Attention All Viewers! I, Gobstoppers, Will Be Changing My Name! For Now On I Will Be Call, NoOneLivesForever!!!!!! If U Have Any Question Please E- Mail Me At Girlpower121889aol.com Sorry For Taking Up Your Time!
Gobstoppers
Gobstoppers: U heard it! I will no long go by Gobstoppers any more. So please let me know if you have any questions. I will not change my name until I get back from trucking with my Uncle Terry. I'm giving you an advance notice. Sorry for any inconvenience I have caused you.
Yami: So does that mean you'll no longer annoy us?
Gobstoppers: Ha ha! NO! I'll still be the same annoying person only with a different screen name! smirks
Keiko: She's my hero!
Yami: She's my worst enemy!
Gobstoppers: I thought Mairk and Mailk were your worst enemy...?
Yami: .... Well they're second after you, followed by Bakura, then Tea, then Yugi's grandpa, then Bandit Keith, then Maxamillion, then.....
Gobstoppers: throws anchor at Yami's head
Yami: xX
Gobstoppers: Better. I'm still going to be my psycho, crazy, depressed, annoying old self....
Eike: Just with a new name.
Gobstoppers: Oh yeah, everybody meet Eike Kush! He'll be my new person to annoy; also he'll be helping me with my writing... I'm also going to start a new story under Shadow Of Destiny once I come up a excellent story line. Ya'll got any suggestions let me knew through your reviews!
Eike: sigh I can't believe I have to put up with her.
Gobstoppers: You know u love me!
Eike: Yeah, whatever.....
Gobstoppers: Anyone, I know you people hate my rambling so I'll get to the story after the disclaimer and a question..... DOES ANYONE EVER READ WHAT AUTHORS ARE SAYING BEFORE THEY GO TO THE STORY OR DO WE JUST WRITE IT FOR NOTHING?!??!!!!?!
Disclaimer: I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho or Eike or Yami or the song..... I think that's it.... --
Death Whispered A Lullaby
"How?" he finally asked me. I was upset to say at the least. What do you think oh-mighty-creeper? You; you dumbass! As much as I wanted to say that I didn't. I stood there looking at him as if he was crazy.
"You...." Was all I got to say before everything went black? It took over everything. My mind, my soul, my heart, everything. As much as I fought I just couldn't get away from the blackness. I was tried of the dark. I wanted my light back. I wanted Kurama back. I wanted my like back.
Ever get the feeling that Death its self is close by. Breathing down your shoulder? Invading you personal space like a person to a bear? It haunts you until you go completely crazy or until you can't take it anymore and end it all. Everything in the world around you seems to disappear but you and death. Don't you hate how it will never leave you alone? It'll stick to you like glue weather your dead or not. I hate it!
Yet, how can something you fear something so much brings you reassurance? A sigh of relief everyday as you wake up to a nightmare of a life. Something so bad can smell so good and bring peace to a world of suffering. A sweet lullaby like a mother would sing to her crying child. A lullaby that has killed billions yet people each day want it more now than ever. Have you ever felt that way?
I have.... Something about makes smile a real smile. Not a sad death- defying smirk but a genuine smile. Something that makes me happy each time it came to my mind. Made my heart sore to new fond places. I don't want death to me or my child but having that as an option is something I can rely on, right? Even though I still cringe at the word. When it is said I want to run and hide yet I fell as if I have to face death in the eye.
I stare at darkness in my future and I have to be brave enough to confront it when I don't I want to join it at that moment. Whatever he threatens me with, I won't care. He can threat to take my life away but it won't change a thing. I know what I'm getting myself into and I don't care what happens to me as long as my child is safe from harms way.
They say death is the most feared thing on the universe. I am going to prove them wrong. There are many people that wish to have death take them everyday. Even in their prayers and dreams do they wish for the unforeseeable! I am one of those who death to take me now. I will never look back. Never! Yet, I can't join it just yet. Even though death whispered a lullaby.....
