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Chapter 5: "Ana's honest."
"All right! That was great!" he exclaimed "And the next song is gonna be sung by a special guest tonight! Applause for one of the survivors of flight 815: James Ford!"
Ana frowned, confused and then glanced at Sawyer questioningly.
"Who's James Ford?"
He just smiled at her slightly and then stood up.
"Be right back, Lucy." He said, smirking and winking at her. Then he walked away. Her eyes were following his every step and she almost choked on her drink, when he came up on the scene, welcomed with applause from the people surrounding her.
The dark-haired man shook his hand and then gave him his microphone. Sawyer took it with a sure movement and then turned around to face the audience.
"Good evening', everybody!" he called out loud. Ana opened her mouth in surprise. "My name's James and I'm here to sing a very beautiful song to a very beautiful woman, that it's dedicated to." he looked her straight in the brown eyes "Ana… this is for you."
She didn't know, how to react. Everybody glanced at her and she blushed.
Wait.
What was wrong with her? Everybody knows Ana Lucia doesn't blush.
The song started playing and Ana had to stop herself from shivering. Sawyer smiled once again at her and then the party started.
"This time… this place… misused… mistakes." He sang and his voice echoed around the hall. She had no idea, that he was such a great singer. "Too long… too late… Who was I to make you wait?..." His voice was too beautiful to describe it just with words.
Ana was so shocked, that she almost haven't noticed, that her mouth was still opened and that everybody was staring at her with crazy smirks on their faces.
But she didn't care about what they thought.
How did he know? How did he know it was her favourite--
Flashback
"All right! Favourite movie!?"
"Uh…. Jurassic Park."
"What?!" Ana laughed and he shrugged.
"What? It's a good movie!"
"No, no… it's not about that…" she explained herself, still fighting to catch her breath "I would have never thought, that it could be your favourite movie!"
"Why not?" he asked her, feigning irritation. She just smirked and pinched his nose gently.
"Lighten up, Jurassic-boy, I was just kiddin'!"
He glared at her, pretending to be angry.
"Aw, now don't be mad at me!"
He just looked away, crossing his arms over his chest, making her laugh even harder. Ana took a deep breath and then sat up on the bunk-bad and moved closer to him, grabbing his offended face in her face and pulling him in a kiss. When they finally pulled apart, he grinned.
"Not mad." He responded on her not mentioned 'sorry'. She rolled her eyes and pulled back.
"Your turn." He told her, smirking.
"Well… I'm in love with Matrix."
Sawyer looked at her, trying not to chuckle. But finally he couldn't hold it anymore and burst out laughing. Now it was her turn to glare and pretend to be mad.
"It's not that funny, y'know…" she murmured huskily and he cleared his throat, attempting to stop laughing his ass off.
"Well, lighten up, matrix-girl! Was just kiddin'!"
Ana rolled her eyes, shaking her head in amusement.
"Okay. Favourite song?"
"I don't listen to music much…"
"Well, now I do not too!" she said sarcastically, making him roll his eyes "C'mon, man! You've got to have one!"
"Uh… maybe…" he drawled and she pinched his nose again "Hey now… Be a good girl, Princess…"
"Screw you, Cowboy." She said with a mischievous smirk.
"Be my guest!" he exclaimed and she opened her mouth wordlessly, then punched his arm playfully.
"You gonna tell me finally or what?"
"Oh, okaaay… 'Somewhere I belong' by Linkin' Park… Dunno why, tho." He responded and after a while raised his eyebrows at her "C'mon, ya can laugh now."
Ana snorted and rolled her eyes.
"I like that song, actually." She admitted and he smiled.
"Guess we have somethin' in common after all."
She couldn't help, but smile back… just a little. They both believed, that they were so different. Completely unlike…
"So your turn. What's your favourite song?"
"'Far away' by Nickelback. I've been through some kind of obsession with it. Dunno why, tho…"
"Yeah, I love it too."
"Do you?" she asked surprised. It was some kind of miracle for them to like the same.
"Yeah, I do." He said with a laugh "Won't ask me any question?"
She cocked her head to a side and furrowed her eyebrows, thinking intensively. Then she laid back down, smirking up at him.
"Favourite sexual position?"
