Is It the End?
Don't be afraid when your fight is through. I just need you to know that I'm here with you.
Backus, Pennsylvania…
It's a swanky room she waltzes into ignoring the way Sam seems to follow her with hungry eyes and tries to hide how his hands shake.
Sam has been sitting in the corner, shaking, waiting for Ruby and worrying Dean will find him first
"Honeymoon suite, really? I'm flattered." Ruby teases.
It doesn't seem to register as Sam demands to know if it was her that got him out of the cage his brother had put him in.
"How could I, Sam? The whole thing's engineered to bite me in the ass." To bite, to hurt, to impede –sorta like Dean- and while, yes, maybe, Ruby could have figured a way to screw with the cage it was only a waste of time and energy on her part because really, who was gonna let her in to the house in the first place?
"Then how did I get out of there?" because he sure as hell didn't swing it.
"I don't know. I don't wanna know. You're out. That's all that matters. I'm glad you're here." Ruby keeps a slow pace around the room with Sam following her, sort of like a stalking animal and Ruby feels just a little giddy wondering when he's actually going to pounce on her.
"Yeah? Where have you been?" his tone is just a little rough, angry even but then he's been stewing in his juices thanks to Dean and Bobby.
"I got here as quick as I could." Or maybe as quick as a detour or two would allow… but he doesn't need to know and Ruby won't say.
"I mean the past three weeks. I've been calling."
And Ruby has been making him wait it out. Payback is a bitch and she sure as hell is just that.
"I've been pretty deep in it trying to dig out Lilith. Sometimes I can't sit around and check my voicemail. I'm sorry you're hurting. Really. I had no idea that Dean would do that to you." Bull krap but so long as he buys it she's not gonna worry about it. And that had come out of left field but then it was Dean and this is Sam he was trying to protect. Ruby only hopes the time in between hasn't ruined all her work with Sam.
"You and me both."
"You didn't book this joint just to impress me, did you?" not that she had really thought he would but it would have been nice…meant the BoyKing was thinking a bit more on the personal side of things if he got an after…
"Dean's gonna come after me. And he knows my habits, my aliases, everything. He knows exactly which motel I'd pick." It's the one drawback to their otherwise perfect plan. Just this once, when Sam doesn't need his big brother to come save him… … save?
"Hence the room." Ruby thinks it's a shame and such a nice room too.
"Whatever it takes to shake him."
"It won't be easy. I mean, he knows you better than anyone." Better than Sam knows himself at times and that's why Ruby got her claws into Sam in the first place.
"Not as well as he thinks." And Sam is thinking of all the things he's done in Dean's absence, the lives he saved and how he saved them…it's the how that won't let him alone and how Dean looks at him..
"You know, it's sad."
"What?"
"That things have gotten this bad between you two." It's a little tragic, really and she feels just a teensy little smidge of … uhm …remorse?
'Nah.'
Because they were supposed to be united. Like a friggin rock without a crack to wedge into … but the Winchester have always been full of cracks. Maybe not as big as Ruby's managed to chisel but they had never allowed anyone or anything to get at them this good. Makes you wonder if the Winchesters are willing to fight just as hard as they ever did to beat down Hell.
Sam grabs Ruby-he finally ounces- and Ruby slams onto the bed with a bounce as he leans over her. She doesn't stop him from moving down her body until he finds the knife in her ankle sheath. He draws it and comes up again, the knife slicing at her arm where Sam can drink her blood. She smirks. Because this right here is exactly what needs to happen and payment is about to come due.
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New York …
He's waiting at the coffee shop wondering if he'll even show but with Jace … you never know for sure. Junior is on his third coffee cup when Jace slips into the booth without a word. He looks…haggard… eyes always on the table-not even a glimmer of defiance when it's usually Jace's only expression. Unless it was Kris.
"I haven't seen her since I asked her to see Dad." And once again Jace thinks maybe if he'd never pushed Kris into visiting she would still be them. Or rather, with Junior and her kids, where she belonged. The truth was… it just isn't easy for Jace to see his little sister make her own 'happily ever after' and not feel a little jealous. He loves her, yes and wouldn't do anything to hurt her or the kids- they're all his family even if he is on the outside looking in.
