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Chapter 2: Desire.
Part One, Envy and Guilt.
Tomoe remembered so vividly the whole lunch scene earlier that day. And she knew she also screwed up, big time. But she wanted no part in this drama. Was it too late to escape this mouse trap?
Yes, it was much too late. The whole school was already gossiping about her and how she trashed behind Kaoru's back. Kaoru was also so friendly to her since the day they met. Sure, they weren't best buddies, but Kaoru wasn't mean or hateful. She was the playful, popular type who welcomed everyone, even the oddly shy newcomer at school. But that was besides the point. Something stronger than just happiness and serenity took control of Tomoe. She wanted something else, something more, something almost untouchable, and the one thing she couldn't get that Kaoru had; Kenshin. Kaoru was the one and only girl Tomoe envied. She was the girl Tomoe rivaled and hated despite her kind words and sweet smilies.
Tomoe wanted Kenshin more than anything, and nothing would get in her way.
Then there was another matter. Punishment, disgrace, and guilt. Tomoe felt as if she put her family to shame. No, they should never find out. What happened that night with Kenshin should never get to them. As long as her parents didn't know, at least Tomoe will be saved from their severe, harsh punishment. But in the end, the disgrace was still there.
Oh- and the pain! Even though Tomoe so desperately wanted to just go and ruin Kaoru's life, the guilt was overwhelming. One part of Tomoe told her that it was all right, that Kaoru deserved it and that everything would be fine, but the other half cried out and screamed at her for doing what she did.
So, did Tomoe actually want to hurt Kaoru directly? Or was it all because she wanted Kenshin to herself?
She wanted both. Both with a seething, engulfing desire.
Part Two, Wishes.
What no one knew other than Kaoru herself, was that she was beyond feeling miserable. She wanted to die. Acting like a strong, macho-macho heroine during school was definitely beginning to wear-off. She did completely shove Kenshin out of her life, and will not be going back on her word, but she felt as if she lost something. Something precious and important, something that took up a big chunk of her heart, and which was now missing.
Kenshin and Kaoru, they were after all, best friends since grade school...
"I wish everything was normal again." Kaoru whispered as her voice trailed off to silence.
Immediately after Kaoru arrived at home, she cried the biggest river known to mankind. She couldn't believe what was happening to her. Her life was burning at the palm of her hands, and no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't put out the flame. Just when her father died in a car crash not too long ago, Kenshin had to go behind her back and do that kind of dispicable thing?!
How long has Kenshin been cheating on me? Kaoru thought over and over, wondering if she could ever forgive him. Why would Tomoe even do that? She knew we were dating, everyone new. I can't believe I even liked that whore!
Kaoru growled and kicked her door to a close. No, no. Let's not get too angry here Kaoru. Besides, she's such a piece of crap, she's not even worth getting mad at. I'll just ignore her like she doesn't even exist.
With almost no more energy left, Kaoru doze off into a web of memories.
"Kaoru," Megumi sighed. "You being my best friend, it's my duty to tell you. And I'm apologizing in advance before I tell you this, but I really think you need to know."
It was right before math class began, yes, it was then she found out about that horrible... horrible incident.
"Sure Megumi, tell me! What's up?" Kaoru smiled cheerfully at her confused, and obviously, angry friend.
"Okay. Be prepared... Tsubame heard from Yahiko who heard from Sano who told me... and you know Sano never lies, only jokes..." She cleared her throat, trying to not choke on what she would say next, "Well, Kenshin. He uhh- "
"Oh, just tell me already!" Kaoru rolled her eyes casually. "Is he bringing me flowers or something like that? If so, I was already expecting enough. He usually does random things like that. Sheesh, spending money over silly flowers that will just end up dying. Ahee, well, I love them anyway. It's so sweet!" Kaoru squealed and twirled in place.
"Okay Kaoru! Please, stop. I get it! You love him, I know! We all do." Megumi wringed her hands nervously and flattened her shirt down.
Kaoru instantly stopped smiling, narrowing her eyes onto Megumi's. "...Seriously, what's wrong? You're acting like you've just been stolen a car and you're about to confess to the police or something like that."
Megumi took one step closer to their tight, inner circle, clamping her eyes shut. "All right. So..." She took one last gulp of air, "Kenshin is or was cheating on you. He slept with Tomoe at that stupid college party. And I don't know how long they've been dating behind you're back. Well, actually, I'm not even sure if they are dating or if it was a one night stand. But I think it was just a one night stand. Some people even say that Tomoe got Kenshin drunk and all... Kaoru? Kaoru, are you okay? Oh my god, what am I thinking." Megumi's apologetic words came out in one, big rush as the sentences slurred together. But once the word was out, it was out, and Karou wouldn't be forgetting any time soon. "Oh no, Kaoru. I'm sorry about this.