He frowned at this and she laughed. He shook his head, quickly recovering from the little shock and then threw himself on her, carefully not to hurt her, since she was still very week after the accident. Ana laughed even harder, when he said in a husky voice:
"You tell me."
The End of flashback
--song…
"Just one chance…Just one breath… " Sawyer continued to sing "Just in case there's just one left, coz you know, you know, you know…"
And suddenly she stopped paying attention on the other people in the club. She couldn't see anything, but the blonde Southerner, standing there… up the scene… singing for her.
It was like a dream, impossible to come true…
"That I love you… I have loved you all along!" he sang, staring at her for entire time. His words echoed in her head and she just knew, that she had never been happier in her life. "I miss you… Been far away, for far too long…"
She was lost. His voice was milking into her and suddenly everything around seemed thousands times more beautiful.
"I keep dreaming you'll be with me …And you'll never go… Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore…"
Flashback
She turned her head to a side, watching a blue, clear sky through the window. She still couldn't believe it was happening. It was so unreal…
Ana closed her eyes briefly, sighing and rubbed her stomach gently.
"You all right?"
She looked at him and smiled softly, nodding.
"Yeah, I'm fine."
"You feel okay? Everythin' all right with the baby?"
"Yeah, yeah… it's great."
"Good…" he breathed in relief, smiling back at her. "It's not believable, huh?"
"No.. it's not…"
"You seem to be down, coz of it. What's wrong? You're not happy you're comin' home?"
Ana ran a hand through her curly, dark hair and then looked away, feeling sick.
"You seen Sawyer?"
Jack let out a heavy breath and sent her a sympathetic look.
"Yeah… he's in the tail section… Talked to him for a minute…"
"Really… ? What'd he say?"
The doctor glanced at her sadly, before turning his gaze at sleeping Kate on his right. And then he looked back at the Latina.
"Look…" Jack whispered and she swallowed hard and gazed back at the window. "Talk to him… Maybe… maybe he just has to see you want him to be here for you and for your baby…"
She let out a single sarcastic laugh, but then her expression changed and her eyes softened, as any signs of smile disappeared from her face.
"Yeah…" she sighed sadly "Maybe…"
The End of flashback
She's never met a guy like Sawyer before.
She knew men would buy flowers or something else to make a girl forgive, but this… She didn't know, how to react on something like that. It was too beautiful to be true… Way too beautiful…That kind of things happen just in movies.
The song continued to play and in the meanwhile Sawyer came down from the scene and attempted to walk over to their table. When he finally made his way to her, he knelt down in front of her, looking her in the eyes and started to sing again.
"On my knees… I'll ask… last chance for one last dance… Coz with you… I'd withstand… all of hell to hold your hand…" And with that he grasped her hand in his gently and just then the whole world stopped existing for her.
It was only him.
And it was only her…
Nothing else mattered…
Flashback
"Hey, Ana…"
"Hmm?" she murmured, turning a page in her book.
"I… I have somethin' to tell you…
"What's that?"
Jack shifted uncomfortably in his seat and she looked up and narrowed her eyes at him.
"What's up?"
"Well, uh… I haven't just… talked with Sawyer…He kinda… asked me a favour…"
"Really?" she drawled lazily, not interested at all and turning back to reading.
"Yeah… He… he asked me to tell you… tell you, that he--"
"Ladies and Gentlemen…This is the captain speaking. We are approaching the airport. Everybody needs to fasten the belts… We're about to land. "
Ana and Jack did, as they were told to and then she glanced at him with raised eyebrows.
"So what was the favour?"
"Uh…" he breathed unsurely "Nothin'…"
She shrugged and looked away. Jack cursed under his breath.
He failed… Some friend he is…
The End of flashback
"I'd
give it all… I'd give for us…Give anything, but I won't give
up… coz you know,
you know, you know…! "
She would give everything up to have him back. She wanted to wake up in the morning beside him, joke and laugh about the random things, read books to their little boy and watch him grow up together…
"That I love you… I have loved you all along! "
And just then a single tear rolled down her cheek and she had never felt so good with crying before. It was the first time in her life, when she cried, because she was happy…
"And I miss you…" he sang and raised his hand, cupping her cheek with it and wiping the tear away "Been far away for far too long! "
What do you call it… when you feel that wild butterflies in your stomach?
