I don't own anything...Thanks to Stephie for helping me with this chapter :D and for the image of Edward exploding :( lol good thing vampires are nearly indestructible huh ? :P Hehe the danger magnets in the fridge :D and the Chevies in pieces beside her

If it had been beating, my heart would have stopped. My breath caught in my throat, and then started coming out in short, shallow gasps.

'Edward please I'm sorry, I don't know how to fix this, but I'm sorry. I'll be different I promise, I'll be here I won't do it anymore.' I begged.

He pushed me away and sat us both up on the couch, I tried to hold his hand but he pulled away. He stared at the floor, holding a breath. I held my breath too and waited for him to respond. Each second that ticked by seemed like an eternity. Finally he looked up and met my gaze.

'Bella,' his voice was shaky, he took a deep breath and continued, 'I want to, but I just...I don't know how to trust you anymore. I can't do it. I've needed you so much these past two years. I've always needed you, always. But you weren't here...I just, I won't take it anymore. I can't.'

'So what does this mean?' I whispered.

He shook his head, 'It means...goodbye Bella.'

I stared at him in disbelief, 'No, please no, let me explain, please Edward.'

'Explain what!' he exploded, his eyes full of anger.

'I needed to make sure they were alright. That they would be OK. It's like I couldn't function without knowing for sure how they were getting along. But they're happy now, well happier, and I know they'll be OK.' I grabbed hold of his hand, squeezing it gently.

'So you needed to know they were fine? That he was fine?' he asked, voice free of all emotion.

'Yes.'

He stood in front of me then, towering over me from my position on the couch. He was holding the couch behind me and he was glaring at me, his eyes more terrifying then I had ever seen them. I felt a shudder of fear run through my body. 'You put their feelings in front of ours?...In front of mine? Bella do you even know whats happened in the last two years? I've needed you more than I ever did but you were off spying on a dog!' he screamed.

I tried to compose the shock on my face and tried to straighten myself up; I was cowering into the couch. Edward had never screamed at me. He seemed to realise this and his face was horror struck, he sank to the floor in front of me.

'Is this really goodbye Edward? And how would that work? Do I...would I need to leave?' I whispered.

'Yes, you would need to leave...But that's only my opinion, somehow Alice still feels a need for you to be here.' he shrugged, casting a swift glance at me, I caught sight of the pain etched on his face before he dropped his gaze to the floor again.

'Are we still together?' I asked.

'Right now yes, but as for the future...I need to think. I'd appreciate it if you didn't spy on me either.' He spat the last sentence and with that he was gone.

I sat there staring after him, then Alice was in front of me.

'Come on, get up. You need to go hunting.' she grabbed my arm and pulled me off the couch.

As much as I wanted to complain I knew she was right, so without a word I followed her out to the forest. Thankfully I didn't run into anyone else. I don't think I could handle seeing them right now. Alice didn't try to talk with me, for which I was grateful I needed time to think as well.

I knew I couldn't live without Edward...but I wouldn't ever get to the Volturi, the wolves maybe? Call Jacob and tell him where to find me...but then that might put the rest of my family at risk. Edward had said the only thing keeping him from asking me to leave was Alice. So maybe I could leave, maybe he wanted me gone. If I convinced Alice it would be the best thing, then she would let me go, and so would Edward. I'd go straight to the Volturi then, try what Edward had once tried. I would never hurt them again...could never hurt them again.

Alice growled beside me, 'And just why are you planning to go see our good friend Aro?' she asked sarcastically.

'I can't live without Edward.' I replied quietly.

'You have for the last two years.' she retorted, then her hand flew up to her mouth, her eyes wide with shock, 'Uh...I just meant...'

'No, I know what you meant. I was stupid, I made a mistake OK. I don't know how to explain it or how to fix it. But I made a mistake. I want to go back and change it but I can't! All I know is that he wants me gone...And I would do anything for him...'

'Bella he loves you...or do you not remember our trip to Italy 3 years ago?'

'Things change Alice, he said the only thing keeping me here is you...Just let me go Alice...He'll be happy, he doesn't want me anymore...He'll find someone better.' I cried, dropping to the ground sobbing, tearless, broken sobs.

'He loves you, his not human Bella, our feelings don't change that easy. I thought now you would understand.'

'He doesn't want me Alice, maybe it was just the lure of the blood. He got confused? It was too good to be true. Why shouldn't I let him go if that's what he wants?' I argued. 'I love him enough for that. I love him enough to want him to be happy. Please don't follow me Alice.'

I got up and started to run. I barely made it to edge of the forest before two strong hands grabbed my arms and spun me around. His fingers dug into my arms. Edward was glaring at me, growling deep in his chest, I'd thought he was terrifying before, but I didn't need Jasper's gift to feel the fury emanating from him, it was a thousand times worse than before. I resisted the urge to wrap my arms around him and beg him to take me back, he wanted me out of his life so I was willing to oblige.

'Let me go Edward.' I pleaded.

His hands tightened around my arms before he dropped them. He spun around and ripped up the nearest tree, throwing it, knocking three other trees down with it. He fell to his knees and screamed in agony and exasperation. He fell forward onto his hands and I heard him sobbing, 'Why?' he whispered.

'Edward? Tell me what you want?...Please.' I begged, feeling more confused than I thought possible.

'I just, I need you...But I can't take it anymore.' he confessed in a muted voice.

'What do you need me to do? Just say it and it's done Edward. I'll prove myself to you I swear.' I pleaded.

'Just let me think...Just let me think and don't try running off. Don't run off...Ever...' a broken sob escaped his lips.

He got up and paced, my eyes followed him. Then he fell to the ground again, leaning back against a tree, he pinched the bridge of his nose. His chest was heaving as sobs escaped his body. I walked towards him but he didn't move. Softly I pulled his hand away from his face and sank down to the ground, snaking in between his legs, I wrapped my arms around his body and laid my head in the crook of his neck.

'I'm here as long as you want me, I'll prove myself in anyway you want. Just give me a chance Edward, please. I love you.' I confessed.

His arms wrapped around me, pulling me closer. His lips pressed lightly to my shoulder. For now, that would be all the acceptance I needed.