Is everyone ready for an updat? I know I was. This one is going to be longest so far, maybe even the longest for the whole story. So much is going on and we get a better glimpse into that nigh that changed it all for them. So a warning, for those of you who don't like that Branthan slept together sorry, it's happened and we get pretty detailed. Other than that all I can say is read all the way to the end. Huge thanks to Diane who had pretty much been my test subject on this so that I don't scare any of my fav readers away. So THANKS DIANE. Alright people, I own nada so don't blame me for the world that is OTH. Read on!
Chapter 9
Desire
It had been a total of 3 months. Brooke had called Jake every day in hopes he would answer and talk to her. She wanted to talk to him like she use to but knew it wasn't fair to him since she was sure she was starting to feel things for Lucas again. It had been three weeks since Lucas decided he couldn't just settle for cohabitation with Brooke, he wanted more with her and he wanted her to love him again and he was going to pull out all the stops to make it happen. It had been three days since Peyton started her stealth stalking mode and was currently parked a little ways away outside of Lucas' place to watch. She wasn't sure of what it was she was watching for but she wanted to be close, to be able to catch Brooke alone. It had been thirty minutes since Haley called Brooke to plan their girls night which in fact was a ploy to get Brooke and Lucas some place for a surprise date and she was excited because yesterday she was sure she saw the look. The same look Brooke use to give Lucas and it was a look that was so full of love and want and Haley just wanted to do her part to help them back to each other. They were all aimlessly going about their days unaware that the day's events would trigger something none of them could take back. Haley was packing the last of picnic when Nathan came in to bring Jamie home.
"Looks like you got the whole kitchen in there Hales."
"I pretty much do. I just want this day to be perfect."
"Don't worry so much about them. I'm sure they'll find their way back to each other if that's what's supposed to happen."
"You know Brooke seems to be warming up to everything pretty well. I mean I've just been bracing myself for something horrible to happen and everyday…nothing."
"Has she had anymore memories resurface?"
"No, or at least that's what Lucas says. They've been spending so much time together that I've been thinking maybe things might actually work out, like maybe she won't remember that night."
"Haley, I know you love having her back but you really have to prepare yourself. She might not remember but there is the off chance that she might."
"I know. But I can't think about that right now."
"Haley what if pushing them together now ends up hurting her later. I mean what happens when she gets her memories back and she's pissed we let her fall for him again?"
"Nathan will you stop being so negative. Brooke and Lucas belong together."
"I know you think that Haley and you might not want to hear this but since I'm not his biggest fan but I'm not so sure this is a good idea."
"Nathan-"
"No Haley, you may have been pissed we kept that night from you and you might be able to just forgive him just like that but you didn't see what he did to her. You didn't see him hovering over her and-"
"STOP IT! I get it okay. I get he messed up and hurt her but he promised he's changed."
"Till when Haley, till he gets loaded one night and forgets his promise or gets mad enough to do it again. Where will that leave Brooke?"
"Is that all you care about?"
"What?"
"Brooke belongs with Lucas, NOT YOU."
"Are you crazy! I never wanted anyone but you! You started pushing me away the minute I didn't forgive you for kissing that Chris Keller guy and then when I didn't get on board with your 'lets get Brooke and Lucas back together' plan you bailed on ME!"
"That's not true."
"Yes it is! Haley I messed up that night sleeping with Brooke but that night was never supposed to be anything but two friends wanting to stop the pain."
"There are a lot of ways to stop pain Nathan!"
Nathan couldn't miss the tears she that started to fill in her eyes. He wanted to have things back the way they were more than anything; Brooke and Lucas in love, he and Haley a happily married couple and Jamie a happy kid because his family was whole again but Nathan didn't want that at Brooke's expense. He remembered how broken she was that night.
Flash back
Brooke had planned to walk into Nathan's apartment, ready to do the one thing that she knew would break Lucas' heart as much as he had done to hers. She was intent on not only hurting Lucas but also hurting Haley. She had a husband who loved her and a son who adored her and she was willing to throw that all away because she was too proud to admit that she was wrong for the whole Chris Keller thing. What did Brooke have? A guy who slept around on her, no real friends except Nathan, no kids or hope for love. She hated Lucas for depriving her of all the things she knew she deserved. She hated Haley for lying to her and allowing that son of a bitch to make a fool of her and for taking her life for granted. All she wanted was to stop the ache that took over her very soul and in her mind, sleeping with Nathan would fix that. After negotiating the umbrella and powerful gusts of wind and rain, she got to his door and suddenly felt the butterflies. She looked herself over a little and smoothed out the very tight, short black satin dress and then ran her fingers through her wavy hair and puckered her lips before she used the key to let herself in. The lights were off but she knew he was home, he always was now. Ever since the separation from Haley they'd make some small amount of progress and Brooke would try to bridge them back together but they always found some way to fight about anything. The last fight had him moving out from their home and into this apartment. She made her way past the family photos and entered his darkened bedroom. She could see his massive frame clearly in the dark. He was lying on top of his sheets shirtless, coming back from a game at the river court no doubt and crashed when he came home. Lucas would do that too. She made her way to the bed and crawled in beside him. This was something they use to do all the time back when they were growing up but now it just seemed wrong. She felt repulsed by her own actions as if she was perverting the innocent memories they use to share. She almost backed out till she remembered the vision of Lucas in mid thrust of a screaming Peyton, on their bed no less. She would have to remember to burn that mattress later, possibly with them in it. She snuggled into him closer and pushed her lips on to his. He kissed a lot better than she expected. He kissed her back with such ferociousness and when she felt his hand going up her dress she let out an involuntary sob. It wasn't that he hurt her, it was just she couldn't stop thinking of Lucas. Nathan heard the sound and awoke from his half sleep and turned over to turn on the light when he realized that he hadn't been dreaming and someone was in fact in his bed. When he turned back around he saw Brooke trying to hide her face and cry. She felt so ashamed that she was actually going to sleep with her friends guy. She was just like Peyton.
