Author: R&R! please. I do not own Inuyasha.
Kagomes eyes slightly open before closing again and snuggling into the warm body next to her letting it wrap its arms around her protectively. Wait, warm body? Arms? Her eyes shot open as she pulled away almost falling out of the bed.
Lucky for her Kouga caught her in time. "Well, good morning to you to beautiful."
He smirked slightly at the confused girl staring at him. "Oh..my..god! Kouga! What am I doing here?"
Her eyes scanned the walls bringing back memories of her past with Kouga. She had not been here for years, and never had she fell asleep in his bed before.
"Relax Kagome. After I tryed taking you home from the bar last night you refused to go home. I could get out of the bar, but home. Nope wasn't gonna happen. So I brought you here with me." He tryed explaining it slowly, watching her reaction.
She glared, "Alright, but why am I in your bed?" She challenged him. He thought about messing with her head for a moment, but figured right now she didn't need that.
"You didn't wanna be alone... I tryed letting you sleep in the bed I was gonna sleep on the floor, but you again, refused to let me leave your side. So I didn't." He pulled her into his lap holding her close.
Kagome couldn't figure out what had happened. Then as she scanned her memory, regret hit her like the bitch it was. "Inuyasha..."
Kouga looked at her, trying to hide the anger at hearing that name. "Hm?" He simply replied to her mumble. "Kikyo... She won."
Kouga sighed. "Whos Kikyo? I know shes his ex, but what the hell?"
He couldn't figure out why Kikyo wanted Inuyasha back after not being with him for a year, and him being with someone else. It just didn't add up to him.
Kagome sighed rubbing her head. "She dumped him two years ago, because she was moving out of state for a great job she got offered. Shes 22 now she was 20 when she got offered it." She slowly explained it for him, trying to fix some of his confusion.
"Anyway, Inuyasha was heart broken. I knew the feeling... When he looked at me he figured he could replace Kikyo with me. And I figured I could get over my heart break by moving on with him..." She sighed shaking her head.
Kouga growled a bit, but let her go on with what she had to say, "The full year he treated me like I was her, mistakingly calling me her name sometimes. I ingored it through. Thinking it would end." She crused herself for that. She'd always hate herself for making the mistake that was Inuyasha.
"Anyway, once the year ended... I heard rumors that Kikyo was back around looking for someone. I'm guessing...She decided she wanted him back. Well she can have him! I'm done!" Her hands were in fist and she was shaking.
Kouga wrapped his arms tighter around her, trying to comfort her. "Its gonna be okay Kagome. I promise."
Kagome pulled away and stood looking at him. "How would you know damnit? The past seems to always repeat! If you don't remember, this isn't the first time this as happened!" She turned punching a wall. Kouga had never seen Kagome this mad before. He felt guilty, saddness, regret.
"Kagome, If I could re-do that time... I would in a heart beat. You know that!" He stood up taking her hands in his. "Kagome, I love you. Back then we were younger. I knew you hated smokers and druggys, but I still tryed it. And when I did, Shelly saw her chance and took advantage of it." His blue orbs looked into her icey blue ones trying to see anything, forgiveness of any kind.
Even if he didn't deserve it. He still wanted it more than anything on this planet.
However when he looked in her eyes, there was nothing, no hope, no love, just blank. Her face was emotionless.
As her phone rang she stared at Kouga. "hello" Quietness ... "Oh," more quietness... "Bye." She hung up. She turned and slowly starting making her way out of his home. Kouga stared after her. Realizing as she walked away, that
Kagome was broken. His Kagome, was broken.
She sat in the hosptail waiting room quietly. Kouga stayed next to her. The doctor all to soon walked out. "Kagome?" The miko stood up and looked at the doctor. "Yes? How is he?"
The doctors sad eye's said it all. "He was unable to beat it. Your mother is in the room with him saying goodbye, you probably should too. I'm so sorry for your loss." Kagome walked past the man, Kouga followed behind her not sure what to do.
As she entered the room she walked over hugging her mother to her gently. "It's gonna be okay mom." Her mother sobbed into Kagomes shoulder, as the teenager looked down at her grandfather.
She closed her eyes moving one arm over and holding his hand. "I will miss you grandpa." Was the only sentence she said out loud, as she looked at yet another lost family member from the damn diease.
Walking down the street in blue jeans and a white T-shirt the girl stayed away from everyone. Flinching whenever someone looked at her.
She kept moving forward until the couple infront of her stopped walking and stared. "Kagome..." The male said.
