Chapter 13 I still have you
John's POV
It had only been three days without her but to me it might as well as been forever. I missed her so much I thought that maybe dying was the only answer. I hadn't had contact with Randy yet, he was staying right away from me. I had lost both of them and my son. Angrily I picked up a cup and hurled it across the room, the worst part in my mind was right now that bitch Iziah was filling Jamie's head with all sorts of crap which meant she would never listen to me again. I would never be with her again. Looking at the shards of porcilin I decided that perhaps today was the day Jamie talked to me. I had tried to call her but each time Iziah answered and told me that Jamie refused to talk to me, she was polite but I swear I could hear her happy smile.
"Hi Cena" Iziah said pleasantly "You know the drill"
"Please Iziah let me talk to her"
"I'd love for you to talk to her but she refuses to come to the phone unless it's Raven and as good as that girl is I'm pretty sure even she can't talk on the phone while being dead"
I sighed as I tried not to cry, that would just make Iziah happier, I'm sure of it. "Can you at least tell her I miss her and that I love her"
"Yeah I can tell her but I can tell you now she won't believe me"
"Well I would tell her myself but I can't" I snapped, boy was that the wrong thing because Iziah turned venomous.
"And who's fault is that marriage wrecker?" She snapped before hanging up on me. I threw the phone down and flopped on the couch. As soon as my ass hit the softness the phone rung. I practically jumped on it hopefully. "Jamie?"
"Sorry only me" Randy said just sad and guilty. "Do you want some company?"
"Yes please" I said sadly.
"I'll be there soon"
When Randy finally came he instantly pulled me into a hug, I guess my face gave it away. I was heart broken, I was well beyond heart broken. I never knew how much I loved Jamie until she decided to walk out of my life.
"Its ok John, I'm here" Randy whispered soothingly in my ear, his body wrapped around me like a blanket.
"She left me Rand, she just skipped right outta my life" I could barely hold the tears in. Feeling his large hand carressing my neck I finally lost it and broke down in his arms. "I'll never have her again Rand, I fucked it up"
"You don't know that John"
I looked at him ready to yell, he wasn't there, he didn't see how hurt she was, but all I saw in those eyes was love and guilt. I hadn't ruined my marriage single handedly, he had helped and he felt just as bad as I did.
"Please don't leave me Rand, I don't think I could handle losing both of you"
"I'm here and in the end Jamie will be here too. One way or another"