I don't own Gilmore Girls. Sorry it took me so long. I've had so much going on and I've had a huge case of writers block. Hope you like this.
Notes:
Rory never dropped out of Yale.
By the way: Rory doesn't drink like she sometimes does in the show. She is still her innocent self.
This episode follows the newest episode that aired on Tuesday January 30th.
Colin and Stephanie are seriously dating
Logan isn't in the states. He's still in London.
Heart attack
Chapter Four
"The Talk"
Rory watches Finn leave and then slumps against the wall. She stands there for a second and closes her eyes.
Stephanie comes up to her, "You and Finn need to work this out. He likes you but you're also Logan's girl." Stephanie tries to tell her everything as gently as possible.
Rory looks up, "I belong to no one other then myself."
"And me." Lorelai tries to lighten the mood as she walks up to them.
Rory folds her arms across her chest and closes her eyes before turning back to her mom, "What happened?"
"Well honey, you kind of told Logan that you loved Finn." Lorelai shuffles her feet slightly and is looking everywhere but at her daughter. She knows that part of this is Rory's fault but she also knows that Rory acts differently around Finn then she does other guys; including Logan.
When Rory's around Finn she's more loose and willing to flirt. Most people think it is because Finn starts flirting first and because it has always been a joke between them but Lorelai knows it's not. Rory doesn't flirt with people unless there is a reason for it either in her head or heart. The problem was deciphering whether or not Rory was flirting with Finn due to her heart or her head. The only person, who knows for sure, is Rory.
"When did I do that?" Rory's utterly confused.
"When you were sleeping." Stephanie is also looking uncomfortable with this conversation.
Rory groans, "I was asleep, how can he blame that on me?"
"Well sweets you can't really blame that on him. You and Finn have always had a bond and Logan was just jealous." Lorelai explains like she's talking to a four year old.
Rory looks down the now empty hallway. "I should go talk to them."
Both Lorelai and Stephanie nod their heads in agreement.
"Take coffee with you." Lorelai commands gently. They walk back over to the sitting area and Lorelai hands Rory a Luke's coffee cup.
Rory takes a sip and is instantly in heaven. "I have missed this coffee." She says in a whisper.
Lorelai smiles slightly and they all look at Luke who is staring down at his shoes.
"Thanks Luke." Rory smiles at him before turning to leave the group. She checks the nurses lounge, the main lobby, and then finds herself in the cafeteria. Finn is sitting at one of the tables with his head lying on the table. His hands are in his lap and he seems to either be sleeping or in a great depression.
Rory frowns slightly when she sees Logan and Colin sitting on the other end of the room. Logan is looking equally as depressed as Finn. He's slouching in his chair and is holding his head up with his hand.
Rory hesitates before walking over to Logan first.
"Colin can Logan and I have a minute?" Rory is staring down at her shoes.
Colin glances at Logan and then grins at Rory, "Sure. I'll just go complain about this," He looks down at the food that was in front of him, "Whatever this is." He makes a disgusted face and takes his plate over towards Finn.
"May I sit?" Rory asks.
Logan doesn't answer he just gestures to the seat with his hand.
Rory sits across from him and starts playing with the end of her shirt in her lap. "I'm sorry about what I said Logan. However you should take into consideration that I was sleeping and that Finn had been the last person I had seen when I went to sleep."
Logan scoffs, "So because he was the last person you say you felt obligated to tell him that you love him?"
"Logan don't turn this into a big thing. I didn't mean what I said and I didn't mean to hurt you." Her voice is small and shaken. "This is a very hard thing for me. I hate hospitals, and right now I don't know whether or not my grandfather is going to live. He could be dead in the next twenty four hours and I can't do anything. I'm helpless." She was on the verge of tears. "Finn, Colin, and Stephanie came because I called Colin. I didn't ask them to come; they just did, because they are my friends."
Rory tries to blink back the tears that have clouded her eyes but finds that they are falling down her face. She feels like finding a dark corner, curling up into a ball, and rocking back and forth. She needs her mom to be with her. She needs someone or anything to make her fears stop going through her mind.
Logan doesn't say anything for a while. He is focusing on his hands and hasn't really realized that Rory is crying.
He finally looks up and his heart breaks when he sees the shattered girl in front of him. "Ace," He leans forward and takes her hands out of her lap and holds them in his. "Are you happy?"
"How can you ask me that, Logan?" She chokes on her tears, "Weren't you listening?"
Logan nods his head, "I was. And I didn't mean a general happiness. I meant, are you happy with us? Our relationship?"
Rory stares at him for a second. Logan had never been the one to start a conversation about their relationship, and he talking now shocked her. "I, um, err, yes." She finally stammers out. "I mean it's hard, the long distance, but I love you."
Logan takes a deep breath. He's now playing with her fingers and is paying close attention to her hands. "I hate being so far away from you." He pauses slightly as he runs his thumb across the outline of her palm, "It doesn't seem fair."
"Yeah, well, we have this summer to look forward to. You're finally coming back from London and we can go on our Asia trip." Rory's eyes light up.
Logan doesn't say anything for a few seconds. "Rory, I'm not coming home this summer."
Rory frowns slightly, confused, and stares down at their hands. "What do you mean?"
"My dad," he spits out bitterly, "is having me stay in London because he wants me to take over our newspaper over there." He pauses, still not looking up at her, "So I'll be staying in London."
"Like, forever?" Rory has no idea what to say. A wave of sadness courses through her and she feels like she's breaking apart.
Logan doesn't say anything at first but then he says, "I don't know."
They stay silent for a few minutes before Rory starts to pull her hand out of Logan's. Her eyes have welled up with tears and she can feel her instincts telling her to run. However Logan won't let go of her hand.
"I need you to listen carefully to me." His voice is dull and low, like he's trying not to spook her, like he's talking to a scared child. Rory leaves her hand in his and uses her other hand to wipe the tears that had fallen. "I love you, but I don't want you to wait for me."
Rory almost falls from her chair but she manages to stay seated. "Is there someone else?" She manages to choke out.
"No!" Logan finally looks up at her and he meets her gaze. "No, I just, don't want you to miss out on someone just because I'm not here."
Rory's speechless.
"I love you. And I'll call you when I get back to London." He releases her hand and stands up. He gently kisses her cheek, "You'll always be my Ace." He whispers as if he doesn't want anyone else, not even her, to hear him.
Then he walks away, feeling like his heart had been ripped out of him.
Rory stays frozen in her seat. She doesn't notice anyone around her or even realize that she's still in the hospital. She's only staring down at her hand that now feels unbelievably cold.