Okay I said in the last chapter that she remembered that they were in love right? So they went out before... Who ended it? Simple Robin did, he moved away he told her long distance relationships don't work out and he ended it saying they will just be friends on with the story.
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She had closed the door to his room and the next thing she knew she was face to face with all the titans. "What did you do!" Starfire was the first to accuse her. Batgirl wanted to think something mean about her in her mind but she now knew there was a mind reader in the group, "Nothing now excuse me I have places to be, people to see. People to block from reading my mind..." she said sending a glare at Raven, she had felt a small tug in her mind trying to get in but Raven stopped when Batgirl caught her. "He's asleep you should probably wake him in a couple of hours, no signs of amnesia yet, he's got a concussion. That's about it really gotta go now, bye." Before they could question her anymore she fled the scene.
She quickly got on her motorcycle which came out of nowhere. She again, to her displeasure, she changed in another dirty alley, into her jogging clothes. Once she had her headband on and water bottle in hand she jogged over to her hotel that was a couple streets away. Her batgirl costume was in her bag that she brought with her. She threw some of the water on her to add detail that she was sweating, and with a quick pray she entered her temporary apartment. She saw her dad in the kitchen filling out some papers. He looked up at her when she entered. "Morning." then he went back to filling out the papers. "Hi daddy, did you get the note?" she said extra nice. "Uh-oh what'd you do Barbara?" said her father concerned. "Hey! I didn't do anything!" she was hurt, how come everybody was accusing her, was it pick on Barbara day? "Then what do you want me to buy you?" her dad asked. "I... wah? No, I don't want anything, though some new boots I wouldn't mind... ugh nevermind so I'm guessing you read the note?" she said getting back to the subject. "Yes," he then got up and went to go make his usual coffee, "Want a cup?" he asked her. She nodded her head no, she was exhausted all that running around at night, and her 'jog' took a lot out of her. She showered and plopped down on her huge, warm, comfy bed to get some much deserved rest.
(Later with the Teen Titans)
Robin had awoken about 2 hours later, he still had one killer head-ache but it wasn't as bad as before. The lights were dim, no one was in the room but him. He decided he should try out talking ability. "See sel sea salls by da sea sore," (She sells sea shells by the sea shore) Um it was good enough for him. He slowly got out of bed, good no dizziness so that meant he didn't have to stay in bed. He remembered everything, that was also another good sign though he wished he could forget, humiliating and devastating. He was brave though, so he left the room, with his head held high, time to face his team. After he took off those ridiculous bandages that is. He went to the bathroom and slowly started to take off the bandages infront of the mirror. He looked at the 'scratch' yeah, it looks better with them on he quickly patched it back up. He walked into the main room aka the living room.
"BOOYEAH BABY! I beat you again!" Cyborg said with a victory smirk to BB. BB dropped his head in defeat, "no way that's like the 20th time! Your cheating!" Robin cleared his throat. They all stopped what they were doing and looked at him. Next thing he knew Starfre was hugging him, Raven was slowly floating over, beast boy and Cy had ran over already. "Dude what happened? Are you okay? Does it hurt? Shouldn't you be in bed? Batgirl left. So you let them see your eyes but wont let us? What's up with that? What did you do at night? Was there a fight? WHAT HAPPENED!" They all asked fast and at the same time.
"Woah, sloo dow-n." He said clutching his forehead Still couldn't speak right. They instantly shut up. "Won-der happen uh..." he tried a way to explain this. "Yeah yeah go on!" The green teen said impatiently. "Um, crash-d..." he said sheepishly, Please don't ask how, please don't ask he mentally begged. "How?" Raven said sensing he didn't want to say. "Uh har-d t-to tal-k" he said "g-ivve mme som hour-s." he said slowly forcing his words to work and come out somewhat right. "Why don't you just wright it down?" Raven suggested. Gee thanks he thought sourly, robin didn't want to be mean but he really wasn't up for explaining. Starfire gave him a pen and a paper. He wrote:
The concussion gave me a killer headache, and it affected my brain. I don't know for how long it will be until I can speak normal for now I can't really talk much without sounding well weird. But on the good news no memory loss, no cracked skull, and no dizziness. What did Batgirl tell you?
