This takes place the day after the last chapter

xxxxxxxxx

Liv was sitting at the table when Rachel got back from spending the day Tiffanys. Elliot had to go into work even though it was a Saturday. Rachel had looked nervous and Liv decided to call her out on it.

"Rachel whats wrong?"

Taken off guard she siad,"Oh nothing I'm fine"

"Rachel I live with you and I know how you act when you are fine and its not like this"

Defeated Rachel decided to give in,"Its Tommy"

"Whats wrong the inseperable duo having problems?" Liv asked

"I told him that we are on a break" Rachel said now sounding slightly depressed

"Honey I don't think I understand, you didn't mention liking anyone else and if you initialized it why are you so upset?"

"Well I am upset about the reasons why I did it" she explained recieving a confused look from Liv promptiing her to continue,"Well he came over to Tiffanys and well somehow we ended laying on the couch and we were watching a movie, he leaned down to kiss me and of course I kissed him back and we just sat there smiling for a moment when I realzed something absolutely terrible"

"Baby it doesn't sound terrible it sounds like he cares about you"

"Thats the problem he is so sweet to me and when I was looking at him it occured to me that he has never pressured me to ...you know" she trailed off

"Again I fail to see the terrible in the situation"

"I am not done Liv ...he has never pressured me and I love that but I am sure that the thought has probably crossed his mind , it had crossed mine and thats when I realized that even if I wanted to...do that ...I can't ...when I was raped something was taken from me and now I know that even when I think I'm ready I won't be all I'll see is the attack"

"Oh baby now I understand" Liv said now contemplating what to say next."Well does he know you were raped?"

"No it never came up" she replied on the verge of tears.

Liv saw that she was tearing up and pulled her into a hug. She stroked her hair as she said,"I think you should tell him, if he cares as much as it sounds like he does than he will understand"

"Yeah but what if he doesn't?" she asked now crying

"If he can't accept the fact that you were attacked and it may have left scars than he isn't worth it anyway, he should accept everything about you" Liv said

"I think your right I mean Tony accepted Tiffany" Rachel sai smiling through her tears

"Exactly "

" God Liv what would I do without you I mean there is no way I could talk to dad about that"

Olivia smiled and kissed the to of the girls head.She released her and then grabbed her by the shoulders and said,"Can I ask one thing though?"

"Yeah sure anything"

"Well havve you thought about doing that?" she asked kind of fearful of the answer

"Sex, I've thought about it but who hasn't but I know that however much I think about it I am gonna wait cause I know its important to be sure and trust me I am not"

Olivia sighed and said, "Ok I just had to make sure because I know that you are very smart and if you had made a decision to do that, even though i hope you don't anytime soon, I would want you to tell me unlike your father I wouldn't use brooding strength to sway you of your actions"

Rachel laughed and said,"Liv when I decide to go that far I am gonna need somebody to talk to and who else would I go to"

"Thats what I like to hear now I gotta go Megan is at a birthday party and I have to be there to pick her up in approximately 15 minutes" she said while looking at her watch

"Ok well do you mind if I go to Tiffanys to spend the night that was one of the reasons I came by"

"That should be fine I'll tell your father when he gets home"

Rachel smiled and kissed Livs cheek then ran towards her room. "Thanks again Liv" she said while grabbing the phone

The next day Rachel came back from Tiffanys early. She knew it was better to tell Tommy about the rape rather than later. She had invited him over for the afternoon. They were in her room and she was sitting on the bed doind homework while he was on her computer.

When he closed her laptop he sat next to her on the bed and she smiled and ggave him aquick kiss. She loved the fact that neither had said a word for a while. They could sit in silence and still enjoy eachothers company. But she also knew that it was now or never so when he sat on the bed next to her she began to speak,"Tommy well we've been dating for almost a year now and yeah we've had our arguements but well have you ...I mean ..Oh god...have you thought about sex?"

"Well of course but I woul never do that you know , I think about it I don't do it I just shake the thoughts away I know you've said that you aren't ready and I respect that" he said

"Yeah umm about that I need to tell you something kinda important to the reason why I am not ready"

"What is it babe?" he asked facing her and giving her his full attention.

"Well a few months before we started dating ...I..I was ..raped?"

He silent for a few seconds watching as she began to form tears in her eyes. This wasn't what he expected to hear and it took a few secods to register

"Please say something I mean if you want to leave you can I understand" Rachel said

"Leave? no ...are you ok? I mean no permanent damage right?" he asked snapping back to reality

"Not unless you count the fact that I am mentally hadicapped"

"Baby nothing is wrong with you...what happend to you was terrible and I had no problem waiting before I knew this but now it makes me understand it...gosh thats why that one day I snuck up on you , you nearly had a panick attack"

"Yeah wow that was a long time ago ...how did you remember that?"

"Well I remember thinking I did something wrong and I always remembered how bad I elt when you nearly cried in front of me"

She let out a nervous laugh," I was so scared to tell you" she confessed

"Why?" he asked shocked

"I thought that you would think I was broken or that you wouldn't want me anymore" she said. He simply pulled her close and hugged her"Never" he said.

That night he stayed for dinner and then went back to his house.Both felt closer to eachother and knew that this was where they belonged. Later that night after he was gone Rachel found Liv on the couch all by her lonesome.

"Liv I told him" Rachel said quietly sitting next to her on the couch

Olivia shifted her attention from the TV to Rachel,"And what happend?"

"God this kid is amazing he just said it explained why I wanted to wait and that what happend to me was terrible" she said

"Thats wonderful honey see I told you he was a good kid"

"I know and when I told him how worried I was about him not being able to handle it e just hugged me and just told me he wouldn't run"

"Liv ! have you seen my green shirt?" They heard Elliot yell from the bedroom.Olivia kissed Rachel on the forehead and said,"Rach you've got you a special boy now don't let him go if you want to talk more later we can but right now someones got to help your father" Rachel laughed then nodded her head.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Ok so it didn't have too much to do with the pregnancy but the next chapter will

Dont forget to review!