You probably know the laziness that comes with the holidays. It begins in the morning, you have a lie-in every day, and even when you're as rested as possible, you just don't want to get up.
But in this particular case, Rose didn't want to get up because she's lazy, she didn't want to get up because she was exhaust and didn't want to face the cruel reality again.
She woke up two hours ago, when she heard someone leaving the house. It was Sirius who left for the mission. Only the fear of the questions he'd ask, made her resisting the urge to run after and beg him to stay.

Meanwhile Sirius Black was just pissed. It was too early, it was too cold, it was too rainy, it was too everything that Sirius Black doesn't like. If it wasn't for the order, he'd just turn around and go back to bed, where people belong at this time of the day!
On the way to village he was wondering, what would happened in his absence. He really hoped his plan will work, and Remus will be curious enough to try to figure out who this mysterious guy was. The imagination of Remus trying desperately to find out who he is, Rose's face turning deep red, while both stumble like idiots made him chuckle.

To be honestly, Sirius himself didn't saw the signs to begin with, too. It was in the summer last year, when Rose and the Weasleys where at Grimmauld Place and Ron complained how much time she spend with Remus instead with her friends.
First Sirius didn't mind at all. She saw her friends every day in school, so what's the problem when she wanted to spend more time with Remus and him during the holidays?

It was the moment when he was watching them, when he realised that something were different.
Rose and Remus were sitting on the couch in the living room, Sirius was standing in the door frame and was about to say something, but then he remembered Ron's words.
Before this, he considered them as good friends or as surrogate niece and uncle, but now there was something else. (...she spends so much time with Remus...) He took a close look at Rose and saw what was different. The way she looked at him, the way she smiles at him. Just everything. Besides this, as Ron said, she spend a lot time with Remus. He didn't want to complain, actually he was pretty happy they got along so well. (...did I miss something?)
Well, yes Ron, you missed something, but I missed it as well.

It took him a few days to think that through. He didn't really liked the idea of Rose has fallen in love with Remus. It was wrong, wasn't it? Remus was 20 years older than Rose, her former Professor and on of her parents best friends. But every time he remembered back at this day, he saw was pure love and a kind of perfection. Rose would never mind his fury little problem, she would care about him, like he'd care about her. Rose was 20 years younger, but mentally she was at least as old as Remus. She saw so many bad things, so many bad things happened to her, like so many bad things Remus saw and happened to him. They both complete each other. They understand each other. And somehow he knew for sure, they would love each other, until the very end of their days.

Almost a year later, only a few days before Rose's birthday, Remus came to Sirius and wanted to talk about all the mate stuff. He informed Sirius that he consider Rose as his mate.
Yes, now he liked the idea of Rose and Remus together, but he never thought he would be so happy when Remus, so to say, confessed he loves her as well. Sadly he never really had the chance to tell Remus how happy he really was.

Remus looked like a mess when he told him, everything that bothered Sirius a year ago, seems to bother him right now, probably even more. He was all the more surprised when the Animagus told him it would be okay for him. Before Sirius could tell him that he suspected that Rose has a crush on the werewolf, Remus made hin swear to never tell Rose about it.
No matter how hard Sirius tried to make him listen, Remus would adamant that he made the promise first.

"Merlin, why is this so important for you that you don't even listen to me first?" craved Sirius desperately.

"Please, Padfoot, just swear! If she finds out... can you imagine what she'll say... what she'll do? She will hate me!"

"Remus.."

"Please!"

"Ok I swear I won't tell her anything."

The ex-convicted was just pissed how stubborn his friend was, and he swore himself to get them together. But first he had to make sure that Rose really loves Remus, or better say still loves Remus. He really hoped it wasn't only a crush, and she was already over it. Besides... it could end pretty awkward.

Thanks Merlin, this summer he got his speculations confirmed. As soon as Sirius told Rose about Tonks feelings, he knew he was right. It was hard to watch her like this, but he just hoped Rose would understand his action later.
Again he tried to drop as many hints as possible for Remus, but the werewolf didn't (or wanted to) understand.
And actually Rose wasn't any better, though the chance were better that she would listen to him, and tell him about her feelings.

Sirius looked at the small village and sighed.
Let's be honest old mut, you like to play the undercover love-agent.
Another chuckle escaped his lips, while he walking towards the village, still hoping everything will be alright in his absence.

Today's reality doesn't seem to be cruel so far, but something was odd. Remus didn't talked much during the dinner and he looked like Rose felt: exhaust. Too scared that the answer contains a certain woman she tried to ignore, she didn't asked what was wrong with him.

Rose was wondering how his love for Tonks would change they friendship. Rose wanted to know what's wrong, she wanted to listen and care about him, but now she acted like she doesn't care at all. It was wrong, but when he only mention Tonks, her heart would break a little more. It wasn't right at all, and she knew it. She just didn't know how to change it.