Out on the road there are fireflies circling
Deep in the woods, Where the lost souls hide
Over the hill there are men returning
Trying to find some peace of mind
The lullaby has pulled billions to their fait but not me. I will not be the who will fall like the rest of the others. I will live on because I believe there is still some good left within the one I despise so much that I love him. Nothing will ever get in the way of me reuniting with the old Kurama. I will make sure of that. I do not wish for my child to live a life I had. I want my child's dreams and fantasies to come true. Everything they want from me I will be willing to give up even if it is my own life. I just want it to live a happy childhood unlike my own. More like its father's childhood.
I stare into the emerald eyes of hell as I think this over. He sits on the other side of his office desk glaring at me. Thinking of what to do with someone who is expecting a child. We haven't spoken since I told him he was going to be a father. After that moment darkness consumed whatever light I had left in my narrow tunnel. Nothing but blackness surrounds me. Squeezing me of my life and oxygen. Why won't this beast that sits before me say something? He watches my squirming figure. He gaze burning a hole straight through my soul and body...... my hopes..... my dreams.
He begins to move his mouth as if saying something but nothing comes out. Why? Why must he hurt me so and not even care to how this is affecting me. I can't deal with stress now. Not with a baby developing within my body. He stands and moves to stand by me. He moves as if he is within the shadows of hell. Nothing more and nothing less. But must he hate everything or what?
He stops when he is directly in front of me. I sallow hard and stare into those emeralds burning with hate. I turn my gaze away and stare into the wall. He must have seen this as a sign of fear because he laughs darkly. I sigh and only ignore him. What else can I do to a beast that now has a major advantage over me? I feel rough cold blood stained hands on my cheeks making me shudder. My head is forced to stare into those hateful eyes. There so cold think a glazier. Nothing but pure hate for the world and its people in it. Why must he be so cold and distant? What happened to him in juby?
He seems shocked as he stares in to my dulling eyes. He expects to see fear and hurt in my eyes. Yet, he is meeting with sad, caring eyes that he hasn't seen in years. He removes his hands and stares into my eyes as if in a daze. He slowly wipes away a tear as it leeks from my sadden eyes. I have cried in front of Kurama but he has never wiped away a single tear until now. I can see straight through those hating eyes to the man Kurama was before. I know his soul still rest within somewhere. Why must he act so surprised? He knows I love him more than life itself. Nothing will ever change that no matter what he does to my body. He will never destroy the love that I hold for him within my soul.
I hear him stammer my name as if trying to remember my name. I smile and he looked even more surprised. I bet he is wondering how I can smile with so many tears in my eyes. Though, he doesn't know my tears hold happiness. I hold so much hope in returning him to his old self. I wish this moment would never end. He slowly leans down and looks closer into my crimson eyes. A small smile tugs at the corner of his rose petal lips. I sigh and lean closer wanting to taste kindness once more. Our lips touch in a light kiss that only seems as if a butterfly had landed on your bare skin. He pulls away quickly and slaps my face. Yet, it seem didn't like a slap just more of a sign.
"Why do you not fear me? Why do you not shake in terror like the others did before I killed them?" He asked in a cold yet warm tone. His voice was beginning to change from what it is to what it was. I sighed and stood up. I saw him take a step back and I frowned. Does he think I am going to hurt him? Why would I ever hurt the one I love?
"Because, love, I am not like the others. I don't care what you do to my body or how much you abuse me... I will and still love you forever and ever." I say in response hoping to trigger something in his memories. I know he must think I am crazy but the truth is I kinda am. If I can get Kurama to remember me then he will remember his old self and go back to the ways when we were happy. Kurama looks at me with those hatred eyes and growls like a predator tailing it's prey. I sigh and turned to walk away but he stopped me.
Sleep my child
"Where the hell do you think your going?" asked Kurama with venom in every word he had just spoken. A cold chill ran down my spin as I awaited my punishment. Why won't god set my free from this nightmare? To just let me awake in my lover's arms as he tells me it wasn't real and that everything will be fine. I have paid my dos. Why must I suffer?