"Brooke? What are you doing here?"
"I was just doing something so incredibly stupid" she said sadly wiping the tears from her eyes.
"Where we just…I mean did I…"
"Yeah."
"Wow."
"Yeah that's what I thought. I'm horrible."
"No….I mean wow that was some kiss."
Brooke looked over at Nathan and smiled at his attempt to lighten the mood.
"Don't tell me you never thought about it."
"To be honest Brooke, back in the day I use to think we would end up together."
"Really?" Brooke said, trying not blush. He wrapped his arm around her in comfort but she leaned in to kiss him again, catching him off guard. What really caught him off guard was the fact that he didn't push her away. He actually enjoyed the taste of her lips and that was the biggest shock of them all. When the kiss ended Brooke pulled back long enough to scan his gorgeous blues eyes as if to beg for him to give in to her. She saw his internal struggle, after all, she had the same one earlier but she was convinced if she could do this Lucas sleeping with Peyton might not hurt so much. She leaned in again and her hands centered on his chest as if to push him back on the bed but his senses returned and he pulled away. He couldn't bear to see the look of pained rejection on her face so instead he looked down at the bedspread. Brooke looked him over and realized he was in fact rejecting her advances. She hadn't expected him to be the complete opposite of Lucas. At that second she had the urge to run. She wanted to get as far away from Nathan and her sordid actions as quickly as possible but when she sprang from the bed she was quickly pulled back.
"Don't go Brooke. I'm sorry I just can't-"
"It's okay Nathan," she said trying to suppress the tears, "you don't have to explain how not attracted to me you are."
"No that's not it Brooke," He wanted her to know that in fact the situation was the very opposite. He had always been attracted to her back in the day but she picked Lucas and then he fell in love with Haley but the fact that he use to want her never really went away. He never acted on it but the attraction was still there and tonight was no different from the many other nights he had to control himself when teenage Brooke got in his bed. He didn't want her to do something she'd regret. "Brooke I…I am attracted to you but this isn't a good idea."
"Why not" she asked pleading for him to just stop rationalizing things.
"Because as much as I hate to admit it I love Haley and you still love Lucas."
Brooke admired his principals. Lucas would never be so magnanimous or caring, at least not the Lucas she was with now. Maybe the old Lucas. It was the first time she had ever truly wondered if she had picked the right brother. Any doubts she had about what she wanted to do were now gone. The more he fought it the more she wanted it. She kissed him on his neck and she felt the vibration from his groan in his throat. His moral code was beginning to crack each time she pressed her lips to his skin and felt her fingers tracing a path up his thigh.
"Brooke we can't"
"Please Nathan, please don't push me away. Not now" she again quietly pleaded for him to just give in. When his eyes connected to hers and he saw the pain that reflected in her eyes he was done putting up a fight. He wanted her and he knew it. He didn't want to have Brooke for himself like he had with Haley once upon a time. Tonight was about forgetting about the loved ones that had let them down more than they could imagine. She wanted to stop the infinite replay of catching Lucas in bed and she wanted to stop feeling his wife fall out of love with him. They just wanted the pain to stop. That night Nathan gave Brooke all of what she asked for. It wasn't making love, far from it. That night was all about two people living out a past fantasy to overshadow the helplessness they felt. The second she felt Nathan kiss her back without hesitation Brooke went full speed ahead. She began to run her hand over his toned chest as his hands ran up her dress and pulled down her panties and discarded them across his room. He pulled away momentarily to grab a condom from his nightstand but he returned to ready to experience all that had escaped him in the past. Their bodies molded together the instant his gym shorts where removed and the condom rolled on to place. She lay under Nathan without one ounce of regret. Nathan towered over her with no regard for what would happen after they were done. Their lips crashed together and with that Nathan took the final step of entering Brooke for the first. The groans of pleasure that escaped her lips with each push into her and each push made their problems that much further away. It had been a while since Nathan felt the kind of want he did at that moment and he submersed himself in it. Brooke couldn't help but claw away as the waves of pleasure hit her and all she wanted was to get to that final place in their sexual pursuit. They were in a factitious heaven and they both knew it but something about the force of being taken or the power of knowing you bring someone that much pleasure made them overlook the consequences that would follow. They kept going till Brooke exploded into pleasure with Nathan following soon after. Once it was done there was no cuddle, no promises of tomorrow. Brooke lay next to Nathan silently and they both didn't dare to look at each other. Instead they looked up at his ceiling both wondering about how bad the fall out of tonight's events would be. Nathan soon got up and removed the condom and tossed it into his empty waste basket and went to clean away his guilt. Once out of sight Brooke looked over to her phone and saw a text she had missed while otherwise engaged. It wasn't till she saw who it was from that she felt that vice like grip on her heart, little did she know that it would get worse. She opened it and by the time she finished it she realized it hadn't been meant for her.
From Lucas
I kno wut ur thinking and I kno it's bad but I want to see you. I'm feelin kinda lonely since the thing w/ Brooke. Come over.
The words more than likely were meant for his personal cheerleader/ her ex best friend. If he thought that day at the café was bad, she was about to make it hurt ten times worse. Without really thinking, she got dressed, retrieved the used condom from the trash and left. When Nathan came out and saw the room was empty his first thought was maybe she had just left but when he saw her phone he went to pick it and then saw the text. Instantly he knew where she was headed.
End Flashback
Nathan could do nothing but let Haley live in her little bubble of happiness. They could all use it. He decided to back off for the moment and instead work on fixing one of the things that was broken with them.
