"Tonks? I didn't heard you coming in." Remus asked, dumbfounded about the whole situation.

"Well, I'm much more than a cumpsy little girl." she looked proud at him. "But some people just don't realize it."

Not that again. Remus thought tiredly.

Tonks started to convince him, again, why they should date, but the Marauder doesn't really listen to her.

He couldn't believe Sirius told Rose such a rubbish! They're far away from dating, much less being together!
Tonks told him about her feelings last year. It was the night when Remus brought her, Moody and Sherlock to St. Mungo's after their fight in the Ministry. It was the first time they fought too. Remus told her carefully that he just doesn't feel anything for her, and she started to beg for a chance. Normally Remus would have given her this chance but hell, only a few hours ago he nearly lost his best friend and Harry as well when he didn't stopped him.
Since this night it was always the same when they meet. The first attempts from her were rather cute, but now it's just annoying.

"...and because of this, I can stay with you during the full moon; and..."

"Yeah..." Remus didn't even try to stop her. She would become mad, they're shouting at each other, and tomorrow she'll start again. It was a never endling story.

She's... happy for me and Tonks. Happy... for... he sigh defeated. It was a strange feeling. He knew she didn't love him, yet it was painful to hear it from her. If he was honest to himself, he knew it was the last gleam of hope which went out.

"...so, PLEASE! One more chance! Let us go out for a date!" Tonks pleading, and doesn't notice Remus' mental absence.

"yeah..." he answered lazyly to whatever the woman would say.

So... I think it's the prove, she really doesn't want anything from me. Ha. Did I really thought she'd-

A pair of arms that was squeezing him tightly brought him back to reality.

"Thank you! I knew you would say yes!" she murmbled into his robes.

"I... what?" he asked perplexed.

"Tomorrow. Two o'clock, so we can spend the whole afternoon and evening together. I'm come over and fetch you. See you!" Tonks said overjoyed and left a fairly confused Remus.

"What the heck?" he thought loudly. "Did I just agreed to a date with Tonks? How... What?"

Rose was woken by the smell of toast and bacon. She rub her eyes and felt how swollen they were. The event of the last night slipped back into her mind, and she wanted to stay in bed.

I hate my life. Isn't it a beautiful thought to get up?

"Good morning, Rose." Remus greeted her tiredly when she scuffed tiredly into the kitchen.

He kept almost the whole night awake, thinking about what happened yesterday. Rose was definitely not interested in Remus, and he agreed to a date with the most annoying person he knew.
At least he still can be friends with Rose, right? Not that there was a chance, she'd see him as more than a uncle. Now it was just said out loud.

"Good morning, Moony." Rose said tiredy as well.

Remus felt his heart ache at the sound of his old nickname.

Yes. Uncle Moo'y. No more, no less. He thought bitterly.

Rose notice his tiredness. He's never tired in the morning. How this was possible was beyond her. He's a morning-person through and through. Then she thought about Tonks unexpected visit last night, and her heart ache by the obvious explaination of his state.

"Everything alright?" Remus asked when he watched her getting pale and looking like she would vomit every second.

"Headache." she chocked out.

"Here," he took a potion out of the shelf over the sink. "it's a pepper-up potion. It'll help."

"Thanks."

Does it help against a lovesickness heart and stupid thoughts?

"Where's Sirius? I thought he wanted to stay up early?" Rose asked.

"He's already at Hogwarts, talking to Dumbledore." Remus said while he serve the breakfast. "He left a note."

"Oh." Rose said and thought: "Geart. Another day alone with the man who broke my heart."

"What do you want to do today?" he asked.

"I think I'm going to write Hermione and Ron." she said as casually as possible.

"Good. I...well, have a... meeting with Tonks today. She'll be here at two o'clock. I try to be back as soon as possible."

Meeting. Sure. Who does he wants to fool?

Remus thought about to explain Rose that he doesn't date Tonks, but decided to don't. He wasn't in the mood for anything this morning, and honestly, Rose wouldn't care, would she?
Maybe he would tell her later, when he comes back.

