~Things Will Never Be The Same~

The next few days, all our attention went to Pixie. Zayn and I didn't have time to continue where we left off that day. I wanted to so bad, and I kept stealing glances at him everytime we're together. But somehow, I sensed that he didn't feel the same. He avoided my glances, and rarely talk to me. It made me furious how he could just lead me on like that, then immediately avoided me in an instant.

Pixie was feeling better from her break-up as the days went on. She told us that her and Joe were already having problems in their relationship due to the pressure of the tour, and she expected him to break it off. She didn't realised how much it would hurt her when he finally did. The rest of the members and her fellow dancers also lent their support to her. I saw Harry trying to comfort her occasionally. They were always seen together during lunch breaks, and knowing Harry, I'd figured he was just trying to cheer her up.

I tried my luck with Zayn again and tried to start a normal conversation. I used to be able to just talk with him about all things under the weather, but ever since he'd shut me off, it was getting harder to think of a way to talk to him. I felt offended somehow that he could just easily ignore me. And it wasn't even my fault. He was the one who made the move on me, so he had no right to suddenly not want me anymore. With Zayn not talking to me, and Pixie busy with her dance rehearsals, I found no purpose in visiting them during tour rehearsals anymore. It felt like I was back to square 1, being the outsider and no one to talk to. I was at my loneliest point yet and I missed my best friend so much. I kept wishing he would just talk to me. I didn't care anymore about the small moment we had before. It was nothing, we were both just having harmless fun, and that almost-kiss just something that happened in the heat of the moment. I didn't want any romance between Zayn and I; I just wanted my best friend back.

I couldn't take being at home anymore, so I decided to visit the studio during lunch hour. But I second-guessed myself when I reached the entrance, and was just about to turn back, when I heard a little Irish voice calling up my name.

"Lila? Hey, it's been so long since I saw you here! Where've you been? Everyone's been asking, and Zayn clearly knows nothing," he said.

At the mention of Zayn's name, my smile immediately faded. I had to stop myself from letting my tears fall in front of Niall again. I guessed he sensed he'd said something wrong, because he panicked and started stumbling over his words as he tried to correct his slip of word.

"I'm sorry..I..I didn't mean it like that..I meant Zayn does know where you are..just that..just that..he gave us a very vague answer..we didn't get anything much from him.."

I smiled at his attempt to make me feel better. "It's okay, I know Zayn doesn't know why I haven't been here a lot these days." I reassured him. "Zayn and I are in quite a rough patch these days..so we haven't been talking much."

Niall fidgeted uncomfortably.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable. I know it's personal stuff between Zayn and I. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to include you in our drama, I know you guys are close too." I apologised quickly.

"No, no, feel free to let it out on me. I told you before, I'm right here when you need me. I mean, I have noticed you guys are not on talking terms like you used to be, I saw you wandering around alone sometimes. I wanted to talk to you but I just felt it was rude of me if I were to point it out to you straight in the face."

I smiled at his remark. He's always been afraid to talk to me, hadn't he? I guessed he cared about my feelings too much, that he's scared he might say the wrong things that might offend me. "Niall, next time you wanna talk to me, just approach me. Nothing you say to me can hurt me, that's how special you are to me. You simply make me smile" And I gave him a little pinch on his cheeks, just cause he's too adorable to resist. He blushed again, which made me giggle. I like making him all shy and blush-y.

Niall and I continued chatting while walking around the area. We didn't even stepped into the studio and I was grateful that he didn't forced me to. We had a nice lovely walk, then I accompanied him for lunch at Nando's because that was where he was heading to before he saw me. We laughed and joked about how he's always hungry and the inside joke among the fans about how Nando's was his girlfriend. I was enjoying his company so much, that I forgot that he still had work to do back at the studio. So when the time came for us to go our own ways, I actually felt disheartened. He managed to make me forget about Zayn for once.

When I reached home again, I went on Twitter, and decided to mention him. I tweeted: Hung out withNiallOfficial and his girlfriend haha. Had lotsa fun, we should do it again sometime! XP

That should stir up some trouble in the entertainment world, I laughed to myself. A few minutes later, Niall replied me with: Hahaha, that's funny! Yeah we should, it'll make me and my gf both happy:D

To be honest, I beamed when I saw his reply, especially since he played along with my joke. We tweeted each other 2-3 times, before there's nothing to tweet about anymore. After a few hours though, I regretted writing the joke about Niall's girlfriend because I was receiving lots of tweets from fans who were panicking that their favourite Irish boy has a girlfriend already. It was funny at first to see them all stirred up, but then it started getting annoying. So I decided to clear things up and tweeted: Okay guys, chill..me and NiallOfficial were just joking ard, Nando's was the gf, we ate there just now. Sorry guys;)

Niall seemed to be having the same problem because he immediately retweeted that tweet. 'I am obviously so bored. I hope I didn't make him angry,' I thought to myself.