"I'm sorry. I didn't do it to hurt you."
Haley thought about for a moment and then decided hanging on to the past wasn't worth it anymore. She wanted to have the life she had before the Chris debacle, she wanted her husband back.
"What do you say after I drop this off, you, Jamie and me head to the café for some lunch?"
Nathan was a little surprised but happy to jump at the chance to rekindle the love between them, after all they had to start somewhere.
Brooke had been waiting for Haley to show up and was getting a little impatient. She had been avoiding Lucas like the plague after a mishap of walking in on him in the shower. She was embarrassed enough for the both of them. Since the kiss and the groping a few weeks ago nothing physical had gone on between them and Brooke was happy he wasn't pushing it. She was growing more and more attached to Lucas and was beginning to think things should go to a different level. They would spend hours talking about the past and what they wanted in the future and Brooke was getting the feeling of happy nostalgia. She was sitting on his bed reading his first book about a dysfunctional couple that fell in love and overcame all the odds to find their happy ending. It was sweet and Brooke couldn't help but wish it was about them. Her attention was drawn from the book to the door when Lucas chuckled at the sight of her reading so attentively.
"What's so funny?"
"You. You enjoying the book?"
"I am actually. You're a pretty good writer."
"Thanks. So you ready to go?"
"Oh is Haley here, I didn't hear her-"
"Uhhh yeah, about that….Haley isn't coming."
"What, but she said-"
"I know, but she thought the two of us should spend some time together."
"And I wonder where she got that idea from."
"I have to admit she came up with the idea…after I mentioned how you've been avoiding me."
"I have not." She said lying through her teeth.
"You have and that's okay, but I want you to keep an open mind on this. I have some things planned for us and I just want us to have fun together today."
Brooke contemplated the offer and decided that maybe this could be the day they start to make new memories. She crawled from the bed and walked over to him and hugged him.
"Thanks."
"For what?'
"For being so patient with me."
"Well when you love someone you can kinda wait forever."
She was surprised he felt so comfortable using the word love when she was concerned, but she had to admit was that she was put off by it. She pulled away from his hug and stared into his blue eyes and knew right then if he had pushed she probably would've said it back because the moment he mentioned the love word she got a flash of telling him she loved him for the second time as they made love. She hated and loved these flashed. They were like a doorway into her life but at the same time it was like only catching a glimpse of something great as the door briefly opened and closed again.
"Hey Pretty Girl, where did you go?"
"Oh uhh no where, hey is what I'm wearing okay for whatever you have planned?" She backed away enough for him to get a good look at the black short shorts and his old Tree Hill Ravens jersey.
"You found my jersey."
"Yep. Looked a little lonely in the back of your closet" she said spinning around so Lucas could get the full effect.
"What you're wearing is perfect. Let's get going though."
"Why are we gonna be late?"
"Not really late, we just might miss out on some daylight. Throw on some comfortable tennis shoes though."
"What are we gonna play a game of horse or something" she asked jokingly but really hoping that wasn't the case.
"No, no basketball I promise. Hurry up though, I wanna get a move on."
Lucas left and Brooke could help the grin that made its way onto her face. It felt like a date and she was hoping that's exactly what it was. They got in the car and drove for a little while. Brooke noticed the picnic basket in the backseat and got curious a few times but each time Lucas tapped her hand or threatened to tickle her to death if she didn't behave and sit in the passenger seat like a good girl. She would shot back with some witty flirty comment and then they'd fall into a comfortable silence. Brooke had had enough of the quiet and decided to change it.
"Let's play Radio eight ball."
"And how might we do that?"
"You ask the radio a question like you would an eight ball and then randomly run through the radio station and stop on a station to answer your question."
"Okay, sounds odd."
"It's fun, well probably more odd than fun but it can be funny. I'll go first. Oh magic radio, what does Lucas have planned for us to do?"
She turned the dial for a few seconds and then landed on a station.
…Feel like makin' love to you….
"Bad company huh, sounds like a plan to me."
"Down boy, okay so do over."
"No. No do overs"
"It's my game and I say I can. Okay magic radio, how does Lucas feel about me?"
She spun the dial once more and again would blush at the random song that played.
…wild horses, couldn't drag me away…
"Rolling stones, another favorite, and oh so true."
"Shut up. Okay, your turn."
"Okay, how does-"
"No, no you're doing it wrong you have to start with 'oh magic radio…"
"Okay, Oh magic radio, how does Brooke feel about me?"
He turned the dial and landed on yet another fitting song.
…damn, I wish I was your lover…
"No that is so not-"
"Deny it all you want Pretty Girl, the radio doesn't lie."
"Fine ask it again."
"Okay, Oh magic radio what does Brooke really want?"
…all I wanted was you, all I wanted was you…
"I think Paramour has you figured out."
"Shut up and just focus on your driving."
"Well lucky for you we're here."
Lucas was in a great mood because her little game seems to have turned on her but not just that it seemed like she wasn't denying the very thing those songs were suggesting. He was sure that today was going to be their day. The moment she got out her breath was taken away. The view of the marina, the water and the boats was so gorgeous.
"Have we been here before Lucas?"
"No. I found this place a few days after….well after I thought you died. I got in my car, drove around for hours and I drove past this place. I got out and walked all the way to the water and sat right over there and watched the sun go down. The sky out here is unbelievable."
"I bet the stars are amazing" Brooke said taking the blanket and bag that was in the backseat.
"It is. I can't wait for you to see it."
Lucas grabbed the picnic basket and the other bag in the backseat and walked towards the main entrance of the marina. Brooke followed soon and stopped when he stopped in front of a boat that had the name forever written on it.
"Brooke Davis, feel free to board the S.S. Forever."
