Authors note: look, im really sorry that I don't update very much. I have Drama club every day after school, I play guitar a lot, I draw a lot, play soccer a lot, and I write songs, and im learning how to play songs on the piano. So again, SORRY!

The rest of the gang didn't know about their relationship yet. Cat always wanted to come out and tell everyone, but Jade didn't want to yet.

"Hey Jadey!" Cat said as she bounced up to her secret girlfriend's locker. Jade threw her books in the locker and turned to look at Cat.

"It's too early. Try again later." Jade said, trying to not sound horribly mean. She took a long drink of coffee and just starred at Cat.

"I just wanted to ask you a question!" Cat said, choosing to ignore the warning tone in Jade's voice. Jade said nothing so Cat took that as a sign to continue. "I was just wondering when we can tell people about us."

"I told you already! We will come out when I'm ready!" Jade said, harshly. Cat looked like she had just been slapped across the face and ran away. Jade sighed and hit her head on her locker a few times. Then she grabbed her coffee and slammed her locker door shut. Her feet dragged her to her first class. She would deal with Cat later, it was too early. Jade sat through her science class and thought about how her and Cat started dating. It was a memory that always brought a smile to her face.

Flashback

The two have always been inseparable since they were in 1st grade. Cat and Jade were always the outcasts, and they were fine with that. The two opposites didn't need other friends, they had each other. They grew up right down the street from each other and they would play outside all day, then go and sleepover at each other's house. In 6th grade, they started to get that funny feeling inside, the feeling telling them that they were in love. Those butterflies never went away and all through 7th grade, there were always those stolen glances at each other when they thought the other wasn't looking. In 8th grade, everything changed. Those stolen glances turned into starring into each other's eyes. Their friendly hugging turned into snuggling on the couch. The simple hand holding turned into Jade with her arm around Cat's shoulder, and Cat's around Jade's waist. The most noticeable change was when sleeping on the floor in their sleeping bags, became cuddling under the blankets on the bed.

It was one cold December night; they were laying in Cat's bed, trying to keep warm. They had put up Christmas lights up around the small room, and they were the only things lighting up the room. Cat turned around in Jade's arms and spoke softly and slowly,

"Jade? Have you ever loved someone and you know they will never like you back?"

"Yes." Jade answered immediately. She was cursing at herself inside, but stopped when she noticed a small tear roll down her best friend's cheek. She said nothing, wiping it away and left her hand on her cheek.

"It just hurts so much, you know? Like, I try everything I can to move on from this crush, but I just can't! I just wish she would know how much I love her!" Cat slipped up a little and hoped Jade wouldn't notice.

"So it's a 'she'?" Jade said slowly. Cat's eyes grew wide and she began to get nervous. "That's funny, because I like a 'she', also." Jade said calmly. Jade leaned in, stopping only an inch away from Cat's lips. They were nervous. They had never kissed anyone before. Cat could feel Jade's sweet breath on her face and smiled, slowly closing the gap between their lips. It was mind blowing. They have been together ever since then, but nobody knew.

End Flashback

Jade knew Cat wanted to come out and tell everyone, but Jade didn't. she wasn't sure if she was ready yet. She didn't want people to judge her. Jade knew she was being selfish and mean. The bell rang and Jade left that class and next was her songwriting class. She barely listened to the teacher, only hearing something about write a song…blah blah blah…due next week. Wonderful! Next class was Improv, with Cat. She walked into the room and saw Cat sitting up front, talking to their friends. Jade sat in the back and opened up her note book. That class passed by faster than usually, and they were all off to lunch.

"Jade? Can I talk to you?" Cat asked quietly, while Jade was putting her books away.

"Yeah, look Cat. I'm really sorry for being a jerk. But, please, just give me some more time. You know I love you with all my heart, I'm just not ready yet." Jade said.

"Ok. So you're not mad at me anymore?"

"Of course not, Kitten! I was never mad at you, I was just tired!" Jade hugged Cat and they walked to lunch together.

Author's Note: None of you probably know what I'm talking about, but I need to say this. There is this person, and I made a mistake. I ruined a friendship and I realize now that I was wrong and made a big mistake. I hope that one day we can be the way we were, before I messed things up. You will probably never read this, but thank you for helping me put the pieces of my life back together. I love you, ********, and thank you.

PS: They are also the reason why I updated!