He was too proud to accept their 'help' or even a job. What the hell was he gonna do around horses anyway? No, Jace had no place in her life. He's a screw up. Always was and he'd always be. He'd made his choice and lived with it everyday. Some days it wasn't so bad.
"You spoke to her." Junior doesn't know what feeling to go with; anger is high up there. He can see that Jace hasn't been well either and Junior wonders if he doesn't look much better. "You know…she never wanted to talk about him. Your Father."
Jace nods. "I know."
"Kris never told me anything and I'd ask her all the time at first and again when we had Max." he thought maybe Max could have another grandfather. Maybe Kris would work things out with them; her Father and Jace… "I wanted her to be happy." He wanted more than that.
"Kris was happy." Jace finally looks up, his expression confused because how couldn't they tell? "With you and then Max and Del. Man, I've never seen her happier."
Because she loved that damn horse…she risked going back to jail for it! She took on so much and did it smiling all for that horse and Jace still doesn't get it but he knows, he is sure Kris was unbelievably happy with the Davises.
"Then why the hell did you talk her into going?" his voice is rough, anger blazing in his eyes and Jace drops his gaze once again. Junior wants to know. He needs to know because all he has left are questions and they are driving him nuts! He can't deal with not knowing and talking to Mr. Furillo had only left Junior feeling disgusted.
"You spoke to him." Jace isn't asking. He can tell.
"And he asked me for money." Junior's hands clench on the scratched table top. "He barely asked about Kris, if I knew anything before he asked for money-. What the hell kind of Father do you have?"
"I'd say you already know." Jace looks at him, the silence stretches and his expression doesn't change. It's a close reminder of Kris and the look she gives him when she's calling Junior's bullshit. And yeah, maybe Junior does have an idea of the kind of Father they have when his hasn't been exactly stellar. All the shit and grief Ken Davis Sr gave Kris when she started dating his only son… offering her money to leave him alone but Kris wasn't scaring off easy and Ken couldn't buy her out either. While Kris wasn't from the 'right side of the tracks' being poor or having spent some time in jail didn't mean she was the kind of girl that would screw you over anytime it was to her benefit.
Junior didn't doubt for one that Kris loved him. Not before though there had been times in the very beginning when he'd had no clue well, about all of it really. Not until they put it all out there and then it was good.
"He really did want to see her." Jace exhales, his shoulders slumping. The waitress finally makes it over to their table and pours some coffee into the spare mug.
"Are you hungry?" Junior looks at Jace and notices again the haggard look not only on his face but the rest of him. He's lost some weight and there's circles under his eyes… he doesn't wait for an answer and asks the waitress to bring them a plate of fries and wings- not that Junior is going to eat. Maybe he'll pick at it and pretend…
"You don't have t-."
"I'm not." Junior takes another drink of his coffee and singes the tip of his tongue. They don't speak anymore; what are they going to say? Its enough to sit there, both suffering the loss of Kris in their own way. At least with Jace, Junior doesn't have to pretend he's holding up. There's no one around right now who cares about what he's feeling.
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Backus, Pennsylvania…
Ruby goes over the conversation with Sam. They spent the past day in bed with both of them getting what they wanted from each other. She is happy with things as they're turning out. More with Sam's increased need for blood but thankfully Ruby has a secondary supply for him in mind. At least this way Sam won't drain her.
She smiles, thinking of what's to come and continues packing. Sam wants to leave and though it's a really nice room, she doesn't want to stick around if Dean is sniffing them out. They can't afford to let him catch up- well, Ruby can't chance it.
'He's all mine again.'
And she's not about to let Sam go without a fight. Not this close to the end.
It's been ridiculously easy to convince Sam that Lilith will break the last seal. Call it… call it inspiration at that last second when Sam just kept backing out, wanting to call in big brother… But telling him about Lilith and really, 'Demon Sunday School'?
Ruby almost laughs out loud but remembers Sam could walk in any second and laughing like a loon because the BoyKing is eagerly walking at her side like an obedient puppy just won't do before he actually breaks the last seal.
