~Maybe I'm Amazed~

"Niall..what will happen to us once the tour ends?"

He turned abruptly at my question and dropped his guitar pick accidentally. He picked it up, then stood up again staring at me as if I had just asked him the most absurd question ever. But I was dead serious.

"Wh-what do you mean 'what will happen to us'? We'll still be together, if that's what you're asking,"he said unconvincingly.

"I mean, after the tour, you'll be going back to London, and then I'll be back in Bradford then how's this thing going to work? Long-distance relationships always end up in disaster and -"

"Wait, what do you mean you'll be back in Bradford?" he interrupted.

I was taken aback by his question actually and said confusedly, "I'm going to continue my studies back home. I thought I told you that before?"

"Yeah, when I first met you and you weren't my girlfriend yet!" His eyes were wide open in shock.

"Niall, just because I'm attached to you doesn't mean I still don't want to continue my studies! I mean, if I don't do this, how am I gonna find a good job? I need my education.."I trailed off.

"I know, I know but why can't you do that in London? Get a place near us, then we'll get to see each other more" He lit up at his own idea.

I sighed, and took a seat. "I'm sorry. I just don't have the money to move that far. This tour is already so out of my league and having you here by my side is the best thing that's ever happened to me but I can't. I have to go back home. And anyways, I miss my dad and I think I want to spend some time with him."

We sat there in silence, trying to think of something. But we both know there's no easy solution out of this. I was going to spend a very long time away from Niall, whether I like it or not. Just thinking about it upset me, so I wanted to leave. But I stopped when Niall said something.

"Guess we better cherish these last week we'll have together," he muttered sadly.

I smiled sadly, and went to kiss him before I leave.

We had just celebrated our 2nd month anniversary and so far, things had been great. Niall was my 24/7 and we rarely fight. We had a simple celebration; just a dinner together. We agreed to simple gifts so I gave him a watch, and he gave me a necklace. But the funny thing was that, the watch that I gave him had the carving 'NL' on it, and the necklace that he gave me had a customised 'NL' on it. It was purely coincidental and we found that out after we exchanged gifts and we had quite a laugh about it. Now, everytime I look at my necklace I couldn't help but giggle a bit to myself because I'll be replaying the scene again in my mind.

That last week before we part, we literally spent every minute together. We had breakfast together, lunch and dinner together. And we'll always have something to talk about every time. I was by the stage watching him perform every night. It was rare to see us apart. We had another talk about how we're gonna continue our relationship and we decided that it was best if we just follow the flow and try to call whenever we can. We're both matured enough to handle this.

I was to leave for Bradford alone, because Zayn and Pixie both lived in London now that their career had taken off. On the day we said our goodbyes, I told myself not to cry, but in the end I did. Because I know there's no way I'll save up enough money for a plane ticket to see them anytime soon. Money was tight around my family, and I wasn't open to letting Niall or Zayn pay for me. I hugged everyone and saved the last goodbyes for Pixie, Zayn and Niall.

"I'm gonna miss you guys so much!" I said as I hugged Pixie and Zayn.

"Yeah, us too. We're gonna try to come back as many times as possible alright. You go study hard, and make us proud." Pixie said.

Zayn smiled sadly and said,"Good luck in your studies, and say hi to my family too. They told me to tell you that you are always welcome in the house. Don't cry alright, we'll be meeting each other very soon and by then, I better see that you're a successful woman already! I love you so much!"

I laughed in between my tears. Then I hugged them again before meeting Niall, who was waiting for me already. I approached him, and he immediately extended his arms for me to go into. I went for the hug, and for a long time we just embraced each other like that. Then he pulled me apart.

"I love you Lila. And I really need you with me. But I want you to know, that I understand why you have to do this. And I wish that you didn't have to go," he said, tears already forming in his eyes.

"I know. I love you too Niall. Just hold onto that alright,"I breathed out, wiping my tears. I gave him one last kiss, then picked up my suitcase before setting off for my plane. I looked back to see him one last time and saw him crying his heart out. I just wanted to turn back and give him another hug. But I kept walking.