Her eyes surveyed the boat and was astonished at how pretty it was. She hadn't remembered if she had been on a boat before but she got the feeling of giddiness that rose up in her, like this was a brand new adventure.
"So who does it belong to?"
"It belonged to Keith. When I was riding around and found this place the guy who owns this place knows the family pretty well. He found me skulking by the water and said how sorry he was about Keith's death and then he asked me if I was there about this boat."
"What, was this supposed to be a surprise?"
"Yeah. The guy, Mr. Draco, said that Keith had bought it fully intending to surprise my mom with the honeymoon they didn't get a chance to have since Lily was born the night after."
"You talk about him so fondly. I wish I remembered more about him" Brooke said sadly, wishing she could have one of those flashes about the great guy that had been so important to the both of them.
"You will. It's just not time yet is all."
Lucas stepped on board and put down the basket and bag and held out his hand for a waiting Brooke to help her on board. When she stepped on she lost her balance and went falling into Lucas' arms. This moment a few days ago would've been super awkward but now, it was just slightly odd. Every time he touched her, she noticed, she got butterflies.
"Don't go getting any ideas, just because I've whisked you away on this super romantic getaway you don't have to go throwing yourself at me."
"God that ego of yours, so what's in the bags?"
"Just a few things to make this weekend fun and easy. One bag has my clothes in it and the other had some that Haley packed for you."
"What do you mean, are we staying on this boat?"
"Yeah. Haley thought this would be kinda cool to just shove off into the ocean and just….drift."
"Drift?"
"Drift and just be at peace. You'll love it."
"You're so sure huh?"
"Do you trust me?"
Normally the only person she would say she could would've been Jake but here lately Lucas had begun to hold that honor.
"Yeah, I trust you Lucas Scott."
Lucas smiled and backed away to go get the boat ready for a trip out. Haley had already stocked the boat of food supplies so there was no danger of running out of food, and she also had decided to strategically place a few romantic items like candles, CD's, and strawberry massaging oil around the cabin of the boat for which Lucas hoped he would get the chance to use. Lucas had gotten everything set and gotten them unanchored and out on the water. The sun wasn't setting yet and that was a great thing because Lucas wanted to make sure they were far away from the shore so she could see glorious stars that would soon be out. He was up at the helm when she popped up behind him, scaring the shit out of him.
"Crazy girl, what are you doing to my heart?"
"All kinds of good it seems."
"How would you know?"
"Haley told me that you never smiled until we started to date and then when things went…wrong you stopped again. Now I see you smile all the time."
'That's because I have plenty to smile about."
"So I hope this isn't horrible of me to ask but…I've been wanting to ask, what happened to Keith."
Brooke watched as Lucas' jaw clenched and release and his knuckles go white from gripping the wheel. Brooke got the sensation that maybe this was a subject not suitable for a romantic weekend. She figured back peddling was a good idea.
"You don't have to talk about it if you don't-"
"No. It's okay, Keith would want me to."
He turned and smiled at her, it was the last thing she expected.
"He and my biological father got into a fight at his body shop. My "father" and I use the term loosely, but they got into a fight about me and my mom. Some really bad things were said and when I showed up-"
"You were there?"
"We both were. We came up at end when Keith was yelling for Dan to go to hell and Dan walked away. We all thought it was over but seconds later Dan rammed his SUV into the shop and then…well I managed to pull you out of the way, Keith wasn't so lucky."
Brooke watched as his eyes filled with tears. She hated she had brought up that moment; she had no idea why she had. Her guilt would subside when Lucas continued.
"Anyways, a few months later Dan had been drinking and fought with Nathan's mom Deb. He was about to ride off in his car but Deb demanded he give her the keys but he didn't. So instead she got in the car with him and a few miles down the road their car hit an 18 wheeler head on. Deb died instantly, Dan lived for a few days but he died later on."
"Lucas I'm sorry."
"Don't be. It's a part of our history in a way. You were there for me, you were there for Nathan when his parents died, don't be sorry because you made it not hurt as much."
Lucas looked at her lovingly. Brooke had never felt that kind of love before. His warm sea colored eyes gave her pause. There was something so warm and inviting about them. Something so comforting in being able to gaze into them. She assumed that's possibly what made their first time together so great she assumed.
"Lucas?"
"Yeah Brooke?"
"Why do you want to be with me?"
Lucas was taken aback by her question. It was true he had made it no secret of wanting to be with her like they use to be in the beginning when he treated her like royalty, but he hadn't expected her to actually broach the subject. He figured he'd bring that out later after a few glassed of wine and when the stars were out and it was peak romantic hour.
"There are so may reason's Pretty Girl, I'm not sure I can pick just one."
"Try. Why do you want to be with me…now?"
"I guess if I had to pick one thing it would be your heart."
"My heart?"
"Yeah. It's so full of love for Jamie, Nathan, Haley and even though you won't admit it, me."
"I noticed you didn't mention parents in that line up. Do I not have any or something?"
"Or something. When we started dating things weren't good with your family. I think that's why you were always at Nathan's."
"Are they…"
"No they aren't dead. Back in the day you got yourself emancipated and got your own apartment and when they moved to California, you guys just never talked again."
"That's sad."
"I know but you use to tell me you missed the idea of having parents, not so much them though."
"I kinda get the feeling that I just keep ending up in situations where I'm unwanted."
Lucas looked over to her and then decided they had gone out far enough. It was time to start the festivities. He had a feeling they might cheer her up.
"Hey don't think that. You are defiantly wanted, especially by me."
"You have to say that."
"No I don't."
"Yes you do, You want to get laid so you say all the right things and-"
"Whoa, yea if the night takes that kind of turn I won't turn you down but that's not why I say it."
