I woke up the next day worse than I was before. I got up and walked down stairs in my pajamas. I walked into the kitchen and my mom was wearing a dress and my dad was wearing a suit.
"Where are you guys going?"
"Church," My mom chirped simply, "You should come with us."
"umm I don't think so."
"Come on Mitchie it will make your day. I promise."
I hesitated a little, "Well I guess."
"Good go get dressed then. We leave in an hour."
I nodded and walked slowly up the stairs. When I entered my room I walked over to the closet. I tore down the new stupid mirror my mom bought me. There was no need to have another one in the room. I looked into the closet and grabbed a dress. I threw it on a put on a little makeup. I didn't feel like going anywhere. I just wish I could have came to my parents and not have gotten raped. I just wanted a peaceful holiday that was just me and my parents. Like the old days. I grabbed my purse and threw my phone in it. Then I walked slowly back down the stairs.
"Are you ready to go?"
"Sure."
We walked into the church once we were there. It was beautifully decorated with Christmas decorations and everything There was a white Christmas tree that stood in the middle of a big room. My mother told me that I would more enjoy the service that was meant for younger teenagers or early college students. I walked into a large room. There was a girl on stage playing the keyboard. There were two guys playing guitar. Three background singers and a lead singer that also played guitar. Since Christmas was just yesterday I'm guessing they were still in the Christmas spirit hence them singing Rockin' Around The Christmas Tree. There were teens running around and screaming and dancing to the music. Everyone looked so happy. They all had huge joyful smiles on their faces. There eyes danced with excitement. There cheeks still pink from the cold. The faces all around me were…content. I walked toward the back of the room that had no chairs in it. On the screen that was above the worship center a sign flashed the countdown. In 90 seconds music started to play. I stayed in the back. I held my purse tight on my side. The worship team started to play the song.
You
hold the future in your hands
You know my dreams and you have a
plan
And as you light my way, I'll follow you
The kids were now singing along and some where dancing some were raising their hands.
My
eyes on all of the above
My soul secure in all you've done
My
minds made up
and you are the only one for me
The kids were now singing whole heartedly. They were really into this. I couldn't help but notice.
Jesus,
savior, in my life you are everything
My future decided, I will
praise your name
and I know that I am, I am yours
yah, I know
that I am, I am yours
I dropped my purse on the ground. I started to clap my hands to the beat a little.
You
hold the earth in your command
You are the rock on which I
stand
And as I live each day, I'll follow you
My eyes on
all of the above
My soul secure in all you've done
My minds
made up
And you are the only one for me
I decided to look up at the screen that held the words to the song. I studied them and their meanings as they came on and off the screen.
Jesus,
savior, in my life you are everything
My future decided, I will
praise your name
And I know that I am, I am yours
Yeah, I know
that I am, I am yours
Aren't afraid, aren't ashamed Lord we
know who we are
We are your people and we won't be silent
Unified
hear us cry at the top of our lungs
You our God and we will not be
shaken
These words seemed to have a lot of but yet if you looked around you could see people who sang the words as if they didn't mean anything. That would be like me telling Shane that I loved him but while saying it looking at Caitlyn and texting her on her cell phone. It wouldn't really mean anything to Shane.
Aren't
afraid, aren't ashamed Lord we know who we are
We are your people
and we won't be silent
Unified hear us cry at the top of our
lungs
You our God and we will not be shaken
Jesus, savior,
in my life you are everything
My future decided, I will praise
your name
And I know that I am, I am yours
Yeah, I know that I
am, I am yours
The song ended. And then another song flowed smoothly into the room.
If
my heart has grown cold,
There Your love will unfold;
As You
open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
When I'm blind to my
way,
There Your Spirit will pray;
As You open my eyes to the
work of Your hand,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
This song seemed to have a great meaning too. I decided to sing along.
Oceans
will part; nations come
At the whisper of Your call.
Hope will
rise; glory shown.