The girl backed up and looked Kikyo up and down. She noticed the little bump in her belly. She wanted to ask her how far along she was, but she could not find the words. Partly because she had not talked in over a year to anyone, and partly cause she thought it would be weird.
The almost adult walked around the couple before Inuyasha grabbed her arm then looked at his mate. "Can I talk to her for a minute?" Kikyo nodded and waited there for him as he pulled Kagome farther away out of hearing distance.
The girl stared at him wondering what this half breed that had lived for so many years, yet only looked 19 maybe 20 could possible want from her.
He sighed. "Kagome, I'm sorry for the way everything worked out... I really did start feeling something for you in that great year we had, but then Kikyo came back saying she was moving back here, she missed me. She knew about you, but kept telling me it was okay. That she would share only for now..." He looked down ashamed, waiting for her answer.
When he didn't get one he looked up. "Kagome? Please say something." The girl sighed and turned walking away. She didn't care he was sorry. Why should he be sorry about the choices he made?
In her mind she figured you should only be sorry if you regretted it. The miko however didn't care if he regretted it or not. She had long ago given up.
Nothing truely mattered to the girl anymore.
The arrow surrounded by silver aura hit the middle of the target, as she let it fly. Soon after she was punching and kicking a punching bag that hung from the ceiling.
She had turned the spot where the well was into her own place. She worked on her miko powers and fighting in there. It was the only thing she got any joy out of.
Only thing that could get her to think. Suddenly the door of the place opened and Kagome turned around seeing Kouga standing there.
Him, and Sango where the only ones who had not given up on her. And since Sango was engaged and getting married to Miroku now, mainly just Kouga still came around.
He smiled at her. "Hello Kagome." She only nodded at him before going back to punching the bag. Her leg flew up kicking it so hard at first Kouga thought it was gonna break from the ceiling and fly threw the damn side of the place.
"What has you so upset Kag's?" He sat on the well that had been closed up and made into a relaxing spot to rest since Kagome perfered to not sit on the ground.
She only looked at him and sighed shaking her head. Not even Kouga after all this time had gotten her to talk yet. Not that he blamed her. Her whole life had been fucked up. She had been so kind still threw all of it...
Until finally, she broke. He sighed standing up, and walking to her pulling her away from the bag and holding her tightly. She froze, tensing up.
She had not been held or touched, or wanted to be in so long. He had his arms wrapped around her waist refusing to let her go. She stared up at him.
And for the first time in a long time, Kouga saw feelings in her eyes. They showed her saddness, anger, confusion. She slowly moved her arms up and wrapped them around his neck.
He smiled, and at that moment as if it were magic Kagomes radio, she always had on in the room when she was in it, started playing a wonderful song.
'I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger.
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed.'
They danced moving side to side, and in circles holding each other tightly. Kagomes heart started beating fast. Something she welcomed, something she missed.
'I hope you still feel small
when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one
more opens'
Kagome listened to the song. One door did close. But maybe one did also open. She looked up into Kouga's eye's. Okay, so maybe that door didn't just open, it re-opened after she had closed it.
'Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance.
I hope you dance.'
Kouga spun her around before he pulled her back to him and holding her close again.
'I hope you never fear those mountians in
the distance.
Never settle for the path of least resistance.
Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin'.'
The next line hit Kagome like a bullet to the heart.
'Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin.
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to sellin' out reconsider.'
As Kouga smiled down at Kagome. She stopped dancing and he stood still holding her close wondering why she had stopped, until she reached up on the tip of her toes and kissed him.
'Give the heavens above more than just a
passing glace And when you get the choice
to sit it out or dance.'
As she kissed him she felt herself come back to life. She realized she wasn't alone, and someone, who was always there, was ready to help her, was always ready to help her.
'I hope you dance.
I hope you dance
I hope you dance.'
She made mistakes with love in the past, but she wouldn't let them control her any longer.
'I hope you still feel small when you stand beside
the ocean. Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens.
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance.'
Kagomes mind was spinning as Kouga held onto her tighter and her arms slid apart allowing her hands to rest on his shoulders.
'I hope you dance'
Kouga was shocked, it was un-expected, but he welcomed it all. Kissing her back with everything he had.
'I hope you dance
I hope you dance,'
(Tell me who wants to look back on their youth and wonder where
those years have gone?)'
Kagome re-moved her mouth from his and smiled at him. The wolf demon stood there in shock, not at the kiss but at the first words that left her mouth, in over a year. "I love you, Kouga."
Author: Song is by Leann Womack called "I hope you dance." (If you couldn't tell haha)
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