"Oh really."
"Yeah really. I say it because every night since the day you told me you loved me, you've been my forever."
The notion was so sweet. Brooke had made her decision that tonight, no this weekend, would be the beginning of something great for the two of them.
"Come on, why don't you change into something pretty and I'll set up the table and we'll have dinner by candle light and then watch the sun set and then you can get a look at those stars."
"Sounds like a plan. I suppose I better take the time to see what Haley packed for me."
Brooke turned to go to the lower cabin and search through the bag and pick out something for her to wear. When she got down to the cabin she pulled the bag onto the bed and then she noticed that there was only one bed. Normally she would be terrified but somehow the thought of sharing a bed with Lucas wasn't so frightening. She pulled out a few items till her eyes landed on a gorgeous red flowing sundress. It was long but the fabric was so light it was practically see through. It dipped low in the front and in the back and when she put it on the dress flowed almost on its own. After careful consideration she decided to do away with the bra and put on a pair of red laced panties. Her final decision was to sweep her hair up partially but still leave some down with a few pieces falling on either side of her face. Luckily her makeup was ready for the most part so she finished the look off with a red beaded necklace and ruby red lipstick. She decided that walking out barefoot was a good idea since by chance her toes were painted red.
Lucas had done a great job of moving the table out on the deck, lighting the candles, putting on some music and he put on his black button down shirt and a pair of khaki colored cargo pants. The minutes she emerged he suddenly felt like he couldn't breath. She was gorgeous. From her hair, to her lips Lucas found it hard to not stare with his mouth agape.
"You look…I don't know if I have words."
"Kind of bad for a guy who writes for a living to not have words."
"Well, when you're faced with what I'm looking at….you'd see how hard it is to find words that do this vision justice."
"Will you stop, you're gonna make me blush."
"Sorry it's just, you look so beautiful. I'm sorry I'll stop staring."
"No…don't."
Lucas took this as an opening. His first impulsive thought found its way out of his mind, past his lips and in to the air. He walked over to her and held out his hands so she would take them and he could raise them so he could get another admiring look.
"Would I be too forward if I told you that I wanted to kiss you?"
Brooke smirked at his suggestion but the big change was she took a step forward to close off some of the distance between them. Lucas stepped forward and closed the distance the rest of the way and watched as she rose up on her toes and pressed her lips softly to his. Her lips were so soft and sweet. His hands found her hips without problem and her arms wrapped around his neck for support. He wanted to deepen the kiss so badly and just say screw dinner but the sun was beginning to set and he wanted her to enjoy the night. He slowly pulled away and gestured with his hand for her to have a seat. She obliged and sat in the seat, he crossed over to sit in front of her. The boat rocked from the tame waves and when Brooke looked out the sunset was the most beautiful thing she had ever seen.
"Oh my…That is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen."
"I don't know Pretty Girl. My view is pretty amazing" he said referring to her and she blushed in return. No guy had ever made her feel like this, or at least she thought.
"So can I now see what's so special about that picnic basket?"
"You could but I already emptied it out."
"And did what with the contents?"
"They're heating up as we speak."
"Mmmmm I wonder what we're going to eat?"
"You'll know what it is in a sec. So how do you feel about this so far?"
"I'm not sure yet."
"Anything I can do to sway you either way?"
"Got anything to drink on this boat?"
"Why you planning on getting a little loose tonight?"
"You asking because you plan on taking advantage?"
Lucas was a little stunned by her forward flirty tone, stunned and yet turned on.
"Down girl, there's plenty of time for that later. Let's just enjoy the sunset."
"Whatever you say."
The night went on perfectly. Lucas brought out the dinner and she was surprised at how good everything smelled. On one huge plate there was chicken fettuccini, some garlic bread, a huge Caesar salad and a bottle of wine to round it out. They enjoyed the meal and each other's company and when the sun finally dipped below the horizon Brooke got a chance to see what the fuss was about.
"Okay so set the mood for me-"
"I thought I was already doing that."
"No seriously, set the mood for me, when was the first time you came out on this boat by yourself?"
"I left your grave and needed to do something. So I drove all the way here in the middle of the night and I go this boat out in the water and just sat here looking at the stars."
"That so-"
"So pathetic, I know."
"No, not pathetic, it sad and sweet and…romantic."
"How so?"
"It kind of puts me in the mind of your book. That couple's story is so profound and deep and tortured that it pulls you in but there is this passion that consumes them, it's all just so destined."
"So I take it you like the book."
"I do."
"How far are you?"
"I'm at the part where they break up and he's dating her best friend."
Lucas got a little worried at the mention of that part so he decided to quickly change the subject.
"You want to know what my favorite part is?"
"It better not be a part I haven't gotten to yet."
"It is."
"Well fine, tell me."
"It's the part where they're out yelling at each other in a storm and she screams at him to tell her what he wants and while they're standing in the rain….he kisses her."
"Awwww that is such a sweet moment. I wish I had something like that."
"You did. That part was real."
"What, us making out in the rain?"
"Yeah, and the incredible make up sex afterwards."
"You are such a perv."
"You said that already."
"And I see that it's no lesser true than it was the first time I said it."
There was a pause as the sound of the waves hit the side of the boat. By candlelight Brooke looked even more beautiful than she did on their first real date. She glanced down at her food and got chills as his gaze pierced right through her. She could sense the heat rising up in her body and it hit a fever pitch when his hand steadied hers as she attempted to take a sip of her wine.
"What's wrong, you're practically shaking uncontrollably." He said jokingly but not missing the tense look that crossed her face. "Am I making you nervous?"
"When do you not make me nervous is better question."
"Brooke I….look I don't mean to push, I just wanted us to spend some time together. There are no expectations for this weekend if that's what you're thinking."