Now, all Ruby has to do is get Sam to the hospital where they can get their demon blood bag. She makes a face thinking Sam is likely going to end up saving some wiggling mass of new icky baby intended for Lilith's meal.
"I know I need more. I get it. I know it's okay. I just—I wish he'd trusted me, you know?"
Gah! Sometimes Ruby really wants to smack Sam. Hard. But that's why she doesn't hear Dean until he's on her and they struggle for the knife.
'My knife!'
Ruby's eyes widen and she swears she can almost feel the lightning fork through her when Sam grabs Dean's arm and pulls him off.
"No. Let her go. Just take it easy." Sam has the knife and Ruby's watching them both.
"Well, it must've been some party you two had going, considering how hard you tried to keep me from crashing it. Well, solid try, but here I am." And he's pissed! He wants the demon dead and if Sam hadn't walked in when he did Ruby would be dead.
"Dean, I'm glad you're here. Look. Let's just talk about this." Because Sam is happy Dean caught up. They can do this together now-
"Soon as she's dead, we can talk all you want."
And krap. That quick Sam can see things aren't going to go the way he was hoping.
"Ruby, get out of here."
She doesn't need to be told twice though she'd really like to have her knife.
"No, she's not going anywhere."
With a last look, Ruby makes her escape. She can hear Dean tell Sam she's poison and Sam trying to convince his brother it's really not what he thinks.
But it is. It is what Dean thinks and Sam should really listen to his big brother. Don't big brothers always know what's best?
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Ilchester, Maryland…
Sam stares off into the distance not really seeing the road anymore. He's only thinking of what Dean said, their fight and how much Sam really wanted to hurt Dean. The things they said to each other and this time Sam isn't sure there's a way to fix things but then he doesn't think there's a way back from this. The fight ahead…taking down Lilith…that's what Sam has been working towards since Dean was dragged down to Hell. It's all he's been able to focus on and just when he's managed to sort of function like a normal human being- as close to it- Dean shows up.
How can angels be on his side? Why didn't they do anything before Dean was torn to shreds and tortured?
Sam feels guilty, he can't help it but then, Dean is better off far away from all of it.
Ruby's just happy the nurse finally gave it up and they're heading in the right direction with Dean nowhere to be found and hopefully stays that way just long enough to get this done. Its not far now and then her part is all done. The kicking in the trunk starts up again but she ignores it. She's just a little proud of the BoyKing because Ruby was sure that once whinny Cindy McClellan, RN and meatsuit started on her 'Please, please, oh please let me go' blubbering, Sam would cave. Then again, cracking jokes about the dead nuns hadn't gotten her more than a raised eyebrow- yeah, totally not the same but still… her BoyKing was pushing on.
But it's the damn cell phone Sam keeps glancing at that makes her antsy. He isn't playing the new message but she knows him and sooner or later he will.
"What are you - a 12-year-old girl? Just play it already."
"Mind your own business."
And she would only that message is her business because it can fuck up her plan. There's a little squabble and Ruby is still working Sam, keeping on the path to darkness but then it always in the last run when they start wanting to back out. Human instinct but Ruby can still pull Sam around to where she wants him. She knows his buttons and he's not even paying attention.
When they get to ST. MARY'S CONVENT Sam stands in front of the sign while Ruby waits by the car. Watching. Cindy hasn't given up and they can both hear her creaming in the trunk.
"Sam, it's time. Are we doing this or not?"
"Give me a minute to think."
"Sam -."
"Give me a damn minute, Ruby!"
"Better think fast." But even so, Ruby still has some tricks of her own. It doesn't matter how much he tries to hide the phone, she can see him pull it out. Her lips move while Sam listens.
"Listen to me, you bloodsucking freak. Dad always said I'd either have to save you or kill you. Well, I'm giving you fair warning. I'm done trying to save you. You're a monster, Sam - a vampire. You're not you anymore. And there's no going back."
Ruby smirks watching his shoulders slump. He makes no pretence of hiding the phone after that and Sam feels his eyes burn, his chest ache… he didn't think Dean would give up on him… they're brothers.
"Do it."
