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I awoke for the third time in the middle of the night, my headache was gone but I still felt stuffed up and my throat still burned. All the memories suddenly came flooding back to me…

Softly he brushed my cheek, then held my face between his marble hands. "Be very still," he whispered, as if I wasn't already frozen. Slowly, never moving his eyes from mine, he leaned toward me. Then abruptly, but very gently, he rested his cold cheek against the hollow at the base of my throat.

We reached Edward then, and he held out his hand for mine. I took it eagerly, forgetting, for a moment, my glum mood. His skin was always smooth, hard, and very cold. He gave my fingers a gentle squeeze. I looked into his topaz eyes, and my heart gave a not-quite-so-gentle squeeze of its own. Hearing the stutter in my heartbeats, he smiled again.

"Do you really have any idea how important to me you are? Any concept at all of how much I love you?" He pulled me tighter against his hard chest, tucking my head under his chin. I pressed my lips against his snow-cold neck. "I know how much I love you" I answered. "You compare one small tree to an entire forest".

I couldn't breath properly, I started hyperventilating.

Edward sitting across from me in the Cafeteria, Edward standing in the sun with me, Edward leaving me in the forest, running through Volterra to stop him from stepping out into the sun and killing himself. All we had been through, did it seem meaningless to him. Why did he even bother coming back if he was just going to leave me a second time, it seemed stupid.

I felt a cold hand on my shoulder.

"Bella, calm down" Jasper shook me but I couldn't calm down, even Jasper here, I still couldn't stop the panic attack that was coming on. Tears started pouring down my cheeks and my heart started racing.

"Bella look at me" I looked into Jasper's topaz eyes, he picked me up in his arms. I began to feel calmer; he wiped away my tears and hugged me tighter. "I've got to go hunt, I was going to sneak out but you woke up. How are you feeling?"

I shrugged then yawned. Jasper put me back in my bed. "I'll be back soon" he said and jumped out of the window. I sank back into unconsciousness.

I ran towards the tall, familiar figure standing a little more than five meters away with their back to me.

"Jasper!" I called when I was two meters away.

He turned to face me; something was different about his face. Instead of the normal warm golden honey color, they were a spine chilling scarlet. There was a look of hunger in his eyes. He smiled but it was more of a smirk, that smirk turned into an evil grin revealing a rather sharp set of fangs. Fear slid down my spine like an ice cube, making me shiver. Jasper shifted into a crouch, I tried to turn and run but I couldn't make my legs work.

"I can easily out run you Bells. He said, pointing out the obvious. "So I wouldn't try it if I were you"

This was it then. The only person who understood what I was going through was going to kill me. A second before he pounced another object hit me from the side, not to kill me, but protect me. I gazed into the face of my protector.

"Edward!?"

"Bella, wake up now" he ordered me

I glanced over his shoulder to see Jasper once again shift into a crouch and prepare to attack. I screamed

"Bella!" Edward was shouting now, even though he was right on top of me, he sounded distant "come on Bells, wake up NOW!"

I woke up to find an empty room. I sat up in my bed and rested my head in my hands.

"Do you realize the danger of an open window when a certain vampire called Edward could come barging in at any moment"

"Jasper! I've missed you"

"as you should, but I was only gone for a few hours" he flicked the lights on. It took a while for my eyes to adjust to the brightness.

When I could see properly, I examined Jasper, there was something different about is eyes.

"Jasper, what have you done?"

"I'm so sorry Bella, I couldn't stop myself."

I tore my eyes away from his face and noticed his clothes. His white shirt was stained red, from his collar; all over his front and down his sleeves.

"Oh my God, Jasper please tell me you didn't," I said thickly through tears.

"Bella" he stepped towards me with his hand outstretched. I moved back into my pillow and curled up into a ball

"Jasper, leave her" Emmett stood between Jasper and me. Ready to fight. When did Emmett get here? I leaned around to look at Jasper who looked torn up. I wanted to reach out to him and comfort him, but Emmett probably wouldn't let me.

"Emmett, I won't hurt her, I wouldn't dream of it."

"You've already kill three humans tonight, I'm not letting you kill another" He hissed

"Three?!" I shrieked.

"Campers, from out of town, I lost control, don't worry no one here knew them" Jasper explained.

"But they had families and people who loved them, and jobs they had friends and you killed them all because you couldn't control yourself." I screamed at him as best I could, I was grateful that I had lost my voice, otherwise I would've woken up Charlie.

"Believe me Bella, I am so sorry"

"Get out!" I said, pointing towards the window."

What the hell was I thinking?
Jasper can't kill someone... No, wait...
He just did.

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