"Funny."
"What, no seriously. Whatever happens will happen…or not happen."
"You don't honestly believe that do you?"
"I do."
"Why, cause everything I've see is to the contrary."
"Seen? You lost me."
"I've had….dreams, well memories about….you know" Brooke said fully blushing and not wanting to say what she hoped he would catch on about and his face went from confused to smug in three seconds flat.
"What uh, exactly do you remember?"
"Wouldn't you like to know" she said gulping down the remaining half of her glass of wine.
"I would actually. Tell me."
"No."
"Why not, it would let me know if there are any…blanks that need to be filled in."
"I don't think there are."
"How can you be so sure?"
"I'm pretty sure."
"Oh come on, we're both adults, who have seen each other naked."
"Not that I can remember." Suddenly she felt like he was undressing her with his eyes and for a strange reason she really wanted him to.
"Would you like to have a refresher?"
She waved her empty glass in his face to signal a refill.
"You're gonna have to be a lot more generous with the wine for any chance at that."
"My pleasure. I'll go get another bottle."
He got up and disappeared into the cabin and all her nerves started to build. She knew where the wine, the flirting, the thinly veiled innuendos and somehow this night started to feel prophetic. He returned with his eyes trained on her, wishing she'd just turn around and look at him the way he knew he was looking at her. He couldn't help but place one of his hands on her shoulder after he set the bottle down on the table next to her. He brushed her hair to one side and began massaging her soft skin. Her eyes rolled back uncontrollably and a soft moan escaped her lips that thankfully he didn't hear…not yet anyway. Fearing that things were starting to progress to a sexual ending she decided to speak, unfortunately the topic that spilled from her mouth did little to sway the mood.
"One time it was in the shower."
His mind tried to decipher her words and then he realized it was the location of many a tryst they had enjoyed as a regular morning routine. His smile crept onto his face and his fingers moved from her shoulders to slide down the sides of her amrs.
"And another time on the couch…"
Her words trailed as his touch left her skin and he rounded around to his chair, smirk still on display.
"And…"
"And I'm sure you're smart enough to figure out the rest."
"How did it make you feel…remembering something like that?"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean did you have any urges to explore what was going on in your…memories?"
"Why?"
"Because what I'd like to do is really kiss you right now. Nothing super heavy unless that's what you want but….I really want to kiss you."
"Then what's stopping you."
She could hardly believe what she just said, let alone process the fact that Lucas was now getting up from his seat and walking over to her and holding out his hand for her to stand. The butterflies she felt in her stomach were on overdrive and she knew that this was defiantly going to end up with her underneath him. She wasn't strong enough to keep resisting. She rose from her seat and stood next to him with little to no space between them. The want that danced behind his blue eyes did nothing more than to fuel her own desires. There was no hesitation on her end but when she leaned forward to kiss him he leaned back ever so slightly out of reach. He did this till he felt she had waited long enough and to give her the chance to back out. When she didn't he stopped waiting and pushed his lips to hers and massaged her bottom lip with his skilled tongue, wanting nothing more than for her to relinquish control to him. His hands found their way to her hips as hers braced to his shoulders. Her chin lifted to intensify the kiss and his grip tightened onto her hips and he moaned as he felt her suck on his tongue delicately. When she pulled away he stood there shocked and scared he had pushed too soon but his fear was eased when she backed away with his hand still in hers and led him to inside the cabin. When they reached the bed he stood there and watched her as she climbed on seductively, her eyes never leaving his for fear she's loose her nerve. She laid back on the bed and looked so gorgeous with her hair sprawled out over the bed. He climbed on and laid next to her, letting her set the pace for what he hoped would be the first of many times he'd get to make love to her again. Since everything went downhill with her finding him with Peyton, he had all but deadened the possibility that he'd ever get a chance to be with her like this again and yet here they were. She was looking at him with such want that he could barely stop himself from taking over but he restrained himself, in hopes that by being patient he'd be rewarded. She rolled over on top of him and her legs fell to either side of his hips, lowering her body to mold to his. He ran his hand through her soft dark strands while the other drifted down to her hips, gripping them in his hand in a firm and possessive manner. Her hips lowered onto his body as far as they would go and soon Lucas was rolling them over and his knee was nudging hers apart to make way for his hips to press firmly into her center. While she busied herself with gripping the back of his shirt to raise it so she could feel his skin under her finger tips, he dove his hand down between them and began bunching her dress in his hand, revealing more and more of her legs till he could push the fabric above her waist. Their lips parted long enough for him to look down and admire the red lace that covered her flesh and he quickly slipped his hand inside to touch the aching center he had been pushing his hips into. The moment his fingers made skin on skin contact Brooke bucked and her mouth opened to let the gasp of pleasure escape as he sunk his fingers inside her. Once his hand found it's place he turned his attention back to her beautiful face and then his lips attached to her neck, sucking on her collar bone and then slowly tracing a trail with his tongue to her neck. He wanted nothing more than to reveal the breasts she had pressed against him as she panted and writhed under him but he thought he'd wait till she was recovering from her first orgasm. He continued his teasing till Brooke was whimpering with anticipation of a release and squirming at his touch. He moved his fingers across her clit speeding up and then suddenly she was crashing into the wall of absolute pleasure and she couldn't help but drown in it. The way Lucas touched her, knew how to make her scream was so much of a turn on. Once her breath evened out, her eyes fluttered open to see a smiling Lucas towering above her. He leaned down to place a soft kiss on her before he lifted up and moved down to her soaked panties. He gripped either side and then looked up at her to see if she wanted to stop but all she did was sit up to raise the dress the rest of the way over her head and then tossed it to the floor and then laid back. Lucas took in her perfect breasts and quickly did away with the underwear and then made his way up her body with is hands till he made it to the newly revealed flesh. Her eyes closed yet again at the rush of pleasure she felt run through her when his lips covered one nipple and the other was carefully being teased by his thumb, causing her nipples to harden. Her moans grew into shouts of excitement with each flick of his tongue. He licked and teased one nipple agonizingly slow and then the other, swapping his mouth to the one his hand had been teasing loving the feeling he got from her raking her fingers through his hair. He kept on with this till she couldn't take anymore and physically moved his head back up so she could capture his lips passionately. When the kissing stopped being enough she maneuvered her hands to his pants, quickly doing away with them as she pushed them down his legs his her feet, his boxers following soon after. Lucas couldn't help but feel the animalistic nature take over as he ground his hips into her, allowing his member to brush over her slick folds. He moved over her several times till he angled hips to line his member up and without any hands he pushed himself deep within her, sliding in easily. Her back arched and she lout out a breathless moan and her nails clawed at his back and as if to find a way to hang on to reality she crashed her lips back to his, securing his lips to hers with her hand on the back of his neck. At first he pushed in with little movement but soon he was thrusting into her and she was thrusting her hips right back, wanting to feel all of him as deep as possible. Her legs parted more to allow him full entrance and as Lucas moved within her he had to focus. He wanted this moment to mean more than just gratification. He fought to open his eyes and look down at the woman he loved.