"I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go… Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore…! "
Flashback
"Hey, doc!"
Jack turned around to face the Southerner, who looked, as if somebody stole everything away from him.
"Will you do me a favour?"
The doctor glared at him, angry for what he's done to his friend. Because Ana Lucia was his friend, no matter what Sawyer or Kate thought about it.
"What do you want?" he questioned, his voice cold and husky. Sawyer looked away and hesitated… before--
"Tell her I love her."
And without any farewell he walked away, leaving shocked and stunned Jack behind.
The End of flashback
"So far away…Been far away for far too long… So far away… Been far away for far too long. But you know… you know… you know...! "
Ana didn't want this song to end. She could stay in this world, where everything around is beautiful and the tears she cries are the tears of happiness.
"I wanted… I wanted you to stay… Coz I needed… I need to hear you say:… " Sawyer sang and didn't manage to take another breath, when Ana took the microphone from him and did something, what shocked him to the core.
"I love you… I have loved you all along! " She sang, smiling down at him, her eyes glistening and he stared up at her with surprise "And I forgive you… for being away for far too long! " And then she squeezed his hand harder and stood up, making him do the same, so that now they were both standing, facing each other and completely forgetting about the people around. "So keep breathing, coz I'm not leaving you anymore! " He smiled a little, still in shock, loving the sound of her beautiful voice. He had no idea she was such a great singer. "Believe it…Hold on to me and never let me go!... Keep breathin'…coz I'm not leaving you anymore! Believe it… hold on to me, never let me go…!"
The song ended, but they haven't noticed. They were too wrapped up in gazing in each other's eyes. People were looking at them, as if waiting for something to happen.
After about a minute of silence everybody started clasping their hands and Sawyer and Ana broke their eye contact. They both had surprised expressions on their faces and seemed to forget about the crowd around them. Sawyer was the first one to react.
"Thank you." He murmured to the microphone and then put it down on their table. After another five seconds another song started playing and people stopped paying attention on them. Sawyer looked at Ana and smiled a little, offering her his hand.
"May I have this dance, Chica?"
She was still shocked, because of what has just happened, but in spite of her surprise she just nodded and he led her away from their table. They stopped in a crowd of dancing people and he stared down at her unsurely, as if he was afraid to make any simple move. She smiled at this and wrapped her arms around his neck, while his wandered down to her waist.
"I'm not a perfect person… There's many things I wish I didn't do…."
Ana was kind of afraid to look up at him, though she didn't know why… Maybe because she was scared, that it's just a dream… that when she looks up, he'll vanish and she will be in her bed all alone, waiting for Zack to jump onto her, yelling, that he wants breakfast.
"What are you thinkin' about?" he asked her softly and she finally got up the guts to look at him.
"But I continue learning…"
"I just can't believe it's true…" Ana answered, gazing deep into his bright eyes.
"I never meant to do those things to you…"
"Tell me about it." He replied with a laugh and she smiled.
"And so I have to say, before I go…"
"You didn't have to pretend such a tough guy, while inside you're a very sensitive man…"
"… that I just want you to know…!"
"Hey, I ain't sensitive!" he protested for the second time that evening.
"I've found a reason for me…!"
"Yes, you are." She insisted with a mischievous smirk on her happy face… Happy… Ana Lucia was happy…
"… to change, who I used to be!"
"Say, what you want, Lucy…" Sawyer drawled, grinning down at her.
" A reason to start over new…!"
"So you're gonna tell me?" she asked, suddenly sounding more seriously and his smile faded.
"Tell you what?"
"And the reason is you!"
"Why did he call you James Ford?"
Sawyer looked away, swallowing hard. He should have guessed, what that was about.
"Uh… coz it's my real name…"
"What?"
"Sawyer was the man, who killed my parents and he--"
"Hey…" Ana interrupted him softly, stroking his hair "You don't have to explain anythin' to me now… I'm gonna hear you out, when you're ready, okay?"
"I'm sorry, that I hurt you…"
He gazed down at her and she smiled gently and buried her head in the crook of his neck.
"… it's something I must live with everyday…"
Sawyer was amazed. She was still the same Ana, who he had fallen in love with, but something different was in her… Maybe being a mother changed her a little bit.
