Disclaimer: I don't own One Tree Hill nor the characters.
This is the first story I have ever written. I absolutely suck at writing

BPOV
I get up get ready and go straight to the doctor's office, to say I am scared shitless is an understatement. I wish someone would come with me, but I have no one left.

As soon as I go to the doctor's office I get called in straight away.
"Thank you for coming Brooke. As I said to you over the phone we have your test results, but there not looking good. We need to run a few more tests and we will find out what it is"

"do you have any idea of what it might be?"
"now I don't want to scare you, but we think it might be cancer"

I just nod my head. I can feel the tears in the rims of my eye.

"ok brooke, this is going to hurt. After I get some samples you can stay near or around the hospital and we will call you back in for the results"

I guess the upside to the testing today is that I get the day off school. My phone has been going off all day. I have miss and texts calls from Lucas, Peyton, Hayley and Nathan saying where am I, and if I am ok.

Of course I'm not ok, my best friend and my boyfriend cheated on me, and my other two friends lied about it. To top it all off I might have cancer. Everything is going uphill for Brooke Davis.
I go back to Doctor Adams office and I can see straight away that is something wrong. He has a sympathy look on his face, I hate pitty looks. It's the same look I get when people talk about their families, and then remember that mine aren't around enough to remember my name.

"Ok Brooke you test results are back… it is what we thought it was. You have Acute lymphoblastic leukemia which is cancer of the white blood cells characterized by excess lymphoblasts. Malignant, immature white blood cells continuously multiply and are overproduced in the bone marrow. ALL causes damage and death by crowding out normal cells in the bone marrow, and by spreading (infiltrating) to other organs. The Standard treatments involve chemotherapy and radiotherapy. Now I would like you to go home and think about this and tell me if you would like to start treatment. I would recommend that we start treatment immediately. Thank you Miss Davis"

I had no idea what he was talking about. The only that stuck with me was Leukemia, which is cancer. CANCER! I have cancer. I'm only 18 I'm not supposed to have cancer, my biggest worry at 18 is wondering what prom dress I should wear. I head straight home from the hospital and go straight to the bathroom and start cutting. At least there are something's I can still control, I might not be able to control this cancer but I can control when I want to bleed and how much food I eat. I look at the new mirror I got. I just want to scream. Right now I hate myself. I look so fat, so ugly. I can't stand to look at myself anymore, so I punch the new mirror. I am very satisfied. My old wounds on my hand open. Pretty stupid to hurt myself there it's too noticeable I won't be so reckless this time. I am hungry but I'm not going to eat. I pull out the scale. Yep just what I thought too heavy, I have to at least lose 10 pounds. I start to feel sick, really dizzy. My legs give way under me. I fall into a sleepless slumber.

I wake up the next morning to my phone ringing. I realise that I slept on the floor where I fell last night. With a bit of a struggle I get up to see who called. It was Lucas. Yeah right like I want to talk to him. I throw my phone and go have a shower. I have to go to school today, if I don't they think that they've won.
I arrive at school half an hour later, wearing a long sleeved shirt and jeans. You can totally notice my hand but that's ok I will keep it hidden or if someone asks I burnt it. The first face I see as im walking towards the schools it Peyton. "Fucking great"
she's walking towards me with a smile on her face. "Brooke" she calls out. Let's just say that if looks could kill she would be 6 feet under. I run into Lucas as I'm walking past the gym, such a cheating bastard. I give him the same look I gave Peyton.
"Brooke! I'm sorry"
what he thought it was an invitation to start talking to me. I turn around
"yeah, sorry you got caught" ooo nice one Brooke
"we didn't mean to hurt you"
"you did not just say that to me"
"look we didn't plan any of this, it just happened"
"go to hell" and with that I storm away, with tears in my eyes. It just happened who does he think he is. How can it just happen, you just can't happen to be cheating behind my back. I can feel the tears pouring down my face. I feel so vulnerable, I wrap and arm around my body. I was so deep in thought that I didn't realize that I ran into something till I was on the floor. I look up to see what it was, and I should say somebody, a really, really cute somebody.

I mutter an, I'm sorry
he must of the noticed my tears, he helped me up. "That's ok. Hey are you ok?"
"Appositely dandy thank you" brooke he is just being nice. "sorry I didn't mean to take it out on you, I've never seen you before are you knew?"
"Yeah I just transferred from California. Julian Baker" a smile actually reaches my face
"Brooke Davis. Very nice to meet you" with that I start to walk away.
"Brooke wait" I smile and turn around. "as I am knew here and don't know anyone do you think I can have your number, then we can hang out?"
I gave him my number then went on my merry way.
I really need to talk to someone about my cancer. Maybe I can talk to Haley at least she didn't do the cheating. I understand why she didn't tell me, Lucas is her oldest friend and she probably did want to hurt me.
The lunch bell rang so I go outside to find Haley. When I go outside I see Haley, Nathan, Lucas and Peyton all eating lunch together. I guess that's how it always was; I never was in that circle really. How it is that Lucas and Peyton are the ones that cheat but im the one that gets shunned. I can feel tears in the rims of my eyes. I feel really dizzy and I must have turned a little bit to fast because the next thing I know I lose my footing and thank god to whoever was behind me, because they caught me before I hit the floor.
"whoa, are you ok"
as I'm talking I turn around to see who caught me "yeah I'm o- Julian you caught me? Thank you"
"Are you ok really? This is the second time I have seen you and both time you have been in tears"
"yeah I'm ok I'm-" I look towards my old group of friends, Haley and Nathan both have concerned pitty looks and both Lucas and Peyton look guilty "just going through some stuff"
Julian must have caught onto where I was looking because when I look up at him he is looking at my of group of friends.

Nobodies point of view

"well Brooke why don't you sit with me" Julian grabs brooks hand and he starts to head towards a table. He noticed Brookes hand was banged.
"Brooke what happened to your hand"
Brooke acts a little bit nervous "oh, yeah umm, I was cooking and I forgot that the hot plate was turned on, yeah, and I went to grab something from the cupboard and I leant my hand on there"
Julian can tell that there is something up with that story, but he doesn't really know her that well so he lets the story slide, but will keep an eye on her.

Lucas was staring intently at Brooke "who's the guy Brookes talking to"
Peyton sighed, "I don't know Luke, me and Brooke haven't exactly been talking lately either"
"oh that's Julian, he's new here, he just volunteered up at the tutoring centre. He seems nice enough" Haley stated with a smile. She met Julian earlier that day.
Nathan had enough and stood up and fiercely whispered "Luke you and Peyton don't get the right to ask questions about Brooke. You both lost the right when you when behind her back and broke her heart" with that Nathan stormed away. He knows he will cop it from Haley later but he didn't care, he couldn't put up with the pity party any longer.