize but faint footsteps were coming towards my room. My door creaked and Kain came in, looking quite confused, he treaded his way to my bed and seated himself, brushing my hair back "Sis, you ok? Why are you crying?"

Amazed, I was really really amazed, by his kindness towards me, had he forgiven me? Over my dead body… maybe he was just pretending. He knew he could torture me this way, his sweet nature making me all the more guiltier than I was before. I did not know what to feel about him but my silence was not easily accepted by him, it seemed. He just stared at me and looking very quizzically, confused, and very much concerned. Darn it, how could he act so convincing? How could he look like that when he can be boiling inside? But I knew, my little self really hoped that he really was concerned about me. I wish… but truth splashed cold at me. "Sis… you ok? Hey, don't go staring into space like that?"

He waved his hand to me, he grinned to me, and ruffled my hair. Moreover he looked at me like I was some kind of a goof. "SIS…. Ange…. Hellooooo….?"

I just lunged at him, hugged him really tight, and cried again... loudly... again. I couldn't bear it. It's too much for me. I just wish everything was fine and last night didn't happen at all but I know that was stupid of me. Kain just hugged me back and patted me, but I knew he must be smiling all evil while he did that, "Hey, what happened to you? Why are you crying again? Never seen you cry so much in all my life… and it's weird, you know."

Oh God, I didn't deserve him, he's too kind for me, if he's a gift than he's the best gift ever to my life. I swear! I will never hurt him again that way. I just sobbed then, until it turned to soft hiccups, Kain just kept hugging me and stroking my back. He was so patient with me, offering me his company and comfort when I was like this and what I gave him last night was the exact opposite of this. When I finally stopped crying, I pulled myself from the hug and looked at him, "Kain, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have…"

He just stopped me with his finger in front of my mouth, shushing me, His eyes looking at me, tenderly and smiling. "It's all right."

That sentence just made my day, I think, the angel in heaven just blew their horn, and my salvation had came, I could just die here right now, I swoon and almost fainted but Kain caught me, panicked… maybe he was having enough shocks from me today for all his life span… I giggled then… "Hey, don't faint on me now… you're heavy… you know!" His singsong merry voice graced me, he could call me fat or whatever for all I care and I would still smile, "How could I not faint? When I was trying to say sorry for what I did and was waiting for my doomsday then you just pierced light over my darken life with your forgiveness. Oh Kain… thank you and I'm so sorry for being an ass last night… I know I may not be the best sister there is but you forgive me right? And while you're at it you can make me my favorite honeyed toast."

As soon as I said that, he released me abruptly and my face met head on with the bed. He stood abruptly, and looked at me grimly, and this time I felt it. Grim reaper had graced my room again. I just wanted to scream out, Loud! GOD oh GOD, did I press the wrong switch again? How stupider can I get now? After my beloved brother forgave me, now here I was inciting his anger again. Kain raised his eyebrows, "I don't know… if I should forgive you or just dump you outside the house and bury you alive. You just don't know your limit don't you?"

"Kain, I'm sorry…. God, I'm sorry… I didn't mean it like that, I'm so sorry, I thought that you were already playing with me and I thought that you had already forgiven me but now I know that you're not. So here I go again… I really wanted to apologize for last night and I really hope you will forgive me for that since if you don't then I rather be buried alive rather than you left me alive but I will live my day guilty because of my mistake last night."

He only stared, and stared, and glared at me for god knew how long and I shrank. Every time he did that I just shrank more and more. He walked to me and I strayed back to the back wall but I reached my end and he just kept coming near me and…, "Gotcha! Hehehe… of course, I do forgive you… You already said sorry right... so why should I be angry about it and last night, I got sensitive so I just burst out to you. BUT I get over it now and I just felt better about it now, Don't sod about it!"

Dumbfounded. I was dumbfounded by my own brother, I gaped at him and I just felt that he ruffled my hair making it the messier. Then I didn't know what's coming to me but I just laughed out loud there. I didn't know how long but when I finished, Kain swept my body up and carried me downstairs. "Bud, Lisa…! I brought her down, now keep your promise."

I raised my eyebrow and give him my "what's going on?" look He just smiled sinisterly, and by sinister, I meant, he really smiled like an evil villain that had just beaten the hero into a pulp. He just waltzed to the kitchen ignoring my question and trembling, "Just wait and see… it's going to be interesting."

Then the sight of the kitchen just amazed me, Bud and Lisa, in an apron, blotches of spots everywhere, strange ingredient lying everywhere, cooking utensils, a very big knife that just miss me an inch. I was shocked and looked to the knife robotically, then a sound of boom gets my best attention, I swung my head to the noise direction, and…. Snap! I flinched, and screamed, and yelled all in agony. Hearing my scream, Kain flinched and the kids running about to my direction.

"Ange… what happened…?" Lisa and Bud cried in unison.

I was still in deep pain when Kain set me down and told the kids to get the healing balm. I tried to move my neck but Kain stopped me. His eyes looked worried, and I feel remorseful now. I always make trouble and Kain will always worry about me. Sometimes, this life isn't fair… why was it always me? Why not someone else? I'm not feeling ungrateful to have Kain as my brother because I knew that he took good care of me but I want to worry about someone else too, I want to take care of someone too but I couldn't linger on my thought anymore… Kain has applied the balm on my neck and it felt really cool now. Well, sometimes life was just meant to be, wasn't it.

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