"I was going to take a walk, Kurama. I thought you would like some time to your self to think this over. I know you do not need me to burden you with my needs. I will leave and come back in one hour to see what you have to say about me being pregnant." I spoke as if I had no soul. That my mind was taken over and force to say something so annoying. I only wanted him to be happy even if that meant removing me from the picture. I still want to know what they had done to the real Kurama. I know he is not the hateful and angered. Yet, I don't seem to do a thing about this anymore. I have put up with the abuse for 2 years, 9 months, and 13 days. Strange how one will remember how long he or she has been in a horrible situation, such as now.
"You will do no such thing slave! You will not walk outside while carrying my child within you. If something happened to the baby it would be your head. I wouldn't want that considering I would need you to make another baby." Kurama spoke with such ice. I hated hearing hate and anger within his voice. It used to be so soft and caring that it would stop a war. I only nod knowing he did not give me a direct question or something he would like me to reply to. He smirked and grabbed my upper arm painfully, I hissed. He was going to abuse me even when pregnant.
"Hiei, I should thank you for letting me get you pregnant." He said as that annoying smirked stayed in placed on his lips. I looked on in fear and anger. Why now?! Why dare to lose a child while trying to make me scream in pain. Yet, he tugged painfully on my arm leading me towards our bedroom. I smile slightly at all the heated passions we have shared with the king size bed in the middle. Once upon the door to the bedroom we entered. Kurama closed and clicked the lock into place behind me. My body shake now with great terror. I knew he was going to hurt me.
"Now then slave," Kurama began putting more venom into the word slave more than the others. He stared at me with cold angered eyes before letting out an evil laugh. He began to walk near me with an evil look on his face. It normally meant death. I would know because he would drag me along to make me watch innocent people die. I backed away until I met with the end of the bed. My knees buckled under me as I fell backward onto the soft mattress. Kurama continued to what he was saying earlier, "I wouldn't want you to not enjoy this so I'll have to make this extra painful." he sneered as I felt hot liquid sting at the corners of my eyes. I knew he was going to hurt me more if I cried so I tried to hold it back.
"Is the little baby going to cry?" mocked Kurama and I shook with rage. How dare he call me a baby! Yet, there wasn't anything I could do to make him stop. I have tried everything and anything to get him to realize how much he's hurting me. I threaten to go to the police and have him arrested but he said if I ever tried that he would not only kill me but my sister, Yukina, as well. I shuddered at the thought. To that threat I also earned a new set of scars. He, with a knife, wrote property of Kurama on my chest, legs, arms, and my lower back. I had to go to the emergency hospital because I couldn't stop the bleeding and I knew Kurama wouldn't do a thing to help me.
"No, master.... I am not going to cry. I just wish you would see how much you are hurting the ones you love. I wish you would go back...." I began but was slapped across the face with such force I nearly fell off the bed. I should have known. I am never to speak of his past life or friends in front of him or in his house.
"I told you NEVER and I mean NEVER to mention my past life! I was NOTHING back then, do you hear me?! NOTHING!!" Kurama boomed with anger and hate. I guess something did happen while he was in juby but why won't he tell me? Why? All I want to do is help him and maybe live happier.
"I'm sorry but why not?" I asked hoping this time I would get some real answers. Something I have been waiting all my life to hear. I only want Kurama to love again. To live a life of peace without anger. If I have to force it out of him and be killed in the process then I will. No matter what happens to me I won't let him die in anger and hate for the world. He has lived amongst the humans for to long to do this to them. He is turning in Youko all over again. Yet, I know this is not Youko's doings... He respected the choice his other half made.
"You are not to ask question's slave!" Kurama hollered with pure hate and rage. I can see in his eyes he is ready to kill. I can see death within those emerald green eyes. I can smell death in the air. It was never a good sign.
"Please, tell me. As you husband I demand to know what's wrong with you.... Please, tell me." I said as I grew concerned as I saw fire burning hate rising within the orbs of green. Why change them when they used to hold love for everything of any kind. Why change after so many years of happiness?