In my life, Your will be done.
I sang softly with the melody.
Present
suffering may pass,
Lord, Your mercy will last;
As You open my
eyes to the work of Your hand.
And my heart will find praise,
I'll
delight in Your way,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your
hand,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
Then we sang the chorus once more.
Oceans
will part; nations come
At the whisper of Your call.
Hope will
rise; glory shown.
In my life, Your will be done.
Then the song closed.
Someone, a girl, ran up onto the stage and grabbed a mike. "Hey everyone how are you doing today?" There were cheers, "Good. Well thanks for coming. If you are new grab the person who brought you and we'd like to invite you to come upstairs to our VIP area. If you aren't new go sit down and say hi to some friends. And yes on the floor."
I sat down on the floor. But someone came up to me and knelt down next to me, "I haven't ever seen you around here before, are you new?"
I nodded.
"Well if you want I'll come up there with you."
"Umm. No thanks."
"You sure? I'm Marissa by the way."
"Yeah I'm sure… I think. I'm Mitchie."
"Hi Mitchie. Why don't we go up there? You get dounuts."
"Sure." I smiled lightly.
She clapped her hands and then grabbed my hand and pulled me up. We went up a staircase. Then we were in a cool room that had couches everywhere. We sat down. The time in the "upper room," was a little long. But it was okay I guess. But when I made my way back down with Marissa. The pastor whose name was Jeremy was explaining a game that we were getting ready to play. Marissa and I walked over to a group of five people. The game was called signs. You picked a action with a set of words to be your sign. Each person got one and then you would say your sign and then someone else's sign. The person who's sign you said would say their sign and then say someone else's. We went around the circle and picked our signs.
"Tsk tsk," Was Marisa's she rubbed her finger quickly over he other one.
"Whatever floats your pancakes," Was someone else's she gave us a big thumbs up.
"Didn't your parents teach you any manners?" Was a girl named Bella's she shook her finger angrily.
"OliverFred." Was a hyper girl's with her flinging her hands in front of her quickly.
"Ho Ho HO." Rubbing her tummy.
"Peace," with the logical peace sign.
Then it was my turn, "I wonder…" I said and tapped my chin thoughtfully.
"Okay Marissa you start."
"Okay. Tsk tsk. I wonder," she did the motions.
"I wonder.. Ho Ho Ho," I said rubbing my belly.
"Ho Ho Ho. Peace."
"Peace. Whatever floats your pancakes."
"Whatever floats your pancakes. Didn't your parents teach you any manners?"
"didn't your parents teach you any manners? Oliverfred."
"Oliverfred. I wonder."
"I wonder… Tsk tsk."
"Tsk Tsk. Ho Ho Ho."
This went on for about 20 minutes. We increased our speed and if anyone messed up they were last. It was down to three of us now. Me Marisa and Bella.
"Tsk tsk. Ho ho ho."
Everyone laughed she had messed up.
"I wonder didn't your parents teach you any manners?"
"didn't your parents teach you any manners? I wonder…"
"I wonder.. Didn't your parents teach you any manners."
"Didn't your parents teach you any manners," She tapped her chin.
We all laughed I'd won she had done the wrong symbol.
"Good job Mitchie."
I smiled that was actually fun.
The service passed quickly and soon I had to leave. I walked into the foyer looking for my parents. My parents came out and smiled at me.
"I see your smiling again."
"Yeah…" I sighed, "I am."
We drove home and when I walked in the living room Shane was sitting there! I ran to him. He stood up and grabbed me and spun me around. I kissed. Oh to have his lips back. He set me down, "You seem a little better today," He laughed. My smile disappeared.
"Come on Mitch what's wrong?"
I turned around and looked at me feet tears were welling up in my eyes, "You said you wouldn't hate me," I mumbled.
"What do you mean?" He was broken again.
"It means I have one of those secrets," I whispered and then ran up to my room.