"And all the pain I put you through… I wish, that I could take it all away…"
He put his hand on the back of her head and sighed heavily, closing his eyes. It was amazing, how much the words of the song matched his feelings.
"… and be the one, who catches all you tears…"
Flashback
He was watching her, standing several meters away from the crowd of hugging and laughing people. She was alone, looking around her, probably searching for someone from her family. They were rescued. Just as they were about to loose their faith completely.
He wanted to approach her… to say goodbye and see her smile for the last time…
But he never gets, what he wants.
With a last, sad glance at Ana Lucia, Sawyer walked away.
The End of flashback
"That's why I need you to hear… I've found a reason for me…!"
Have you ever had that weird feeling, when something in your life had totally changed for good? That butterflies in your stomach, that make you feel so happy you could go out on the street and scream out the whole happiness you have inside? That's about, how Sawyer felt.
"…to change, who I used to be…!"
Ana really was the reason, why he started to feel different about everything, that's around him. Few years ago a thought about singing a song in a club for a girl would have been silly for him.
"A reason to start over new!"
And now he actually felt proud, because of what he did. He felt happy about it and he wouldn't be ashamed to tell that everybody around.
Sawyer smiled softly to himself against her hair and then looked down at her.
"What would you do if I kissed you?" he asked, making her gaze up at him in surprise.
"Probably kick you in the groin of yours." Ana replied with amusement in her voice. He smirked wider and stroked her dark curls with his hand.
"I think I'll risk it." He drawled in a husky voice and she cocked her head to a side slightly and a soft smile appeared on her face after a moment.
Sawyer couldn't wait longer… Three years was enough for him.
So without another word, he bent down and caught her in a gentle and soft kiss.
A kiss, that showed her just how much he cares about her…. Just how much he's in love with her.
"…and the reason is you…"
Later
"I must say, that this date was the best date I've ever been on."
Sawyer laughed briefly, glancing at her with a grin.
"I'm glad to hear that, Chica. Didn't want to disappoint you again."
Ana smiled lightly and they stopped in front of her door, as she reached to her pocket for keys. She could feel his eyes on her, so she looked up and raised her eyebrows.
"What?"
"I, uh… just got a little question."
"Yeah, what's that?"
He looked kind of nervous again and Ana couldn't help, but chuckle at that. She could get used to the new, shy and nervous Sawyer.
"Feel free, Cowboy." she tried to encourage him.
"I just… I just wanna know if what you… said today… I mean sang in the song…." He mumbled, avoiding her gaze "Uh… did… did you mean it?"
Ana was taken aback. She knew what he was talking about.
"I love you… I have loved you all along… and I forgive you for being away for far too long…"
The lyrics echoed in her head, as she gaped at him with narrowed eyes.
"You want me to be honest?"
"Yeah…" he nodded after a while and she smiled softly.
"I meant every single word, Sawyer."
He gazed at her in surprise and then slowly his lips curled upwards, as he sent her a beautiful smile. They were staring at each other, grinning like idiots for a while and then Ana shook her head and moved to open her door.
"I've got to go now…. Gonna have to call Claire… I don't know, what's goin' on with Zack…"
"Yeah… you do that." He stated, smirking and she rolled her eyes. She could see right through him. His eyes were saying: 'Finally I got, what I want!'.
"So… we'll keep in touch, right?" Ana questioned him with a hint of doubt in her voice.
"Of course, Lucy." He announced firmly, putting on his serious face.
"Okay…" the Latina breathed and smiled happily "So…Good night, Sawyer."
"Good night, Ana." He replied quietly, but didn't walk away. After several seconds, he moved forward unsurely and kissed her cheek lightly. She frowned and then grabbed the back of his neck, before he could move away too far. Their lips met to experience something way more passionate. Finally they broke apart, breathing heavily and Ana pulled him into a hug.
"I'll call you soon, okay?" Sawyer said, wrapping his arms around her back. She nodded against his chest and he kissed her forehead and pulled away.
"See you soon, Hotlips."
A/N: Ignore the fact, that 'Far away' was from the 'All the right reasons' album, which was recorded in 2005. Needed to use this song, I just had to!
Lyrics are from:
'Far away' by Nickelback
'Reason' by Hoobastank
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