Under the fog there are shadows moving
Don't be afraid, Hold my hand
Into the dark there are eyelids closing
Buried alive in the shifting sands
"That is none of your damn business slave! Now shut the hell up!" scream Kurama with venom. I shook my head no and to my surprise Kurama looked at me with shock once more. I guess he wasn't expecting my defiance. He was hoping that I would shut up due to fear. Well he's wrong!
"No... Not anymore, Kurama. I not going to take this anymore! I am not a slave; I am Hiei, your husband. I deserve to be treated like one and I deserve to be happy. I don't need this from you. I have a baby to get ready for, I don't have time for your abuse or your hate anymore. Either tell me what is bothering you or you can kiss my ass good-bye. I'll leave! I swear it.... I SWEAR ON MY MOTHER'S GRAVE I'LL LEAVE!!!!" I spoke with nothing more than tiredness. I wanted no more of this life of hell. He was either going to change his ways or never see me again. EVER! Kurama looked shocked and then grew angry.
"You wouldn't dare leave! You know that I will hunt you down and kill you, you slave!" Kurama spat back sending me over the edge. I couldn't take the abuse anymore. I couldn't take him being so cruel to other and me. I had to get away, to be set free. I looked at him with every emotion I have bottled everything up with in the last 2 years. Anger, hate, despise, betrayal, rage, love, everything!
"That's it! I can't take it anymore! I'm leave for good! I tried to get you to change back to the way you were before but you didn't listen! I tired to make you see how much you are hurting me! I guess you really like your new cold hateful self! Well this is the last straw! I'm leaving!!! YOU HEAR ME?!! LEAVING!! I'M NOT GOING TO TAKE THIS ANYMORE!!! I NEED TO BE FREE FROM THIS HATED WORLD YOU HAVE CREATED FOR ME TO LIVE IN!!! I CAN'T STAND TO SEE YOU MAKE PEOPLE SUFFER AND CRY OUT IN PAIN..... If you were half the man you use to be you would have known that.... I'm sorry Kurama, but I can't stand living with you anymore. I can't... I just can't. Please forgive me Kurama but I must be going. I also want a....." I screamed but they died away into whispers. I knew he could hear me but I didn't care anymore. I need somewhere I could be free from all harm. Even if that meant.....
"You want a what, Hiei?" asked Kurama with a slightly shaky voice. I looked up and for the first time, since we were married, he look as if he were ready to break down and cry. I guess I had finally gotten through to him... Yet, it's to late now. The past can't be changed. I know this for a fact. If it could be changed I would have gone back in time to change everything that had happened to Kurama that put him in the state now.
"A divorcé....." I said with a sigh and looked up to see the first of many tears to come drop from the corner of his eyes. I looked away trying hard myself not to cry. He nodded and moved out of the way so I could leave. As I was about to walk out the bedroom, I felt Kurama grab me by the shoulder. I shrugged him off not wanting anymore to say to him. He must have looked hurt but this is what I had to do. I had to leave. I had to, right? As I reached the front door I turned and looked Kurama in the eyes and let my first tears come pouring down my face. Kurama also had a tear stained face. "Good-bye Kurama." I said and turned back around to walk out the door. I heard Kurama whispered something softly but it was loud enough for me to hear. I chocked on a sob that was arising in my throat. I shut the door and left. Finally after all these years, I'm being set free. Nothing was holding me back to set off and have a life of my own. I was free... I turned around and took one last glance at my pass before walking onward to my future.
Sleep my child
(Kurama's POV)
I looked around the room before shaking my head. How could I have been so blind? I had to abuse him for my own sick pleasure instead of working to meet his needs. I walked slowly to the kitchen and sighed. I could feel a sob coming to the surface yet I didn't allow it to come out. How could I hurt the one I married? The one I sold my life to? The very person I vowed to protect. Now he's gone and he will never return. It's over. He wants a divorce and all I can do is agree. I have no say in this. Not after they way I treated him for so many years. He made the decision on his own so I can't do anything to stop him. It was his choice so I should let him have a chance to be happy. Even if it means removing my self from the picture.