"Remus?" peeped a voice in the living room.

No. Just no! Rose and Remus thought.

"Over here." he answered lazily.

The currently light brown haired woman entered the room. Her smile was way too bright for Rose taste. The black hair girl just wanted too leave the room as fast as possible. Nothing against Tonks but she just couldn't stand her now... or ever again, but her next words and the next thing she did, caused a shock for both of them.

"Hello darling!" said Tonks as overjoyed as always and kissed Remus on the cheek.

"Tonks!" Remus said as shocked as Rose felt.

"Awww, come on!" said Tonks and nudged him. "I'm just here to ask you, if you want to go out with me tonight again. It was wonderful last time!"

"I'm sorry," said Remus uneasily. "Sirius is on a mission and I can't leave Rose alone."

"Come on, she's sixteen, she can take care of herself."

"Sirius will kill me. Sorry, but I can't." he said and prayed silently she wouldn't start screaming again.

Tonks looked between Remus and Rose and decided that this wasn't the right place, to say what she liked to say.

"Well, then I'll ask you when Sirius's back, again." said Tonks rather pissed and flooed home again.

What was that? Rose thought.

"I can take care of myself, Remus. If you want to-" she said shyly.

"No, it's okay. As I said, Sirius will kill me, and besides you're only here when you've holidays, and we should spend this time useful together." he said and smiled his gentle smile that Rose loved so much.

Suddenly Rose felt very dizzy. Did Remus just dumped Tonks to spend time with her? He dumped his girlfriend...? The only thing she was able to was grinning.

"So, what are we doing today?" she asked.

"Everything you want to do." he simply answered.

"I really like to hear the rest of the story from yesterday." she said and grinned even more.

Deep inside she knew that this situation was an exception, but for she just ignored it for now. It was too good to see that Remus dumped Tonks for her. Well, he doesn't meant it like Rose want it to be, but let her dream a bit. Rose and Remus spend the whole day like they both loved it most: with hot chocolate and lots of stuff to talk about. It was like the world the stopped moving and nothing could touch them in their own little world, where they only mattered and cared for each other.
Those days gave both of them a strange feeling of home. The feeling you get when you know someone will be there to welcome you with a smile, a hug and lovely words. The feeling of safety, acceptance and comfort. It was everything Rose and Remus were looking for since they can remember. Everything they needed.

It were days like this, that let Remus frustrate. It was like a dream, it fade away and the cruel reality replaced the perfection after a while.
Sometimes it was hard to resist the urge to just tell her everything. He wished he could do it. It would end all the pain that the hopes made... but he was too afraid, the words she could say would hurt more then every hope could make. Let alone that she would probably never talk to him again, and avoid him as much as possible.
He couldn't take this. When he avoided her, he could control it.

There was a comfortable silent in the room while they got lost in thoughts. All of a sudden, Rose remembered Sirius' and Hermion's words. You know, he really likes you... You'll never know if you don't tell him... getting dumped won't kill you... your heart always has a reason why it's this certain person... Tell Remus what you feel... These words revolved around in her head and she decided to do something. Probably Sirius and Hermione were right. At least a bit. It was Remus who broke the silence with a deep sigh.

"What?" Rose asked.

"Nothing, I was just thinking."

"About what?" she asked interested.

"About... well... it's very complicated." he said uneasily.

Rose got a bit closer to him until they sat shoulder on shoulder. Yes, those "inadvertent" touches are great to start with.

"I'm here for you." she said and smiled her "shy smile here and there". She thought Sirius would be proud of her if he could see her now.

"I know." he said and lay and arm around her shoulder.

Her heart skipped a beat before it starts to race, that she was scared it would explode every moment. Remus didn't made it better, when he started so play with a flick of her hair.
She laid her head on his shoulder and breathed in his scent. Slowly she closed her eyes, just enjoying this moment. Remus buried his face in her hair and kissed it. Her scent made him dizzy.
She looked up and looked at his face. It was hard to resist the urge to trace the scars with her finger. How much she just wanted to kiss all the scars all over his body and tell him how beautiful he his, she just wanted to tell him how much she adores him, loves him...

"Remus? I really...like you." she whispered softly.

She doesn't know where that came from, but it felt right to her to tell him this right now.

Remus looked down at her. He shivered slightly when he felt her warm breath against his neck, and now her face way too close to his. Their lips were only a few inches away from each other. So close and he could kiss her. He could finally find out how it feels, to kiss those beautiful red and full lips.
He only hardly managed to look in her eyes instead of her lips. Not that it made it any better to look into her emerald green eyes, so full of understanding and love.

"I... like you, too, Rose. I really like you a lot." he said and hugged her and buried his face in her neck to don't continue staring at her face.