"Ah. Well, I'm in my room then."

"You didn't eat all of your bacon." Remus said worried.

"I'm... not very hungry." she said and left the kitchen.

So, why is he lying to me. A meeting. Really? If I wouldn't known. I even told him I'm happy for them. Maybe he just forgot after his love entered the room. Rose thought bitterly. No, no, no! Stop that! You won't act like a jealous prat, who starts to cry when you're not in center for a minute! Besides, Remus'd never love you. He has a damned life, so be happy for him, he finally found someone who makes him happy!

But as much as she wanted to be happy for him, her heart ache of lovesickness. Rose wasn't a selfish person, and she loved to see people around her happy. But why in the name of the founders of Hogwarts, couldn't she be happy one time? Why can't he fall in love with Rose? Was it too much to ask for to being loved by this one person?

She took a deep breath and start writing a letter to Hermione. Since last night she thought about to tell someone. She just needed someone to talk about the mess, and her best femile friend seems to be the right person. Yes, Hermione will tell her how disgusting it is, to fall in love with your father's best friend, but maybe this was exacty what she needed. Just someone who bring her back down to earth. Also, Hermione was the only person she knew, who had a brilliant idea to take those things off her mind.

Hi Hermione,

how are you doing? I hope your holidays are more fun then mine. I need your help, and please swear you won't tell anyone about what I'm going to tell you now.
Since my third year, I'm in love with Remus. Yes, I know it's weird, but I can't help it! I just love him, I love everything about him! He's so amazing! And please don't start telling me how wrong this is, I already know.
So, now it's going to be a bit complicated. Of course he doesn't know that I love him. Nobody knows, you're the first person I ever tell this!
Tonks visited yesterday and I get to know that they are dating. It's literally breaks my heart! I didn't even know you really have physically pain when 'your heart breaks'!
So, I think you know what I wanna say. I don't know what to do. I should be happy for them, but I can't. I love him so much. I knew he would never love me, but seeing him with someone else is horrible.
I don't even know if I want to get over him. He's everything to me. I don't want to give up on him so easily, though it's senseless. I'm so confused.
Hermione, please help me!

Yours truly,
Rose Potter

She watched Hedwig flying away with her letter, slowly getting smaller and smaller on the morning sky.

Rose kept the rest of the morning in her room, writing a letter to Ron and waiting for Hermione's answer. The whole time she tried to ignore what Remus was about to do later. She decided to don't think about Remus and Tonks as long as she has an answer from Hermione. It was easier said, then done. Every time the thought came back to her mind, she wanted to curl up and cry.

Sirius came back, at about one o'clock. He looked tired and tense.

"What is it?" Remus asked him concerend.

"I have to leave tomorrow for a few days. Dumbledore wants me to go to a small wizward village anywhere in the north of Scotland." he sighed. "Merlin, why can't it wait until after the holidays? I want to use the time to spend it with Rose, and not some relusive wizwards. What about you? You look like a mess."

"I've a date with Tonks later." he growled.

"Aww." Sirius chucked.

"Shut up. It's not funny."

"Where's the nicer part of you?" Sirius asked, still chuckling.

"In her room, writing to Ron and Hermione."

Sirius made his way to Rose room, still smirking and wondering if Remus noticed how he asked him.

Rose was about to cry when Sirius told her that he'd leave. How should she survive this? She was cooped up with the man who broke her heart and his girlfriend, who was the reason for this disaster! She will be confronted with the unbreadable fact that the only one she loved like no one else, would never be hers.

"Rose, what's wrong?" Sirius laid an arm around her shoulders. "I'll be back as soon as possible. I'm really sorry, but I have to do it. You understand it, right?"

"I'm fine and it's okay."

"Remus will be there for you." he kissed her hair and got up. "You know, he really likes you, he just can't show it so good. If you need me, I'll take a little nap."

And then he left, a now totally confused Rose.

"So, you're ready?" Tonks was hopping happyly in the hallway.

