And in the dark, I can hear your heartbeat
I tried to find the sound
"Merlin, we can't just break up every time we have an argument."
'I know."
"I mean we have to talk to each other. Really listen. Relationships are supposed to be give and take. A partnership. If we can't communicate, how are we supposed to-" Arthur stopped his pacing to watch his boyfriend meticulously apply rosin to his bow. "Are you even listening to me?"'
Merlin glanced up with a look of such sincerity. Arthur didn't trust it for a second.
"Of course I listen to you, Arthur."
"Alright, what did I say?"
"something about the…thing…and…stuff?"
The blond shook his head in frustration. He, again, began striding the length of Merlin's room. "This is exactly what I mean. Whenever we spend time together you flip flop between to be with me to ignoring. I really like you, Merlin. And I think you like me too. Why won't you help me to make this work?"
A myriad of emotions passed over Merlin's face. Arthur tried to imagine what he was thinking. Was it about his past? Was it about Arthur?
"I'm not trying to hold back." Merlin promised, eyes bright with emotion. "There's just so much I feel I can't say." The hurt must've shown on Arthur's face. "I want to tell you."
"Then why won't you?"
"I don't want you to think differently of me."
This time, Arthur schooled his emotions. He walked over to where Merlin was perched on his bed. Kneeling, Arthur looked in to his boyfriend's eyes and said, "If you think I could ever look at you any different than I am right now, perhaps you should reevaluate this relationship." He leaned forward, placing a chaste kiss on Merlin's lips. "I trust you completely. This won't work if you can't do the same. Take as long as you need to think about where you want this relationship to go."
He made is way over to the door. A nagging feeling was stopping him from turning the handle. He was pushing again.
"Merlin, I don't need you to spill all your secrets to me in a day. I just want you to trust me." With that, Arthur fled the premises.
The weight of the world seemed to be crushing down of him and the only thing stopping it was his silver Camaro.
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart
Song: Cosmic Love by Florence + The Machine