"Thank god." She rolls her eyes and turns to the trunk, her grin blooming in the darkness as she rounds the car and pops the trunk.
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Sam enters the sanctuary and faces Lilith. His heart thumps loudly in his ears drowning out everything else. He flicks a hand and Lilith goes flying across the room where she slams into the altar. She crumples on the ground, her head slowly rising to look up at Sam.
"I've been waiting for this... for a very long time."
Lilith smiles. She's been waiting for him too.
"Then give me your best shot."
Sam reaches out a hand knocking Lilith back into the marble where she writhes-. He stops and looks back to the door.
"Sam! Sam!"
Sam is confused because he's almost sure that's his brother. "Dean?"
Ruby yells at him but even her voice is faint, more so than Dean's-
Lilith's laughter grates- cuts through the loud thundering beat of his heart.
"You turned yourself into a freak. A monster. And now you're not gonna bite? I'm sorry, but that is honestly adorable."
Sam raises his hand and again Lilith writhes against the marble she's pinned against. Something changes, there's an ease to his use of the power and Sam never notices how his eyes fill up until they're completely black. He doesn't even register Lilith's gasping breath at the end, or the glow suffusing her body because Sam is focused on the rush of power surging through him. Its better than anything he's felt before but there's something else about it that scares him.
Lilith falls face down on the floor.
The sound of his heartbeat slows.
Ruby is almost giddy seeing this. She moves past Sam and circles Lilith's body in awe. "You did it. I mean, it was a little touch-and-go there for a while, but...you did it."
Blood pours out of Lilith's body in a steady stream that flows directly into what looks like a circle. Sam looks confused, his eyes flick from Ruby to Lilith with suspicion and there's the beginnings of doubt.
"What? What - what did I do?" he's almost afraid of what she will say.
"You opened the door. And now he's free at last. He's free at last!" Ruby giggles, her eyes sparkling even while Sam shakes his head in denial.
"No, no. No, he - Lilith - I stopped her. I killed her!"
"And it is written that the first demon shall be the last seal. And you bust her open. Now guess who's coming to dinner." Ruby practically squeals.
"Oh, my god."
"Guess again." She smirks ignoring the pounding on the door where Dean is still trying to get in. right, now its all about her. "You don't even know how hard this was! All the demons out for my head. No one knew. I was the best of those sons of bitches! The most loyal! Not even Alistair knew! Only Lilith! Yeah, I'm sure you're a little angry right now, But, I mean, come on, Sam! Even you have to admit - I'm - I'm awesome!" and she laughs because really… Sam could've stopped at any time. He could've listened to Dean who was right the whole time-
"You bitch. You lying bitch!" and Sam's first instinct is to thrust his hands at her, trying to use his powers. Pain fills his head and he drops to his knees digging his fingers into his hair trying to press the pain out or numb it. There's nothing left and realizes Ruby knew what would happen. He blames Ruby for all of it, the blood–
"No. It wasn't the blood. It was you... and your choices. I just gave you the options, and you chose the right path every time. You didn't need the feather to fly; you had it in you the whole time, Dumbo! I know it's hard to see it now... but this is a miracle. So long coming. Everything Azazel did, and Lilith did. Just to get you here. And you were the only one who could do it." That was the one thing Ruby never lied to him about.
"Why? W-why me?" he doesn't get it. He doesn't see how close they've come to parallel the brothers Able and Cain.
"Because... because it had to be you, Sammy. It always had to be you. You saved us. You set him free. And he's gonna be grateful. He's gonna repay you in ways that you can't even imagine."
The doors breaks and Ruby turns to face Dean, gloating. "You're too late."
Sam gets to his feet, hands reaching for Ruby as Dean starts towards them.
"I don't care." Dean pulls the knife and Sam holds her in place as his brother stabs Ruby. She flickers from the inside, her expression shocked. This isn't the ending she was promised.
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Kris feels the pain burn through her entire body and while she's sad about dying at leas there won't be anymore torture. She can have some peace from the demon…
When the glow doesn't fade she focuses on the voice that surrounds her. It has no gender but the words are gentle and she's soothed. She can choose to move on, she can go to heaven and wait for Junior and the kids.
She can have her peace…
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