Then he handed the note to Cyborg who read it out loud. "She just said you guys ran into trouble then she just ran off. Look Rob, I know she's like a old friend and all but there's just something about her that we find what's the word?" Cy said thoughtful. "Our short friendship with her still has not gained our full trust with her," Starfire said with distaste. Robin took the paper back and wrote: Soo you don't like her? Oh and yeah we ran into trouble, I crashed leave it at that. He handed the paper to Starfire. She read it. "Hmm, not that we dislike your friend, it is more of a we have no trust with her." she answered him. Robin was slightly upset by this, he wanted the titans to trust Babs just as much as he did, maybe it will just take a little time. "I have no problem with her," Beast Boy said smiling at Robin. He nodded his head to show he understood he then proceeded to leave but Starfire stopped him. "Should you not be in bed and rest?" she asked concerned for her boy friend. He pulled away and wrote one last thing down: No, if you have a concussion you do not need to stay in bed at all. I'm going to my room, do not disturb me only if you absolutely need me. Then he gave the note back to Star. He left without even saying bye. Something weird was going on, but what could of it been.
A couple hours later in the tower, the boys were all in their rooms which left the girls by them selfs in the main room.
"Friend Raven, may I ask you something." Star poke up.
"Depends on the question, no I will not make cookies with you, yes you can sit there quietly." Raven said wishing she could be left alone. Starfire stared at her confused. Raven noticing that she didn't get the clue she just let her ask the question, "Go ahead" she told the alien princess. "Does Robin seem more distant," Star asked worried. "No, I haven't noticed anything." Raven answered her hopping that's all she wanted. Starfire still looked worried so Raven had to reassure the girl. "Look Starfire I'm sure it s nothing, maybe he's just tired from that bang on the head, you guys were laughing just the other day right?" "Yes", Starfire said meekly. "Then I'm sure you have nothing to worry about." Raven said in her monotone voice. Starfire smiled widely and hugged Raven "Oh thank you friend Raven I needed that." Raven stayed there awkwardly, she wasn't a hugger. Lucky for her, Starfire had floated away humming some home planet song.
Robin had spent the last hours remembering about good times he had in Gotham. He was starting to do that a lot these days, he must of really missed Barbara is he couldn't stop thinking about her. But what about Starfire?
(The next Day)
He finally was able to talk straight, and he barely felt his headache. That put him on a good mood. He entered the living room and gazed at the scene. Cyborg wasn't here, but he could hear Cy working on his 'baby' in the garage. Beast Boy was playing a game with Starfire called 'Guess which animal I am' but Raven kept giving her all the answers which upset BB. Slightly different than the usual. Robin thought. Starfire noticed him and flew over, she gently took him by the hand and led him into her room. He smiled following the beautiful princess.
They stood there in silence before he could talk, Starfire pushed her lips on to his. He was surprised by the kiss, his eyes where open when he didn't kiss back she pulled away. "Is something the matter?" she said quietly. When she kissed him instead of seeing her face he saw hers, Babs. He violently shook his head, now that caused him to get dizzy. Once he stopped seeing two Starfires he answered her, "Just got a little dizzy there for a sec." He half lied, he wasn't about to tell her that a image of his best friend flashed into his mind, and besides he did get dizzy so it wasn't a complete lie. "Oh, I see your head." She kissed his forehead, "well then can we not just go to the beach for a walk?" "Uh, sure Babs, I uh mean Starfire." he said covering up quickly, either Starfire didn't hear him or just ignored it, because she said nothing and just took his hand.