Remus sighed. His head was aching badly. He thought about to tell Tonks that me agreed accidentally, and doesn't really want to go to a date with her. Although this would make her mad again, she would scream at him... you know the rest.

Maybe he could simply tell her that he got sick. It wasn't even so much a lie. But probally she would think that he only pretends, becoming mad, starts screaming...

"Do I have another choice?" he asked half joking, half serious.

"No!" she peeped exited, took his hand and dragged him to the front door.

Rose was in her room, trying to ignore Tonks' voice, which made her furiose. She tried to be not mad at Tonks, but this wasn't so easy. Rose really liked Tonks, and always enjoyed her company. She was an amazing, gorgeous and witty woman. Unfortunatly this were probablly the reason why Rose was suffering right now. Still she couldn't be mad at her or even hate her. Remus was perfection in person, so how could she blame Tonks' for loving him? Again a woman like Tonks' could have very boy she wanted, so why does it has to be the person Rose fell in love with?

Mad with the whole world, she wanted to scream in frustration.

I need to distract me from those thoughts, before I become mad.

The distract came a second later by a soft hooting from the windowsill. Hedwig was back and looked concerned at her jumped up to get the letter, finally she has an answer from Hermione.

Dear Rose,

to be honest, I'm a little bit aghast. Why did you never told me? You know you can tell me everything, and maybe I could help you earlier.
Don't think this is weird. You can't control with who you fall in love with, and your heart always has a reason why it's this certain person.
I'm really sorry for you, about Remus and Tonks. There are two things I'd like to suggest you. The first thing: Live with it. It sounds hard, but as you said, you can't do anything about it. They love each other, and as horrible as it is, you can't change it. Also you can't waste your life waiting for Remus to maybe break up with Tonks. You have to move on, Rose. There are a lot of nice guys who'd like to be together with you.
The second suggest, which maybe helps you in the context of my first suggest: Tell Remus what you feel. You'll see, it'll help to get it off of your chest. He'll say no, but on the one hand it'll help you to accept it fully and on the other hand, you can finally left it behind you, and move on.
I know it's harder as it sounds, but I thinks it's better to tell him and knowing what he'll say, then tell him and being dissapointed.

And before I forget, my parents said I'll be going to visit you next week. I hope you'll be better until then. And if not, I can help you (even better than per letter).

Yours truly,
Hermione Granger

Rose read the letter twice. Was Hermione mad? Telling Remus that she loves him? It was pretty much the last thing she would do. Hermione might knowing everything about school stuff, but it seems like she had no idea of trouble with a broken heart.

She put the letter away, took an book and went down to the living room.

"Hey cub." Sirius greeted her tiredly. "I thought you'll never come out of your room again."

"Hey Sirius. Well, I made some howework after I wrote Hermione and Ron."

"You do a lots of homework lately." he frowned. "Do you want to tell me anything?"

Rose sat down next to Sirius and put her book aside. She really wanted to tell Sirius about her probelm, because he always knew what to do. Maybe he would have a simple but brilliant idea, like he always had. But of couse she couldn't tell him anything. What would he think of her when he hears that his godchild fell in love with his best friends?
The young Gryffindor was just afraid to find it out. He was her family, and she can't imaging to lose him, because she can't controll her feelings.
She nearly lost him forever only a few weeks ago. Bellatrix tried to kill him, but thanks god Sirius was faster and jump out of the way, when she fired the killing curse at him.

"I don't know. I'm just... there are so many things I try to handle. But I'm scared that I can't handle it, and it'll destroy me." she said.

"Tell me about." Sirius said gently and put an arm around her shoulder.

"I'm in... love with a guy. But he'll never love me."

"How do you know that?"

"I just know it."

"You'll never know if you don't tell him... or show him."

"Show him?"

"Well, you know, when you flirt with him. It's easier and safer than telling him. When he returns your flirting, you know you can go further, if he doesn't, you're allowed to say he doesn't love you."

"I don't even know how to flirt."

