CHapter 4: its getting good *

(Jude is in the airport waiting for her flight to Poland. Though this is supposed to be part of the before the concert routine, she couldn't wait to write about all the events that happened the last three dayz in Italy. She scans her surroundings: Jo is doing important logistic stuff in customs and Will is sitting on the other side of the waiting area, listening to his ipod and pretending not to see Jude)



SOoooo Diary,



 Fate has a weird way of telling you that she or he is the boss. Just when you think your in control, he does something to throw you off guard just to remind you that you are definitely not. So it's been three dayz and still no one has still heard from Tommy. I'm really staring to worry. I am even praying that I see him at my next concert in Poland. Yeah I wouldn't even be mad to know that he was being all stalkery at this point. I just need to know that he's okay. I will keep you updated if I see or hear anything.

 But back to how fate put me in my place. Fate let me know that I am going to change and become the Jude that I am claiming to be. No matter how hard I try to revert to my old ways, HE just wont let me. Exhibit A: Will. Or should I say Jaime part II. I really do think he's a cool guy….just not the one for me. I just wanted to have fun. And I never meant to hurt him. I just wanted to have a guy to have fun with. Is that a crime??? Well, apparently fate thinks so…he cut my good time short. Well, Will did last night:



Jude, JO, Will, and some random Italian guy sit in a booth in a club. The music is blaring and jude and jo are glistening in sweat from dancing on their table for the last ten songs. Will couldn't keep his eyes off of Jude when they were dancing. Fell so fast eh? So as she sat down beside him he stared at her some more {awkward anyone??}until he got the courage to say…..



Will: …Jude you looked good up there



Jude: well you didn't look to shabby yourself down here. But you would have been even hotter up there with us.



Will: Yeah…about that…me and dancing…we don't go to well together.



Jude: oh come on…its not about being good, it about just lettn' loose!!

{At that moment Will leaned over to jude's hear and whispered}



Will: I think im starting to fall for you

{Immediately jude looked up at Jo across the table, who was making out with the Italian guy and grabbed her arm}



Jude: Bathroom time!!!!!!!!! Be right bake Will {she says with a forced smile}

{Jo stubbles into the bathroom and yells at Jude}

Jo: Bloody HELL! Did you not see that I was…



Jude: Will said he's falling for me!!!!!!!!



Jo: Oh. my. god. I have never seen you soo hysterical



Jude: why would he say that when he knows this is just a fling,,for fun. Come on. I'm on tour!



Jo: uh maybe he's just confused. I mean you have been all over him like all the time.



Jude: Jo. not helping right now! What do I do??



Jo: the Mature thing…{she says with the don't make me say what you already know you need to do look}



Jude: But I don't want to hurt his feelings.



Jo: yeah okay jude so just drag him along for the rest of the tour and make the rest of his life miserable b/c you'll be faking the whole time to" spare his feelings" and God knows your bad at lying.



Jude: This is the last time I do this!! I gotta stop taking advantage of these guys. First My best friend. Now this intern guy I just met a few weeks before the tour. I'm convinced I'm evil.



Jo: no your just growing up. And now your going to do the grown up thing. Just listen to yourself..you already sound like the New Jude I know you can be. {Jo hugs jude and says into her ear} You know what you need to do now more than ever. So don't let me anyone else stop you from going for what you want because of we think is best for you. Your a changed young woman now. So trust yourself and follow your heart. Don't just do what your head says you Should. Life's to short not to follow your heart.



Jude: you….{her eyes begin to water}… you are an Angel. You know that?



Jo: No you are. What I admire about you is your passion. And I see you beginning to loose it. Don't let me rub off on you too much!!{they both chuckle} That night when you thought…I mean when you saw tommy I don't care what you say…you were glowing. When there is someone who makes you feel that way after not seeing/ or talking them for over a year…that's something you don't give up.



Jude: I know….I think.. I might finally be ready to grow up for real. And as my first grown up step, I am going to walk out of this bathroom and be completely honest with Will. { she sighs}…Wish me luck??



Jo: you don't need it! All the strength you need is in here {she points to Jude's heart and Then grabs her hand. They walk together swinging hands to their booth.}



Jude: hey will im back!!



Will: hey sorry about throwing you that bone without warning.



Jude: Do you wanna talk outside? Where its quiet?
{ As Jude and Will walk outside, Jo and the itallian dude take a break from their make out fest and dance on top of the table!!! Jo- Party-girl one minute/ inspirational-friend-who knows-exactly-what-to-say the next. Where can I find me a friend like that??? Lol}



Will: yeah so about earlier



Jude: first let me apologize. I'm so sorry for being selfish.



Will: ….?{confused face}



Jude: I'm sorry for dragging you along as my boy toy on this tour and not even considering the fact that you have feelings. I'm a jerkface major and I know it. But that's why I'm apologizing and not continuing. I'm turning over a new leaf in my life.



Will: Thanks for telling me that now Jude.... So you don't wanna make out randomly on the bus any more?



Jude: no because I'll always know in the back of my head that it means more to you than it ever will for me. Besides… my heart is kind of under lock and key for a reason right now.



Will: Oh…I see.. well Jude, If I can't be with you than I don't wanna be friends with you. Its either you try to give me another shot or I fly home to London tomorrow and not to Poland with you. { All or nothing. Sound familiar. why do the good boys always use ultimatums?}



Jude: { She looks down takes a deep breath and,,,} Then I think you should go home Will.. I can't pretend that I am into you that way. I rather stop now rather then hurt you more in the long run.



Will: well goodbye jude. And good luck on the rest of your tour.

And after that he stormed off, and went to the hotel that we were staying at. I haven't talked to him since. I knew I did the right thing. So thanks to fate, I'm changing. Omg wait a second diary.

{ Jude looks up and sees the familiar leather jacket with the gelled black hair and the black shades walk towards her. Hear heart starts beating…….She begins to slouch behind her journal attempting to hind but then thinks to her self," you are the New Jude. You can take on the world. You can do this. You were worried about him remember? Just be cool." Then she sits up and watches as he comes over acting as cool and collected as she possibly could, even though she wants to jump, scream, and cry all at the same time. Tommy sits down next to her just as smooth as he always is. Everyone in the waiting area watches from their magazines and books. Tommy leans in towards Jude,"Hello Ms. Harrison"}



Well dairy looks like fates has something else up his sleeve. But something tells me I wont be fight back to much this time.




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