While they walked the along the coast, his mind wandered. Starfire whispered something in his ear but he didn't listen, "What?" he asked turning to her. "Your friend is here." she said tightening her grip on his hand, he looked to see Barbara was a couple feet away, he tensed up. He didn't know what to say so he just watched her. She saw a flash of sadness on Batgirl's face but just for a second because she covered it with a fake smile "I'm glad your better today. Yeah, I keep coming in on you like this, but I don't have much time here and I wanna hang out with you before I leave. But I can see your busy at the moment so I'll comeback." She explained. He frowned he really did want to hang out with her. She began to walk away, "Batgirl! Wait!" Robin called out her. She quickly turned around, and Starfire tensed up. "Uh I mean uh let time for Beast Boy and Raven to get to know you, and uh Cyborg wants you to see his prize." "Oh." she said "Okay I guess," then she went into the titans tower. "Star what where you saying a little back something about your planet?" Robin said trying to get out of the awkward silence. "Ah yes! You see..."
Barbara did get to know the titans more, she thought that Cyborg car was really cool, which made Cyborg really beam inside she gained his good side, he spent about a hour explaining to her, and she had listened to every word. She thought Beast Boy turning into animals was really adrouable. She had petted his head when he turned into a dog and played with him as a kitten. Beast Boy never had any problems with her, he was enjoying the time he spent with her, and she giggled at his jokes! She found Raven's books very interesting, they had spent 2 hours reading her spell books. Raven only let her see them because she thought she wouldn't understand it and leave her alone, but when she got into them Raven accepted it. Barbara didn't want to put the books down, until Raven suggested meditation equaled concentration so she meditated. While being with the titans she ignored the pain in her heart that kept aching. Before she knew it, 6 hours had passed, she was having too much fun to notice time, but when she did notice... "Ahh! I'm soo late! Gotta go! Bye Rav, Cy, BB!" She said running off. They waved bye to her, that's was about when Robin had returned with Starfire. "Hey where's Batgirl?" he asked noticing she was gone. "Oh you just missed her, well she ran in the direction to the elevator." Beast Boy said pointing to that way. A part of Robin wanted to run after her but Starfire was glaring in that direction. "Rob, forget what we said bout her the other day, she's cool," Cyborg said grinning. That was all he needed, he ran off in that direction "Be back soon" he told Starfire. Starfire glared at him as he left, he better come back.
He just managed to catch the elevator before it closed, he stepped in and the door closed. "Hmmpth," she turned away from him. Robin panted and once he saw Batgirl he froze, he had no idea what to say. He stood up straight, uncomfortable he absentmindedly ran a hand through his hair. Barbara glanced at him from the corner of her eye. "I uh..." he started to say. She rolled her eyes but still laughed at him, "Say your sorry." She said still not facing him. "Sorry? Sorry for what?" he asked stupidly. Barbara jaw clenched, I could give you a million reasons as to why be sorry, for one not being here, two forgetting about me, three breaking up with me, four running away, five being a jerk, six for replacing me with a alien, seven for never staying in touch, eight for changing, nine for breaking my heart, ten for making me fall in love with you all over again oh I could go on forever she thought this all bitterly. "OH, for not being here the whole day, sorry" he said getting the clue. She couldn't help herself to smile, ugh stupid boys! She faced him again "Whatever I spent some time with your friends, they where really awesome. I guess I'll see you tomorrow if your not too busy for me..." she said annoyed. "No! I mean yeah I'll have the time no I won't leave this time" he said. She brightened up and hugged him, he hugged back. Then the elevator door opened and she ran out of there leaving him behind.
Robin took the elevator back up, he got the feeling he was missing something but his tiny brain couldn't put it together. He made Babs feel bad, but something wasn't right, the whole time he was with Starfire all he cared about was getting here to see her, but what the hell was he missing? frustrated he stomped into his room to figure it out, ignoring Starfire when she called his name. Starfire now knew something was up, she too stormed into her room, or in this case flew into her room.
