Hi!
This is another Merlin chapter. Next one will be arthur :]
Prologue: part two
I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found a light in the tunnel at the end
Merlin moved the last of his stuff into Will and Gawain's apartment. They had become an odd sort of family: Gawain was a party animal, Will, a psychopath, and Merlin, a recluse. Somehow they seemed to fit. 14 months ago, Merlin would have thought living with other people, hell, sometimes living, seemed unlikely. But here he was; free at last.
He had new friends and a new life. He severed all ties to what he used to be. Except music. He still played whenever he could, he just stopped using it as an escape. At first the thought of playing again sent him into a depression. All these negative emotions and memories seemed to be connected to his instruments. Gawain would not allow it, however.
After he finally left Edwin, Gawain helped him move on. He helped him feel like a human being. It didn't hurt that Gawain was the father of his cousin and the on again/off again love interest of his aunt. For months, he'd been begging to take Merlin to a meeting for abuse victims. Merlin was not too excited. He didn't know if he could speak freely in front of other people.
The first meeting was hell. He found himself feeling embarrassed and unsure. Should he spill his innermost secrets? Will people judge him? The road towards a mental recovery was a slow one.
Merlin found that his friends made it easier.
At worst I feel bad for a while,
but then I just smile I go ahead and smile
Song: Smile- Lily Allen