~Just A Kiss~

I twisted and turned about in bed. No position seemed right. I sat up, scratched my head and shook it all about in a desperate attempt to get some peace so that I could sleep. But there was just this uncomfortable feeling in my body, and my mind had been running in circles thinking about everything. At last, I gave up and went to shower. I hadn't had any sleep at all, and it was already 5AM. It was my first day back to school after my medical break, and I couldn't believe I hadn't had enough rest for it. I knew I had a lot to catch up on. No one in school had bothered to come by to hand me notes or anything so I had to rely on whatever I could find in the textbooks and the school website.

Pixie had returned back to London the week before because she needed her practice for her upcoming audition. Zayn had stayed behind and only returned last night. He had wanted to stay longer, but something happened between us and it felt only right for him to go off for a while. That incident that happened was partly why I couldn't sleep the whole night. I kept replaying the scene over and over again. A simple mistake. It wasn't meant to cause chaos. But it did. Because we were in public. We should have known better. But we were too caught up. We were naive. We thought there was nothing wrong with what we had done. But most obviously we were so wrong.

We were having our daily walk. The weather was very windy and cooling, perfect for a walk. We strolled along the park, taking in the breeze, laughing at silly little things. We stopped for a break and sat on the grass at our usual spot. There weren't a lot of people that day, maybe because it was a Tuesday morning. I tucked my sweater tighter because it was getting chilly. Zayn noticed and cuddled up to me, keeping me warm. I laughed at his random kindness.

"Thank you, this is nice," I smiled. He smiled shyly.

We sat there watching the clouds again. It could easily become my favourite pastime. There's something about the clouds that soothed me. The white puffy cotton-like clouds floating in the blue sky, it was all just peaceful. It's like a form of escape for me. The floating clouds would take all my problems away and just for a few moments, they would all disappear.

"Lila, have you ever thought of that kiss that almost happened between us?" Zayn suddenly asked, interrupting my thoughts.

I blinked my eyes a few times to get back to reality. I wasn't sure if I heard right what he had just asked me and raised my eyebrows at him.

"It's just, we've never talked about have we? And now that you're done with Niall, I was just curious,"he continued.

"Do you want it to happen? The kiss?" I asked hesitantly. I wasn't sure if I wanted to know the answer.

"Erm..no," he said rather unconvincingly.

"Then why'd you ask? Or even thought about it?" I continued questioning him. It was weird for him to suddenly talk about that after months of avoiding it.

"It came across my mind, well it had been for a few months now..and now that you're not with Niall anymore, I think it's not that inappropriate to bring it up, is it?"

"Well thanks for bringing him up. Now I've got him in my mind," I said sarcastically. He turned glum. "Well, don't be like that! Tell you what, yes I had thought about it. Just recently, never when I was dating Niall."

He looked up. "And?"

"And what? That's it. I've thought about it, and that's it. I guessed I missed kissing Niall and I thought of you instead since you're here," I babbled. Surprisingly, I didn't find this conversation awkward at all.

"So kiss me,"he said firmly.

I glanced at him. "What?" I laughed.

"Kiss me. It might help you get over Niall"

"Are you serious?"

He nodded. I thought about it, and what the consequences would be if we did.

"It's gonna be awkward if we did. No, I don't think we should. And we're in public,"I laid down my reasons.

"There's no one here. And listen, if there's no spark, I'll fly off to London and we're gonna forget it ever happened. Just one kiss."

I hesitated before I said,"Fine..just one."

I moved in closer, close enough that our noses were touching. "I can't believe we're doing this right now," I laughed nervously.

He laughed as well, before he placed his lips gently on my upper lip and pulled me in for the kiss. I was thinking how weird it felt. His lips were definitely softer than Niall's, and he tasted nothing like strawberries. It was weird, but it was nice. We were at it for a few seconds, before I stopped and gradually pull apart our lips. We stared at each other for a while, then we both started giggling into fits of laughter. It felt funny to be kissing your best friend.

"I'm sorry. That did not do anything for me. This is weird, kissing other boys,"I said, still giggling a bit.

"Yeah, I know. That did not go the way I thought it would be. Definitely not gonna happen again,"he laughed.

We forgot about the kiss almost immediately. Zayn said it was worth a try because he realised that it meant I was still in love with Niall, and perhaps I should try to win him back. That must have been the nicest thing anyone had told me ever since the breakup. We were back to living our normal lives, and we treated each other as usual. The kiss had never happened in our knowledge.

But unknown to us, someone was lurking around when the kiss happened and managed to take a picture of it and happily decided to post it online. So duhh, the fans went berserk, gossip sites went crazy with speculations about Niall, Zayn and I. We only knew about it when I checked my twitter. The first thing I did as soon as I saw it was to call up Zayn. He came by my house immediately, and we discussed what we had to do. Then I realised, Niall could have seen it. I was going to try to win him back, but I bet now he was going to think that I had moved on.

Since Niall and I still hadn't cleared up any breakup rumours, fans were angry at me for cheating on him. I asked Zayn to check his, if they were angry at him as well. They were very much angry at him too. I didn't know if I should clear it all up by saying that Niall and I were splitsville, because I just thought of getting back with him. But on the other hand, all these backlash that I was getting was becoming more ridiculous by the minute. I was praying for a solution to appear.

And sadly it did. A few minutes later, Niall tweeted: Hey guys, just wanna clear things up. I am single. So she's free to do whateva she wants:)

The pain I felt when I saw that tweet could not be described. It just felt like my heart had cracked and shattered. I felt my lips trembling, but I didn't want to cry. I had never cried over the breakup and I never intended to. But when I saw the tweet, it finally hit me that we were indeed over. It was like it finally was official. Zayn saw his tweet and when he saw me trying to be strong, he hugged me tight and I just broke down into tears. It was terrible. All the lost and lonely feelings poured out of me through the tears. I was crying because I missed him, because I wanted him back, because I loved him.

Zayn tweeted: Guys, I am still single. Lila is still my best friend only. That was a friendly kiss, nothing more. x

So after that incident, Zayn decided to leave for London to have a talk with Niall to clear everything up. He left me a few bucks for plane tickets, in case I had to visit them one day. I was still getting backlashed, now with fans who thought I had broken Niall's heart. They would never be satisfied with me. I had chosen to ignore all the angry tweets and just reply the nice ones. Worst part was, I was starting school again. People would know what had happened between us. I was getting myself into a whole load of torture around school. And I wasn't ready to face it. Alone.

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