Punching Bag: Part Four

Cracked His Chest Open to Reveal His Heart

It's not cheating if you're just getting to know someone. So what if I'm attractive to him? So what if I sneak out to see him and am more excited about that than coming home to Jacob? It's not cheating until you cross the platonic line and kiss…

Which happened eventually. I was able to keep my relationship with the doctor platonic and a secret for four months. Four months of denying myself an unconditional, real, fear-free relationship. Then it happened. One day I got fed up.

Jacob and I got into an argument, he hit me and that's when I snapped and hit him back. It was stupid, I know. I had to come up with a healing potion to make the bones in my hand heal faster, but it felt good to at least try to hurt him the way he hurt me. It was my first act of rebellion.

And my second was when I kissed Christianfor the first time. This went on for another two months until I couldn't hold myself back anymore. I told him that I loved him and wanted to be with him forever and I meant it. We consummated the relationship and a month later I was pregnant, again. The twins were now two, close to three years old and I was scared out of my mind. I couldn't hide it from Jacob, so I told him that I was pregnant. It made him happy to hear the news until he realized that it wasn't his child.

I can still remember what he said to me … "I should cut that little bastard out of your stomach, you stupid slut …. I would think that you would learn, but there you go whoring around again."

"Jacob, don't be stupid."

"Stupid?" He rushed up to me and pushed his finger into my forehead, catching me off guard and I shut my eyes in fear. "Ha. Not even worth it." Jacob spat out angrily.

"So what are you going to do?"

"Kill him."

"You can't." I cried, tears streaming down my face.

"I wasn't going to, but since you like him so much …. I won't share you Bonnie with anyone. And you belong to me, remember?"

Jacob started his plan a week later. A week later and I was there digging a ditch for Christian, watching his body still breathe shallowly. He was still alive, but I was too afraid to say it out loud. Jacob might've exploded and ripped his head off or something.

It was lucky that Jacob had just pierced his abdomen with a knife. Embry didn't have a chance … it's funny that I remember him now. The spell must be wearing off.

"Are you coming?" Jacob wondered when everything was done.

"No."

"No?"

"No. Give me a moment." I begged in between tears. I sat crouched down, waiting until he was gone before I called on the powers of my ancestors to unearth is body and to bring it to the surface. The next part was going to be the hard part. I had to project his body to the nearest hospital, one a few miles down that we had passed on the way here.

And I had to do it quickly because Christian was losing his life, fast.

I haven't thought about Christianin about a year. I used a spell to make myself forget him for his own sake. I wouldn't want Jacob to know that I had saved him and truthfully, I didn't know if he made it but I was secretly hoping he did. I wanted him to be waiting for me when I got out of this relationship. I wanted something that I knew I couldn't have. I didn't do a guilt-free spell for Jacob this time. I wanted him to feel the pain. He seemed completely unaltered anyway.

In spite of everything…. One thing that I could still have were friends. I made friends, lots of them once we moved to northern California. Jacob didn't like it very much, but I didn't like what was going on between him and Leah. They were close, very close but it was just platonic.

I still felt that she knew and understood Jacob better than I. So I embarked on my own mission to have my own outlet, my own best friend. But I didn't find him, he found me.

He was originally from Hawaii, tall very muscular with light eyes. We spent a lot of time together at the beach but when Jacob got notice of this, he threatened me. "You can't have any friends unless I say you can."

"What am I, a child?" I asked in a whispered voice, not wanting the kids to hear more arguing.

"You're mine."

"Get some sleep Jacob." I started to take him less seriously. I was growing in my witchcraft, I was stronger and I could fight back … as long as I could keep my courage up.

So I kept seeing Akoni. And Jacob found out and got angry.

"I'm going to kill him."

"No you aren't."

"Bonnie, I don't want you around him."

"Jacob … don't do this." I warned.

"You can't stop me. No one can." Jacob shot back. I knew that to an extent, he was right.

This time, Jacob didn't warn me about his plan. This time, I found Akoni dead at the beach where we met customarily. He had been mulled, Jacob's handiwork. As I cried by his lifeless body, Jacob appeared from the darkness and came up to me.

"I told you I'd kill him."

"Why? You're evil." I spat back.

" Don't question me. You love me Bonnie. You're supposed to be here for me." Jacob whined.

"I can't do this anymore. I can't keep forgetting … I'm leaving you."

"No you aren't." Jacob yanked me back and forced his body onto me. This time I fought back, harder than I ever had, but it didn't stop him. He pressed me down roughly and ravaged me until I felt shooting pain through my entire body.

I knew that I was going to be pregnant again. I knew that I had to protect my three kids and leave behind this life. I knew that I couldn't take it anymore … And I knew the only other way to stop him was to do to Jacob what he had done to Embry.

But I'm no monster. I turned him in instead. The trade off was a temporary loss of freedom for myself, but I hadn't been free during our five years of being together. I had my fourth child in jail, turning over temporary custody to Leah with the hope that she would keep her promise and relinquish control of the children when I was released.

A year and a half … it was worth it. I would've done anything to stop myself from being Jacob's punching bag again.

(A/N: This title is from Maria Mena' I'm In Love Again, in case you're wondering. I've finished this one and will post one more mini story before completing this whole thing due to lack of interest and … only one other story has been completed. I'll post that one fairly soon for you all to enjoy. Luv and review. –NL)