In her room she paced trying to figure this out. Robin was not paying attention to her when she spoke, and shen he seemed like he was he would just laugh even though she said nothing funny. Not to mention he called her Babs? What is a Babs? Giving up she went to the music playing device and focused on the music. Music was happy and brought cheer that would make her feel happy.
'Forever and Always' by Taylor Sift was on.
Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday, when I caught your eye. And we caught onto something, I hold on to the night. You looked into, my eye and told me you loved me.
Were you just kidding? Cause it seems to me This thing is breaking down, we almost never speak. I don't feel welcome anymore. Baby what happened? Please tell me. Cause one second it was perfect, now you're half way out the door.
And I stare at the phone and he still hasn't called. And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothin at all. And you flashback to when he said, forever and always. Oh, oh Oh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong. It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone. Cause I was there when you said forever and always.
Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest. That made you run like a scared little boy? I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute. Now I'm not so sure.
So here's to everything, coming down to nothing. Here's to silence that cuts me to the core. Where is this going? Thought I knew you for a minute. But I don t anymore.
And I stare at the phone and he still hasn't called. And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothin at all. And you flashback to when he said, forever and always. Oh, oh Oh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong. It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone. Cause I was there when you said forever and always. You didn't mean it, baby, I don't think so. Oh, oh.
Oh, back up, baby, back up, did you forget everything? Back up, baby, back up, did you forget everything? Cause it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong. It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone. Cause I was there when you said forever and always.
Oh, I stare at the phone and he still hasn't called. And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothin at all. And you flashback to when he said, forever and always. And it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong. It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone. Cause I was there when you said forever and always. YOU didn't mean it, baby, you said forever and always
She understood this song for some reason. Was it beginning to end with her and Robin? No, he was acting a little weird but it wouldn't end in a break up... would it? Now, Starfire understood how Raven said not all songs are happy.
In his room. He thought back on the first days she came, when she had him pinned down to the floor he couldn't believe it was her, she was so happy to see him but there was something that was off. She was too happy, almost like a act. Then he upset her telling her that he had a girlfriend, he could of sworn she looked like she was about to break. Then when they sparred it was so amazing was the only way he could describe it, when she stayed for dinner he tried to ignore the guilt he felt by laughing with Starfire but he did notice she looked miserable. She distracted him and if he wasn't thinking about her he would of never crashed, what did it mean? then today he called Star Babs! What was wrong with him. He didn't get this, this, this love? Yeah love, he needed an expert, Bruce, butttt he was kinda mad at Bruce so he couldn't ask him so he did the next best thing, he turned on the radio. He switched the radio stations until it landed on a song he never heard before, 'She ain't you.'
You make it hard for me to see somebody else, I'm calling her your name. Yeah it's messed up, cause I'm thinking 'bout you. It's your fault babe.
I never wanted us to break up, no not this way. But you don't understand girl. When she holds my hand, I'm wishing that it was yours. And with her it's like we only talk about weather. With you we talked hours about anything and everything. And if I could, just trade her in I would. Cause nobody compares to ya. No, yeah
[Chorus]
I think I better let her go, cause I can't leave you alone. Every day that I'm with her, all I want is you. I wanna leave but I'm afraid that you don't even feel the same. And now I realize she ain't you. Oh(no she ain't you) Whoa oh oh( Na na na) She ain't, no she ain't you.
[Verse]
I've been missing sleep, for quite some nights now. It's just not the same. But if she(Starfire) found what's going on in my head, it'll be all back have me right back. But you don't understand girl. When she holds my hand, I'm wishing that it was yours. And with her it's like we only talk about weather. With you we talked hours about anything and everything. And if I could, just trade her in I would. Cause nobody compares to ya.
I think I better let her go, cause I can't leave you alone. Every day that I'm with her, all I want is you. I wanna leave but I'm afraid that you don't even feel the same. And now I realize that she ain't you. Oh(no she ain't you)
He turned off the radio, no, no it must be something else. I mean leaving Star for Babs isn't right or is it? No, yes, no, yes... ahhh! "Stupid radio" he muttered, making him more confused. Radio didn't help at all. He needed to get to the bottom of this.