I wiped away my tears on my sleeve and looked the cabinets for something to wash away my pain. Finding nothing I moved to the fridge. God must have listen because on a shelf of the fridge was a 24 pack of beer. I grabbed the whole thing and walked back to our- my bedroom and sat on our- my bed. It had only been fifteen minuets but it felt like forever to me. I wonder how Hiei is. Sighing, I open the pack of beer and taking out a small can of beer. As I opened the beer I saw a photo of mine and Hiei's wedding day sitting on the nightstand. I looked away and allowed fresh tears to pour down like rain from my face.
I took a long sip of beer and sighed. It wasn't the best thing in the world and it wouldn't numb the pain forever...but it was good for something's. Well, at least I hoped so. As I took another sip I stood and walked over to the closet. Upon opening it I was showered with boxes that fell from the top shelf. Looking down at the mess I sighed. I just didn't have the heart to clean up. Bending down I pulled three small shoe boxes from the heap. After setting them down on my bed I walked to my dresser. Opening it I pulled a big leather bind book out and sat back on the soft bed. Looking at the new photo album I sighed. It was supposed to be for our anniversary but now I guess I'll have to give it to Hiei as a farewell gift. The card should say from the dumbass, good for nothing, piece of shit, ex-husband...to an angel named Hiei.
I placed the album to the right and looked over at a shoe box marked new years, wedding, 1st anniversary, and Christmas on it. Opening the box I was surprised at how many photos we had taken. I smiled at the memory of each one. I growled and wiped the smile off my evil face. A beast such as my self doesn't deserve to be an angel. I took out a packet of photo and set to work on the perfect farewell gift. I was going to make a photo album of nothing but wonderful memories. Even if that meant me hurting more. I grabbed another beer because of already finishing the first one off. I took a huge gulp after opening it I sighed. So my work began.
(Yukina's POV)
I had heard about the fight my brother and Kurama had gotten into and I grew worried for both their sake. I know they'll sink into deep depression but the only one that will be able to come out is Hiei. He has a baby he is getting ready for that will be able to bring him much joy and love. As for Kurama he has nothing. Everybody has left him or given up on his abusive ways. I feel horrible for him. He has nothing comfort him in his time of need. I know it was his fault for driving my brother to wanting a divorce but still.... I can't help but feel as if there is something missing to the puzzle. I guess I'll have to talk to him when I get to his house.
Hiei had asked me last night if I would go by Kurama's house and pick up a few belonging's. Of course I had agreed right way. It gives me a chance to talk to Kurama about last night and what he's going to do now. I wish I could turn back time to let them know they really need each other. Then this whole thing could have been easily avoided.
I sighed as I draw closer to Hiei's old home. I know he's going to miss it very much. I hate to face it but things are going to be a lot harder from here on out. Hiei will have to be a single parent and raise his child alone. Even thought he has his friends and me.....we could never replace the father of the child. One day the child will want to know of its father and what will Hiei say. Will he mention him at all to his child or not? Time can only tell and he will have to cross that bridge alone when he gets to it not until then....
I can see the house as it stands out from the others. It's such a beautiful house. I have never seen any house like it. I sigh and realize that soon Kurama will have to move. He will not be able to pay the bills on his own. Not at least to any of my knowledge. I shook my head and walked up to sidewalk to the lovely home. I rang the door bell as I reached the front door. I got no answer and I tried knocking but he wouldn't come to the door. I turned the door knob and to my surprise it came loose of its closed position. Walking inside I search for Kurama everywhere. I had one more place to try and that was the bedroom.
As I walked inside I saw beer cans litter the trashcan. Kurama was lying with his back to me and from the way he looked it was as if he was crying. He shoulder's shook violently. I could hear soft pleas of my brother's name and saying for him to come back. Kurama was in a roughed up sate. He hadn't even changed his cloths since yesterday. I looked to the foot of the bed and saw a bag and Hiei's katana.
