Like an Animal
Chapter 2
I do not own Teen Titans
An hour later, BeastBoy awakened from his dreamless sleep. Not knowing where he was, he looked around.
"Raven's room?" he muttered to himself as he sat up.
He felt the sheets move from underneath him, and realized not only was he in Raven's room, but he was in Raven's bed… naked. He gasped and took a portion of the sheets to cover himself, and that's when he noticed Raven, looking at him intently, like she was trying to travel into his very soul, which sent a shiver down his spine.
"Raven, what the hell happened here?" he said, his voice high-pitched.
Her expression changed.
"BeastBoy, is that really you?"
"Yes it's me. Why? What happened?"
Her eyes widened slightly.
"You don't remember… do you? Not one thing…"
"Remember what! What did I do!"
She cast her eyes down, and looked like she was going to bust out crying. She sniffed, trying to stay strong and keep the tears in.
"Y-you… you raped me…"
BeastBoy's eyes bugged out of his head. His eyes started brimming with tears.
"Y-you're lying…" he said weakly.
"BeastBoy," her voice cracked." You raped me."
It was then he noticed the blood… and dried semen all over the bed.
BeastBoy body started shaking all over as the tears poured out of his eyes.
"N-no. The Beast… I didn't mean… I-I…"
His breathing increased in speed as he started to freak out. He started whimpering with panic as he covered his face with his hands, tears running down his arms, dripping off his elbows and onto the bed.
Raven almost felt sorry for him. Scratch that. She did feel sorry for him. His body was possessed by an uncontrollable force, and had no way of knowing exactly when it would take over. Almost like her Rage.
"R-raven I'm so sorry. I should've been more careful. I should've been able to fight him. But now… you're hurt… and I took your innocence…" he sobbed, clutching his knees to his chest. "I'm so ashamed of myself… please, please forgive me."
He jumped out of the bed and grabbed his clothes and quickly put them on. He turned back to Raven, his eyes red and puffy, her eyes filled with sorrow with lost luster.
He opened his mouth as if to say something, but quickly turned and ran out the door, leaving Raven in the alone in her dark room which smelled of sex and sweat.
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Raven cleaned up her room after a time, making sure no one saw her take the sheets to the laundry. Her crotch hurt terribly, but she tried to ignore the pain as she took a nice, hot shower. She thought it would help calm her down, but it did no such thing. It just gave her more time to think about what happened.
She closed her eyes, trying to focus on something else, but to no prevail. She sighed, got out the shower and wrapped a towel around herself. Staring at herself in the mirror, she kept repeating in her head, "It was all just an accident. He couldn't control himself, he didn't mean it."
But if he didn't mean to then why did he lose control like that?
"Because deep down, he really did want to do that to you, no matter what you said or did. He really is an animal. You wanted to fuck you so hard that you wouldn't be able to stand straight anymore. Face it. You're just a toy to him. A big, dumb, sex toy."
"Shut up! That's not true!" she yelled t the voice in her head, her eyes glowing white.
The voice chuckled.
"I'm just telling you the truth. The truth hurts hun. You were never a good friend to him, and you always denied him when he asked you out. What else were you good for?"
"Stop it… I only denied him because I didn't want to ruin our friendship…"
"Now you're just lying to yourself. What kind of friend tosses another friend out the window? Or throws them against the wall? You were no friend of his. He just wanted you because of your body. And he got it too. Pity, I thought you were stronger than that. But you're just a spineless weakling. You. Are. Nobody."
Raven was clutching her head, trying to get the voice to stop. The bathroom mirror had cracked all the way down, and now tiny pieces were breaking off.
"Who are you?"
"I'm not an emotion."
"You didn't answer my question."
It chuckled again.
"I'm the voice in the back of your head that tells you what you're afraid to hear. I'm the thing that shows you all your fears. I'm the thing that creates your fears-"
"Who the fuck are you!"
The window shattered, sending glass everywhere. Raven covered her face with her arms; she looked up at the damage.
Then the voice whispered…
"I am your sub-conscious…"
And then it was gone.
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BeastBoy was huddled in his room floor in the corner. His skin was a pale green and he as sweating terribly.
'What am I gonna do? Robin's gonna kill me for sure. Cyborg won't look at me again. Starfire's gonna help Robin, and Raven… oh poor Raven. I practically tore her soul apart. I did tear her soul apart… and now she'll never forgive me. I wouldn't forgive me.'
He covered his head in his hands.
"How could I be so stupid!"
He stood up and repeatedly punched the metal wall, until his hands started bleeding and smearing and against it. He leaned on the wall and slowly crumpled to the ground, crying.
"I could've controlled it. So why didn't I!" he screamed.
There was a knocking on his door.
"Hey BeastBoy, are you alright? I heard something hit hard." Robin asked through the door.
He sniffed.
"Yea, I just fell off my bed is all," he replied.
"Alright, be more careful next time. Have you seen Raven recently?"
BeastBoy's heart throbbed.
"Uh… y-yea, I think she's in her… her room."
"Okay thanks."
"No problem," he said quietly.
He heard Robin's footsteps go down the hall.
"You know she's going to tell him."
"Who's there?" he said, looking around the room frantically.
"I'm here."
"And who are you?"
"That's not important right now, quit changing the subject. So what are you going to do about it?"
"About what?"
"You idiot, about what Raven's going to say to Robin. How are you going to make her keep her yap shut?"
"I'm not going to make her do anything."
"Why not?"
"Because I deserve it."
"No one deserves what your going to get. A sentence in jail. About 20 years or more, if Robin doesn't kill you first. And if you do go to jail and do your time, where are you going to go after that? You will have no where else. No person in their right mind would take in… a rapist."
BeastBoy's eyes widened at the word. No matter how much he denied it, it was true. He was a rapist. He raped his best friend.
"What do you think I should do?"
"Silence her, and make it seem like an accident. That way no one can blame you, and she'll be gone for good. Never to speak again…"
BeastBoy gasped.
"You want me to murder her!"
"Murder is such a primitive word. I refer to it as 'getting rid of the unnecessary', understand?"
"No I don't understand! Get out of my head! Who are you!"
"You are incredibly daft aren't you? What's the worst that could happen if Raven dies?"
"Now you're changing the subject! Who are you! Who the fuck are you!"
"I am the truth behind truths, the philosophy of all scholars, the root of everything absolute and haunting."
"What?"
"I'm your sub-conscious."
Next chapter will come up soon I hope. Thanks for the reviews. I actually posted the first chapter because I was bored and I think I did it rather sloppily, so I'll take my time with the later chapters for your pleasure