Chapter 3 The guilt sets in

John's POV

Jamie slid her arms around my waist as I brushed my teeth, I was trying in vain to get the taste of Randy out of there.

"Good morning sunshine" Jamie purred kissing my arm. "Are you ok?"

"Yeah I'm fine" I spat out the paste into the sink "Just a tad hung over"

"Aww poor Johnny-boy" Jamie smiled at me "This would be the wrong time to tell you that my sister is coming over today"

"Which sister?"

"Izzy"

I tried to keep my groan in, I liked Iziah perfectly fine but for some reason she hated me with a vengence. All this time she held the same opinion, I wasn't good enough for Jamie. I was beyond scum in her opinion.

"Does she really have to come over?"

Jamie sighed fiddling with her locks "Yes she wants to see our baby"

"She's already seen the baby" I muttered darkly. I was in no mood for Iziah and her bullshit.

"Why are you so mad? You can sleep and me and Izzy will be downstairs"

I kissed her cheek "Ok. I'm gonna crawl into bed"

"John are you sure your ok? You look upset and really disturbed"

"I'm fine! God Jamie can't a man be tired!"

Jamie slipped away from me sadly, I had never yelled at her. I had always kept my temper because I knew it scared her. "I'm sorry John I was just worried. Me will go now"

She took from the room really fast as though I had just hit her. She didn't bounce or skip like she usually did, just ordinary walking, watching her I realised how much I hated it when she walked normally, it meant she wasn't herself. Sighing sadly I finished in the bathroom and headed back to bed, in hopes that when I woke up all the confusion about Randy would be gone and Jamie would be back to normal. I went to our room and slipped into bed. I just wanted it all to stop.

When I got up again it was just setting into night time and luck being against me, Iziah was still here. Talking about me to her little sister. I stood behind the closed door and listened to what she had to say about me this time. It wouldn't be flattering, I knew that much.

"Jamie if he yells at you, you can gaurentee that hitting you will be next"

"John wouldn't do that Izzy, he loves me"

"Loves you so much he yells at you randomly"

I could just see her rolling her eyes, Randy had a point. How the hell could she be Raven's twin. Rae was so sweet and gentle and selfless, Iziah was a bitch. Plain and fucking simple. Before she could go on and fill Jam's head with crap I barged in.

"Hi Izzy"

"You" She said darkly before turning to Jamie "Are you feeling better now?"

She didn't say anything, she was too afraid to say a word incase I yelled again.

"Jamie why don't you put baby down to sleep while I have a chat to your husband"

Jamie took our son and headed up stairs, I was so not looking forward to this little chat.

She gave me the coldest look I had ever seen, a look that I guessed was reserved only for me. "So why did you yell at her?"

I just shrugged which pissed her off even more.

"Yell at her again I'll break your freakin' legs"

"Hey you cannot come into my house and threaten me"

"Looks to me I just did"

"Get out" I growled, usually I was patient with her seeing as how she was Jamie's sister, her only reminder of her favourite sister but with the guilt sinking in about Randy I had no patience for her.

She cocked her head to the side in deep thought "Wow"

"What?"

"Whatever you did you really are feeling the guilt"

"I didn't do anything!"

She cackled lightly "And now your getting defensive" She cackled again "I would hate to be you when Jamie finds out but I would love to be the one to tell her"

"Just leave Iziah" I closed my eyes in a vain attempt to stop her talking. Sadly Iziah talking was something that just wouldn't stop. Ever.

She put her hands up in defence "Ok Cena I'm going but you should know if you don't tell Jamie what you did the guilt is gonna eat you alive however I for one suggest you don't tell her because with any luck the guilt will make you kill yourself" She flashed me a grin before grabbing her coat. "Jamie! I'll see you laters!"

"Bye bye!"

After Iziah had finally gone Jamie came downstairs and settled on the couch, she was still being quiet and that alone broke my heart even further. Sighing I sat down and pulled her into my lap. She cuddled up to my chest whispering soflty.

"I am so sorry I made you angry"

I kissed her head "You didn't I was just being a mean grumpy man"

She pursed her lips together, still believing that I was mad. I tilted her face to look at me "I am so sorry Jam, I didn't mean to yell at you this morning"

She pushed her body further into mine "I love you Cena, your lucky your pretty"

I just held her knowing that I loved her more than anything. I pulled her up and headed to the bathroom, Jamie giggled like mad. "Why are we going to the shower?"

"I ain't had a shower yet so I thought we could have one together"

"I always love your ideas John" Jamie giggled as I headed up the stairs.

I really did love her but I couldn't help but think did I love Randy as well?