"Open your eyes Pretty Girl. Look at me."
She struggled to fight her way back from the pleasure abyss and pried her eyes open to gaze into the waiting blue eyes that focused on her. He slowed his pace but never once stopped. Her concentration was faltering and her eyes were about to flutter closed when he spoke again.
"No no, stay with me. I want you to see me when I say this."
He moved even slower now, easing in and out of her as his arms hooked underneath her and he held onto her for dear life.
"I love you Brooke Davis. More than I ever thought possible."
In between moans she tried to speak but words just simply failed.
"You don't have to say it back right now. Honestly I wouldn't believe you. I just wanted you to know this means something to me" He said thrusting into her and hitting a spot that made her body go numb with bliss and her muscles tightened around him and he simply watched as she hit her sexual peak of ecstasy. He did nothing but watch till he closed his eyes to feel the twitch of her aftershocks tightening around him involuntarily. He wasn't much on the mood to cum himself; he really just wanted this moment to be about pleasing her. Once she regained her composure she once again opened her eyes to see his linger stare on her, not smiling this time however. He looked like he was miles away. She smiled back up at him and the sight of her dimples brought him back to this pleasant moment.
"Where'd you go just then?"
He rolled over to her side and embraced her from behind, wanting her body as close to his as possible.
"Nowhere. There's nowhere and nothing I could be doing that could ever be better than where I am right now."
"Lucas?"
"Whatever it is you want to say Pretty Girl don't. Let's just lay here and enjoy this."
He closed his eyes and breathed in her lavender smell but could tell by the way she was breathing she wanted to say something still.
"Go on. Say it."
"But you said-"
"I know, but I can tell you want to say something."
"How do you know that" she asked as she traced a small circle on the arm that was draped across her chest.
"Because I know you."
She stopped her circle pattern she had going on his arm and she turned around in his embrace to face him. Her hand drifted up to his lips and her eyes did the same till she looked into his eyes.
"I want you to know something too. About what you said-"
"Brooke I-"
"No, no, no let me finish. I know you mean it when you say it and it scares me…a lot…but in a good way. I may not remember everything about us but I feel it. I felt it the first day I laid eyes on you. I felt it the first night I dreamed about you and even now I can feel it with every fiber of my being." Lucas smiled knowing he was going to like where this was going. "I want you to know that even though I may not be ready to say it back now…I promise I will."
"You don't have to say that."
"I know. That's what makes this even more special."
She lifted her lips to his for a chaste kiss and she turned back around. His arms tightened around her soft frame and he just listened to the sounds of the water outside and her breathing. Only when he was sure she was asleep did he himself succumb to slumber. Lucas would again have dreams of Brooke but this time they wouldn't go untainted by his sins of the past. Tonight they would come back with a vengeance, and so would his tormenter. The waves had begun to lull him into a false sense of security. He was the happiest he had ever been and when he rolled over Brooke to get on top of her he got an unrestricted view of her angelic face as she slept. It wasn't till he felt his hand around her neck did he feel this moment was taking a turn for the worse. He could feel her pulse race, see her eyes open and look at him in fear and then the he watched his hands tighten on their own accord and then saw as the life drained from her eyes. Lucas' eyes shot open in panic and it wasn't until he looked down and realized it had just been a sick dream. Brooke was still fast asleep in his arms when he heard the menacing laughter of the other "Brooke" he knew he was in for it. It was as if her laugh tormented him and beckoned him to the open air outside the cabin. When he emerged he observed her sitting on the table he and Brooke had abandoned earlier for carnal activities.
"You really think she's going to forgive you? You're only giving yourself false hope Luke."
"I don't get why you're here."
"I'm here my dear Broody, because that guilt kicked in the moment you watched her cum and even though you couldn't just let it be you started thinking about that night."
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"Stop patronizing me Lucas. You were laying on top of her and pumping into her so hard that when she started to cum you started thinking 'is this how she looked and sounded when Nathan fucked her?' That's kinda sick Lukey boy."
"Go away."
"I can't, I'm simply a manifestation of your guilt, as long as you feel guilty I am right here."
"But I don't feel guilty. I love her, I made love to her."
"That you did, and boy did it look fun. But who do you think that was for Lucas. You're lying to her face about what you two really were-"
"We were in love-"
"You were in love with your own ego. You let Peyton, Haley and that girl in there feed it till she had enough and then when she didn't fall right back into your arms after your lame attempt at an apology you got pissed."