Drip.
A tear slid from Kaoru's cheek.
"Kaoru..."
Then, smack!
Kaoru dropped her books unintentionally as they scattered onto the floor. Her whole body became completely numb while she tried to hold back her sobs. But the pounding in her head became louder and louder, like a wild drum, and soon her dizzy surroundings became completely blurry. That's when she couldn't hold back anymore. Puddles and puddles streamed down her cheeks as she stood in the center of the classroom, the center of attention, and evidently the worst place for an emotional breakdown. Everything happened so quickly. One minute she was laughing and smiling, the next, her heart shattered into a thousand pieces. Her whole life ruined in a second.
So familiar... just like when she lost her father. Everything felt just like that. A warp of time in a strange, slow motion fashion.
Utter and complete helplessness.
"Megumi... please tell me this never really happened," Kaoru begged desperately, shaking her head vigorously. "Tell me this is all just a bad dream, and I'll be waking up any time... please, tell me..."
Megumi shook her head solemnly with no reply.
"NO! STOP IT! Just talk to me!!"
"I'm sorry Kaoru."
"What?! What can you be sorry about?!" Kaoru began yelling with all that was left in her. After all, what was there to lose now?
Ding! The bell shrieked, reminding everyone that class had just begun.
"Kaoru? Megumi? Please discuss whatever you were talking about later. Class has started now," the teacher called from the front.
Mechanically, Kaoru faced the teacher, tears drowning her silent, choking screams.
"M-Miss Kaoru? ... Nevermind, uhh, go to the nurse or councelor!"
The whole class stared and whispered, wondering what was going on. Then quickly, Kaoru stumbled around to leave. Bam! Accidentally, she tripped over Tomoe's desk and fell to the ground. Still in a daze, Kaoru looked up to see Tomoe's grinning, vengeful eyes, covered by a blank expression. She whispered to Kaoru as she stood up. "Sorry sweetie. Maybe next time you'll find a good boy who will actually stay by your side." Kaoru shot her a quick glare, and it was then for the first time when Kaoru saw Tomoe smirk. That evil smile of hers.
Again, it came. Kaoru ran out of the room, crying even harder than before, and slamming the door on her way out.
Why would Tomoe do such a thing? How can this be happening to me?!
Regaining her senses again, Kaoru shook her head and pushed away her nightmarish thoughts. It was now official; Tomoe was the most, the worst, the cruelest girl alive. Kaoru didn't even know there were girls out there as mean as Tomoe. But now, Kaoru knew, and she learned it the hard way.
After several minutes of thinking how much she hated Tomoe, she quickly shot up from her bed and trashed throughout her whole room. Every tiny bit of 'Kenshin' related things were to be thrown away. Trashed and burned forever, only to be kept in Kaoru's raging memories.
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A/N: How do you like it? Weird, huh? Please review and tell me what you thought. Haha, and wow Kaoru is emotional. :D Kinda has to be though, she's the main character and it'd be boring otherwise.
-drum roll- Response to reviewers!!
Kuroshiki- Thank ya Kuro-chan! I still can't believe you said "Wow. That's so like you to do that." Lol, can't blame you though. I probably would have done that exact thing Kaoru did, okay maybe not. Actually, probably not. I'd go to straight out punches, ahahahaha, Ima failure.
blossompetals- THANK YOU! Hehe, you're the main reason why I'm posting this chapter in less than a week! :D Hope you like this chapter too!
miniwoo- Lol, yeah! I agree with you, and thanks for reviewing! I hope you also like this chappie too! Good 'ol chap! (Okay, I promise I won't do that again...haha.)
unknown- Glad you like it! Hehe, yeah I practically made this series just so I could write about Kaoru exploding. Her doing that seemed so ... FUN and such Kaoru-like thing to do! :)
And lastly, I've edited it since I last posted it up. I've added a lot actually, so read it over if you want, starting from Kaoru's flashback. Okie dokie! Can't write any more tonight. Bye!
Note: 2 more chapters to go! It still stays very interesting if you're wondering, "How is she gonna continue a story like this? Shouldn't this be like a one shot?" Well, it was going to be a one shot at first. Then I was like, nahh, I want to describe more of why Kaoru's pissed, and so on and so on. Anyway, more twists and turns to come up! Enjoy!
THANK YOU EVERYONE AND PLEASE REVIEW!!
-Reiia