"Oh, come on! A shy smile here, a shy smile there. A 'inadvertent' touch here, a maybe not so inadvertent touch there..."

"But I just can't..." she put her head in her hands. "...you don't understand. It's much more complicated."

"Rose, if you really love him, you will try it at least. Getting dumped hurts, but it won't kill you, and you will get over it. And remember, someday, you'll find the right one who loves you too." he said and hugged her. "Puberty is a bitch."

"Yeah." she sniffed against his robes. "And it hates me."

He chuckled. "You wanna tell who he is?"

"No. You wouldn't understand."

"It's okay when you don't want to tell me. Just remember I'm always here when you need to talk."

Rose thought about what Sirius said. Two people told her to tell Remus about her feelings. Sirius was maybe right, that being dumped normally didn't kill you, but for Rose, this was something else. It wasn't only a teenager crush, you laugh about in some years, this was true love. She wouldn't get over this so fast. It was just too risky to tell him and lose the last thing got left: The friendship.

At about six o'clock, an exhaust Remus Lupin closed the door behind him, and was just happy to be back. It took him forever to conviced Tonks that he still had something to do for the order, and he really has to go back now.

He looked up when he heard someone giggle.

"Looks like you had a wonderful afternoon." Sirius said sarcastic.

"Oh, shut up!" Remus made his way slowly to the livingroom. He noticed with great relief that Rose sitting on the couch with a book. At least he could spend the rest of the day with Rose and maybe telling her that he doesn't dating Tonks.

"Hey Remus." she greeted him and smiled slightly.

"Hello cub." he said and sat down across her.

"And? What happened?" Sirius asked curiously and still smiling.

"What do you think happened?" Seriously, this man knows his cousin. She was one of the clumpsiest person and earth, and so went the date. When she wasn't making arguments why she and Remus were perfect for each other, she upset or tripped over something. At least he can say now, he never got so many attention from a crowd like today.

Rose pretend to read and hoped they woudn't notice her eyes start watering again. She could imagine what they did during the 'meeting'...

The rest of the evening went quiet comfortable for all of them. They didn't mention the meeting again, and talked about casual things. For the first time since weeks, she felt totally unworried, like it was before. Just Sirius, Remus and Rose, talking about everything and anything. Like a proper little family.

Remus even told Rose about James attempt to impress Lily with a difficult flyingtrick, where he end up in the hospital for two weeks, and how upset he was when he didn't even get a get well soon card from her.

It was ten o'clock when the trio decided to go to bed. Rose couldn't sleep at all. She never thought she would be able to say that, but she was just too happy.

Why can't it always be like that? Just sitting together and talk? Just having fun and enjoy each others company. ...why do I have to screw everything up?

And so, her good mood was gone.

Remus walked tiredly to his room. It was a horrible day with a perfect ending. He just loved being around Rose and Sirius. His friend was so right when he said they would be a proper family when this is all over. He would vowed they'd be one of the most wonderful family of all time...

...when I don't screw everything up. Damn these mate stuff!

He kicked the door to his room open, and noticed a little white paper on his dark blue sheets.

Hi Moony,

in case I can't tell you in person before I leave:
Today I found out that Rose is in love with someone. I don't know who, but this idiot of a boy doesn't love her. Of course she's lovesick... use the chance!

Padfoot

Jealously stabbed his heart and growled softly into the darkness. The wolf inside him was frantic.
Remus took the little paper and threw it into the trashbin. Yes, he would try to comfort Rose, but he wouldn't take advantage of her lovesickness. She didn't loved him anyways, though he wanted to find out who this boy was.

Sirius was lying in the bed, and thought about the next step of bringing his best friend and his godchild together.

They are both so blind. Was the last thought before he fell fast asleep.

Hello dears.
I hope you enjoyed the third chapter (and maybe review?).
This chapter might be a bit boring, because nothing really happems, but I'll need it for the plot. And yes I have to send Sirius away, because he has a plan... and it'd make this FF way too short. :D

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