"That's why you came isn't it? To gather things to take back to Hiei?" asked Kurama and I sighed. Kurama sounded so lonely now that Hiei had left. I walked to the foot of the bed and retrieved the bag and the sword. Kurama stood and didn't even bother to wipe away his tears as he turned toward me. I looked away from him. He looked so lost and scared, like a puppy with out an owner. He walked up to me and looked down in his hands. I did the same and smiled slightly. In his hands was a picture of Hiei on their honey moon. Kurama had taken Hiei to America to visit. He had a wonderful time to what it looked like in the picture. Hiei was smiling as the sunset in the background giving Hiei's figure and angelic look to it.
Kurama kissed the picture and place it atop the bag and went to the window and looked out it. There was no sun and it looked as it was about to rain. Storm clouds hung over head and threatened to send the people of Earth running in all directions to their home. I shook my head in shame and began to say something but Kurama cut her off.
"Please just go." Kurama said in a torn voice and sighed. I nodded and headed for the front door. I turned back and sighed once again.
"He wished you luck, Kurama." Was all I said before closing the door and walked to the front door. I could hear sobbing from Kurama's bedroom and cringed. I hated hearing people so sad. I can't stand to hear the suffering of the world. It pains me to much. In my homeland there was nothing or no one in pain. Nothing! Not even the animals that lived among or people. Yet, why must it happen to Hiei and Kurama? Sighing, I began my journey home to my love and Hiei.
(Hiei's POV)
I sighed and stared at the wall ahead of me. It has only been a few hours since our fight last night. I can't believe all this is coming to an end because Kurama couldn't see his own mistakes. I could feel rage boiling in my blood last night that I haven't felt since we were married. Everything I had left for Kurama came spilling out. I couldn't stand to see him again because it would only hurt worse. The pain in my heart would grow and the emptiness within my soul would take over everything. I wanted nothing more of him. I couldn't.... not again.
I sent Yukina to grab my belongings. I couldn't face him just yet. He and I needed more time before we see each other again. Even if that means we have to be apart for years. I still don't understand why he couldn't see his mistakes and correct them. He had to go and be what he was instead of what he is. He seemed like he was immortal....no pain had ever came to him until last night. He was like a beast with no feelings except to get revenge who wronged him in the past, even if that meant harming innocents beings. I still can't shake the feeling that something horrible is going to happen to him now that no one cares. No one is there to take care of his now broken and battered soul. Nothing will be able to pull him out of the darkness that will come to surround him.
I feel awful about leaving him alone knowing that his own family doesn't care anymore. Yet, I can't go back to the abuse.....to the pain that I suffered everyday. Never knowing if I was going to live to see the next day break. I can't go back to it, never. I am leaving him for good. That means no more seeing him and no more caring for him. This will be hard on the both of us. I will have to take care of his baby and try and avoid the subject of its father when it grows old enough to understand.
I sigh and looked out the window of my room to see rain pour down from the heavens above. It seemed like the angels were crying for us. I shook my head in shame. Why would something so pure cry for someone so evil. I stand and walk to the mirror that was hanging on the open closet door. Looking at my self I smiled. I could see a small bulge were the baby was growing within me. I placed both of my hands on either side and smiled bigger. I can't believe that there is another life living within me until it wants to be known. I can't wait to hold the little bundle of joy in my arms for the first time. I just hope every thing will go smoothly for my pregnancy. I can only pray that no harm will come to this child.
Walking over to my bedroom door I peaked out the small keyhole to see if anyone was outside my room. Not seeing anyone I opened my door just a crack and looked out just to make sure. Seeing the coast was clear I step out into the passion-filled hallway. The walls were a sere white with no markings what so ever. The floor was of pure oak wood that shined under the light from the hall ways walls. Upon one end of the hallway lay a small picture of the gang. Everyone had a smile on their face. It looks like it was taken just after the Dark Tournament. Sighing, I walked to the living room and sat down on the soft comfortable sofa.
I heard the front door open signaling that Yukina had returned home safely. I smiled and ran to the door to great her. As I reached the door I could see pain and despaired within my sisters eyes. Yet, she still held the happiness she always did. Walking up to her I took my bag and katana. Why she brought that with her I did not know. She looked at me and smiled slightly before following me to my room. As I was packing my things away into the closet se spoke.