He need to ask Bruce, thinking positive thoughts he called his old mentor, his ... father. "Hello, Bruce Wayne speaking," Bruce said. Robin's mouth didn't want to move. "Hello?" Bruce asked again. Dick shakily held his cell phone to his ear, he hadn't spoke with him in the longest but this was important, kinda well to him it was. "B-bruce... um it's me... Dick." Bruce stunned didn't know what to say for moment. "And you chose now after all this time to call why?" Bruce said his voice on the tip of yelling. "B-bruce please don't start..." Dick didn't wan't to argue with the man he just wanted to talk. "You calling to say hi or you want something?" Bruce said finding a way to talk to his ward. Dick blushed wow he knew him well, Ummmm what to say, "Barbara?" he said accidently out loud. "What about her?" he heard Bruce reply. Robin didn't know what to say so he spat out the first thing that came into his head, "She distracted me and I crashed into a building and I got a concussion." Bruce quirked an eyebrow at his phone "Um, are you okay?" "Yes," Dick said blushing he really did not just say that to him did he, oh god he did! "Is that all?" Dick didn't reply. "Look, Dick I'm very busy so if you don't have anything to say I have to go..." "Wait! I want, to k-know what happened to her after I left." he whispered the last part. This time Bruce was the one who took awhile to reply.
"She changed..." he said trailing off. "How? Why? Like good change or bad?" Robin asked curious. He could hear Bruce sighing on the other end, "Look how do I explain this... For the first week that you had left, she was traumatized, we were all very worried but Barbara... Let's just say she got into a deep depression, I'll spare you the details. Then she just got over it, I don't know how she just did, but she wasn't herself. She acted immature, always joking, but she didn't slack on her training in fact she tried harder than I ever saw her try before. The point is your departure affected her deeply, it affected us all. I hate to do this but I really have to go now," Bruce said impatiently. "Ok bye then, um next time I call it will be to say hello," Robin told him and they both clicked at the same time. This conversation with Bruce gave him a lot of new things to think about. But he hated that what he felt the most was the guilt, everything is making him feel guilty.
He turned back on the stupid radio because he might just die from guilt if he didn't take his mind off this, maybe the music could just make him drift to sleep and forget it all. It better not be another love song. He regretted turning on the radio and he didn't even hear the song yet! 'I never told you' was on by Colbie Caillat.
I miss those blue eyes. How you kissed me at night. I miss the way we sleep. Like there's no sunrise, like the taste of your smile. I miss the way we breathe.
But I never told you, what I should of said, no I never told you, I just held it in. And now I miss everything about you. I can't believe I still want you, after all the things we been through. I miss everything about you, without you.
I see your blue eyes, every time I close mine. You make it hard to see, where I belong to when I'm not around you. It's like I'm not with me.
But I never told you, what I should of said, no I never told you, I just held it in. And now I miss everything about you (still you gone). I can't believe I still want you, (while loving you I should of never walked away) after all the things we been through. I miss everything about you, without you.
But I never told you, what I should of said, no I never told you, I just held it in. And now I miss everything about you(still your gone). I can't believe I still want you, after all the things we been through. I miss everything about you, without you.
That song made him think about how Barbara must of felt, he pulled the cord off the radio, and took the radio then threw it out the window. Stupid radio. he felt guilty already leave him alone cruel world! He stuffed his face into his pillow. He wanted bang his head against the wall but he didn't want his forehead to start to bleed again.
That night he thought of how depressed Alfred and Bruce must of been when he left. And he could only imagen what Barbara had felt, he didn't even want to think how Starfire would feel if he broke up with her. But if he didn't do it, what would happen to Barbara? He missed Gotham but he couldn't leave Jump. Every decision he made would tare him apart in one way.
Ha this one was longer... ah finally done with this chapter what did you guys think?