So many emotions and thoughts run through his mind, he wanted to scream. It was so beautiful and painful at the same time, and mostly it was his fault.
He hated himself for don't having the guts to tell her what's going on, for being a werewolf and never having the chance to be hers, for letting himself being in this situation. Maybe Sirius was right, and he should use the chance to get closer to Rose. Well, he mustn't catch her off-guard and tell her everything now. He would start slowly, telling her that he doesn't date Tonks (Merlin, it's about time to clear that!), asking her who this idiot of guy is who dumped her, and then showing her that he... cared. This sounded almost like a quite good plan to him.

Almost. There was only one problem. Tonks herself who just didn't want to accept that he doesn't love her. He couldn't start with his plan while Tonks act like they're as good as together. Rose wouldn't believe him, and he really doesn't want to make Rose doubting his words.
The question was: How can you convince someone that you don't love her, when she just doesn't want to listen to you, and thinks she knows that you love her somewhere deep, deep, very deep inside?

He sighed tiredly and start another try.

"Rose... about earlier... I wanted to tell you..." he started but doesn't really know how to start with this topic. No, he has to talk with Tonks first, maybe he could think of a good start in this subject in the meantime.

"How can you convince someone who loves you way too much, that you just don't love her?" he thought aloud.

His thoughts were like a slap in her face, but at least she knew what she wanted to know, now.

"I'm sorry." her voice barely a whisper and stood up to leave.

She made her way out of the room and cursed under her breath. She wasn't mad with Remus, she was mad with herself. How could she be so stupid to listen to Sirius and Hermione? Those tips might help with a little schoolgirl crush, but not when it's about the love your damn life.
She closed the bathroom door behind her, when she became aware of the whole horror. Now he knows... She knew that she was terrible at flirting, before, but she wasn't aware that she's so terrible, that Remus would see through her purposes at her first try.

Her heart was racing again, but this time not because of Remus soothing touch but because she started to panicking.

Keep calm. Just keep calm now! You wanted to know him. Remember Sirius and Hermione words, it won't kill you, and you're prepared what he'll say... but I don't want to hear it. Sirius and Hermione were wrong with... everything!

She ran her hands roughly over her face, trying to thing rational.

Well, I can't runaway forever, so... okay, at least...maybe, Hermione was right, I know what he'll say, so I should listen, then go to my room and slowly and painfully die on my broken heart.

This was rational enough for Rose. She took a deep breath and slowly made her way back to Remus.

To be honest, the only person who was wrong, was Rose herself. Remus was totally confused about her action, wondering if he said something wrong.
He was about to stand up look after his mate, when Rose entered the room with a pale and blank face.
Remus walked over to her, lay and arm around her shoulder and walked with her over to the couch. He still got his arm around him when they both sat down.

"What's wrong, Rose? You look terrible!" the werewolf said concerned.

Was he kidding? No, stop that. She didn't want to get mad with him, but she really didn't understand what he was about now. It was obvious that Rose back-stabbed herself with her flirting try, she knew Remus would try to make her slowly but surly and very gently understand, that he was not interested, but actually it annoyed her, she just wanted it to be over.

"Well, the only man I ever loved, doesn't love me and when Voldemort won't step on the gas, I'll die on my broken heart, before he has even a chance to kill me." she answered sarcastically and fought back her tears.

If one thing could confuse Remus more than her leaving, it was this answer. Nevertheless, it was probably his only chance to talk about it without awkwardly starting this topic.

"I know what it feels like." he said sadly and his hand moved in soothing circles on her back.

"You know-" her head shot up. "But you and Tonks..."

"I don't love Tonks. She loves me, yes, but I don't love her. Honestly, how can anyone think we make a good couple?" he said smiling.

"But... the dates... and..." she stammered confused.

"Tonks thinks I'll change my mind, when she annoys the hell out of me." he chuckled.

That took a lot of her mind, she even started to chuckle, too. But wait, he said he knows that feeling...?

Wow, it's finally up! I'm sorry it took me so long, but I'd real trouble with this capture.

Awesome news for Fem!Harry fans and those who like my fics (lol), I'm already writing the next fem!Harry fic, but I'll upload the first chapter when I'm done with this fic, though. (Yes, it's a lame excuse, which only means It's the biggest shit I've ever wrote, so I don't upload it until I wrote at least one intelligent sentence.)

And last but not least:

Sharnorasian Empire - I actually never read a crossover fic, but I'll take a look at yours. :) And yes, I know, I'll fix this as soon as I release this chapter.

TheBlackSeaReaper - I laughed so hard when I read your review, because this were my first thought when I give it a serious consideration to make Sirius an "undercover love-agent". :D

Lupinesence - Thanks.I think you can say the same for this chapter. :D

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