"I hope you are making the right choice. I know it's not my place but Kurama looked so lost and pained without you there. Sorry to bring this up...." Yukina said in a soft and caring voice. She sounded like an angel. Sometimes I wondered if she was an angel that was sent here to be stole peace on Earth. Yet, the way she spoke of Kurama sadden my greatly. I wonder what he is going to do with the rest of his life without me.
"I have no choice, Yukina. I gave him a chance to change but he didn't take it. I just don't know what to do anymore. I hate to leave him all alone in the world but I have to. Sometimes I wonder if I am doing the right thing. Am I, Yukina?" I said and watched my sister sigh. She walked in and motion me sit next to her on the bed. As I did as I was told I felt her arms in circle me in a hug. I was a bit shocked but hugged her back. This is what I needed in my life. I needed warmth and happiness.
"I do not know, Hiei. Time will tell." She whispered and I nodded. I asked her if I could be alone for a while. She agreed and told me she was going to make lunch. I nodded and began to unpack again. As I reached the bottom of the bag I noticed a photo album laying there. I reached in and picked it up. It was a bit heavy telling me that it was full. I walked over to my twin sized bed and opened up to the first page. As I looked at the page I noticed all the pictures were from all the good times we had. On the back of the front cover it read: "I know I wasn't the best husband but we did have some good times. I placed every memory that I cherish within this book so you can see that I did and still do love you. I am so sorry for hurting you but please...... Never forget the times we had fun and loved. Never forget who you are and please...... Never forget me....." Tears welled in my pools of dull burned out fire. I knew now that Kurama was really hurting and that he was sorry. More important he remembered his old self and went back. I just wish he listened earlier to me. It's to late now.
Speak to me now and the world will crumble
Open a door and the moon will fall
All of your life, All your memories
Go to your dreams, Forget it all
I looked through the rest of the album until I cam to the last page. In it were no pictures but a letter that had been written to me when Kurama had first told me of his love. I smiled and ran a finger over the letter. I was so shocked that I couldn't speak through the entire conversation that he had on the phone with me that night. Afterwards he came over with two dozen of white roses, my favorite flower. We spent the rest of that night in each others arms watching a movie. We fell asleep on the couch and were awoken the next morning by Kurama's family. When we told them that we were in love they all smiled and gave me a big hug welcoming me to the family. We made love after dinner that night. I was my first time and it was his in human form.
I look over to the back of the back cover and sigh. I read it over and over again allowing the words to sink into my brain. I can't help but let fresh tears run down my face. Why would he ask such a thing when he knew I would always do anything he wanted. I have forgiven him, I have and it won't change anything. I close the album and lay it on my nightstand. Sighing, I lie down on my bed and close my eyes. Our wedding day flashed through my mind and I smiled. Then darkness took over my mind as I fell asleep.
Sleep my child
Gobstoppers: Oh Yeah, Baby!
Yami: XX
Eike: Yami's still knocked out you know.
Gobstoppers: Really..... takes buck of water Let's see if this helps any. throws water on Yami
Yami: XX
Eike: Oh, yeah
Keiko: I'm bored
Gobstoppers: Hi bored... I'm Gobstoppers, the blonde is Eike, and the one on the floor is Yami.....
Keiko: That's not what I meant!
Eike: lol
Gobstoppers: I know
Keiko: whatever storms off
Yami: My head hurts.....
Gobstoppers: YAY!!!! Yami!
Yami: runs off stage
Eike: Looks like he hates you
Gobstoppers: Phooy
Herro: Gobstoppers, stop annoying people
Gobstoppers: Hey Herro
Herro: nods
Jin: walks up on stage
Gobstoppers: Hello Jin!
Jin: Hello
Gobstoppers: Anyway, I have to get going. -- cries I'll be back though
Jin: Review
Yami: REVIEW!
Eike: Review please
Keiko: Review pretty please
Herro: Review before I blow your brains out!
Everybody: Review!!!
Gobstoppers: U heard em'