Chapter Two – Thinking Back

The next morning, Charlotte lay staring at the ceiling as the winter sunlight beamed in through her and Harry's bedroom window. She had barely slept a wink all night; she was too busy thinking about her next step.

Last night she had shown to herself how much she had changed over the past couple of years. Instead of running, excitedly to Harry she calmly replaced the diary and joined him in drinking tea in the living room. She didn't want to, no; she daren't assume that just because her period was late that she was pregnant. Too much had happened in the past to assume. It could be a sign of so many things.

She looked over at Harry snoozing next to her. She felt bad not sharing this with him, but she didn't want to raise his hopes or make him worry. She decided that she would keep it to herself for now. They had been through so much in the last year, she couldn't load more stress onto him.

It had only been three months since they'd returned from China with their newly adopted baby daughter, Mae Elizabeth. Mae had made Charlotte feel complete, like her life long dream of being a mother was accomplished the second she held their little girl in her arms. Tears of joy had streamed from her eyes as her dream was finally realised, it didn't even matter that she would probably never have her own baby, they were a family.

Charlotte felt so confused as she cast her mind back over the past few years. When she was married to Trey, they had tried and tried to get pregnant without any success. That heartbreaking day that they discovered that Charlotte discovered that she only had a 15 chance of ever having a baby was still hard to think about, even now three years on. It made her marriage to Trey that little bit harder to see through. But that was the past now, after all, if she'd never married Trey she wouldn't have met Harry. She held onto that belief that everything happened for a reason, through everything, even last year when she had a miscarriage.

Harry began to stir next to her and she decided to get up and make breakfast. She didn't want to talk to Harry about this right now.