"I ….I love her."
"You love the fact that she doesn't know what kind of a sick and pathetic son of a bitch you really are. Mark my words Lucas, she will remember that night. She WILL go back to hating you. But most of all she will be disgusted with herself when she thinks back on tonight. How she will ever be able to stand being in her own skin after letting you back into her body, she'll crack Lucas. It'll be your entire fault."
With that his phantom of guilt dissipated and he was left alone with nothing but the night sky. He hadn't been out there long when Brooke awoke to an empty bed. She looked around and put on his black button down shirt and went in search for him. When she appeared from the cabin she found him sitting and looking up at the stars. His back was to her so when she walked up she simply snaked her arms around his waist and pressed her body firmly against his back. First she felt him tense under her touch but ease when she gripped on to him tighter.
"Whatcha out here thinking about?"
"You."
"Me? What on earth could you possibly be thinking about me?"
He turned in her arms and embraced her. Her head fell to his chest and she could hear his heart begin to race. Her palm fell right over it and she couldn't help but blush at the fact she could get this kind of reaction out of him without much action at all.
"Do I do that to you?"
"Do what Pretty Girl?"
"Make your heart race."
"All the time."
They fell into a comfortable silence as they rocked with the waves and swaying boat. The feel of the cool breeze sent goose bumps over his skin but it wasn't till then Lucas realized that "Brooke" was right. He was making these moments now, enjoying them for as long as possible, because he hoped these moments would be enough to sustain him for when the other shoe dropped. Right there in his arms he had the one thing he knew he'd have to give up eventually because once she remembered the events of that horrible night and then realize she'd let him touch her, she'd never forgive him or herself. He knew he was being selfish.
"You didn't answer my question Broody."
"I didn't did I. Well I'm just wondering when the other shoe is going to drop."
"Huh?"
"You know, things are going way too good for us so that usually means something really bad has to happen to balance it out."
He started to slowly run his fingers through her hair till she broke away and led him back to the bed. Once back in the comfort of the sheets Brooke decided she wanted to know more.
"Did we ever talk about the future?"
Lucas settled in behind her and embraced her from behind and buried his face in her lavender smelling locks.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean did you ever want to marry me…have kids?"
"I have to be honest. I wasn't really the marrying kind back then but now…."
"Yeah?"
"Now I really couldn't picture anything else. Does that scare you?"
"Why would it?"
"I don't know, I guess I might feel a little put off about someone saying they wanted to marry me and have my kid and I barely remember them."
"It's not so scary. I may not know all of the details but the feelings are there. I still feel the connections. If I didn't I wouldn't have slept with you."
"I'm glad you decided to. I've missed this."
"What having sex?"
"No I missed this, the moments after when you fall sleep or when we just lay here and …well…be."
"I think I must've missed it too. "
Brooke looked up into his deep blue eyes and felt a little sorry for him. Here he was doing and saying all the right things waiting for her to break or lose her again and she wanted to do something to assure him that she wasn't going anywhere. So she pushed up and kissed him sweetly. He responded to the kiss by cupping her face and slipping his fingers into her hair and moaned at the feel of her lips sucking his bottom lip in and running her lounge across it. He loved how she teased him with her kiss because it usually meant that sex would follow. She pulled back slightly to look into his eyes and spoke.
"I'm not going anywhere baby. Never again."
He knew she couldn't promise that but his heart swelled none the less at her declaration. She then leaned in to deepen the kiss and wrap her arms his neck as he rolled over and covered her body with his own. The way his hands gripped her ass sent a shock run through her. The picture was blurry but she could make out figure. They were moving wildly and she could hear them panting and moaning for each other. Her mind went blank as she felt Lucas kiss along her neck and pull at the hem of his shirt she wore. In one motion he pulled it apart and buttons went flying. This time he would ravage her and enjoy her in every way possible. He parted her legs and found his place in between them and lowered his boxers to free himself to plunge into her. Her legs were like a vice again, pulling him forward till he gripped himself and pushed into her wetness. The deep moan she made managed to set something off in him. Suddenly he had an idea in his mind and he began to pound into her like a man possessed. Her walls would clench ever so often as she gripped onto his shoulder and screamed in pleasure. He reached between them and began to rub at her clit to rush her to the finish. He needed to cum and cum right now before his senses caught up with him. He had a firm grip on her hips as he pushed forward and she loved the feeling of his fingers digging into her skin. She leaned forward and started to suck at his neck and shoulder and soon she was there. Her inner walls clamped down on his erection and he knew it was now or never. He pumped into her a few more times before he too erupted into her. His gasps with each stream that released signified his orgasm clearly to her. Once he had caught his breath he leaned his forehead into hers'.
"I love you."
She had said it so softly that he almost didn't think she said it. His eyes slowly opened to see her gorgeous hazel orbs were staring into his soul. It belonged to her, all of him did at that moment and just when he thought the moment couldn't get any better she said it again.
"I love you Lucas Scott."
He smiled and cupped her face again and brought her lips to his and kissed her with all the love he had.
Are those cheers I hear? I thought so. Well guys that it for nine. Music during the magic radio game if you were curious was "Wild Horses" by the Rolling stones (Although The Sundays have a version as well as Bush, I love em' all but just picked the RS since i'm on that kick right now) "Feel like Making Love" by Bad Company (Seriously not into this type of music but I heard someone do a cover on this at a bar and loved it) "All I wanted" by Paramore (Why because I love some of there songs and well I think they're cool) and last but not least "Damn, I wish I was your lover" by Sophie B Hawkins (Weird lyrics but love the idea of it cause I've deen guys that made me think that exact thing.} Enough with the jabbering, Simon says Review!