"You know-" her head shot up. "But you and Tonks..."
"I don't love Tonks. She loves me, yes, but I don't love her. Honestly, how can anyone think we make a good couple?" he said smiling.
"But... the dates... and..." she stammered confused.
"Tonks thinks I'll chance my mind when she's annoying the hell out of me." he chuckled.
That took a lot of her mind, she even started to chuckle, too. But wait, he said he knows that feeling...?
It was slowly getting dark outside and number one person who confuse Rose best, who was actually Rose herself, was send to her room, because the order had a spontaneous meeting.
She tried to make some homework (this time for real), to read and to write a letter to Ron and Hermione, but ended up lying in her bed, wondering about the what Remus told her earlier that day.
Though she knew that her love-sickness isn't over, yet, she felt better knowing that Tonks wasn't the person Remus has fallen in love with. Still, she wasn't sure what to think about her now.
As Remus told her, she knew he didn't love her, but why is she acting like that? Either Remus was lying, though she doubt that, or Tonks was rather ignorant.
But who cares? Neither Tonks nor I are the ones he loves.
~ A floor deeper ~
The order members were scurrying through the kitchen. Sometimes it was so annoying how long they need until everybody sit down and they could start. Today's order chaos was a perfect opportune for Sirius to take Remus aside.
"And?" asked Sirius full of curiosity.
"Well, I didn't really figured something out." Remus said and Sirius already signed annoyed. Does he really had to do everything alone?
"But in my defence, I thought I've more time. Besides this... I honestly don't feel good taking advantage of Rose."
"It's not talking advantage, it's using the best chance you maybe ever have!" replied Sirius frustrated.
"It's not that easy." said Remus. "I just don't know-"
"Are you ready?" asked McGonagall "All members are present now, and we like to begin with the meeting."
The meeting was boring as ever. Sirius told them that the wizards didn't want to choose a side in the war, and were incorruptible. While the other we're discussing what they would do next, Sirius made a plan by himself, only that his plan contain two certain people who were unfortunately to blind to see what happens on front of their eyes.
After the meeting was over, Sirius invited Tonks to stay for supper. Remus shot Sirius a warning glance. He knew Sirius was up to something, but he hoped he invited Tonks because she's his cousin, and not because she was involved in whatever he planned to do.
Rose appetite was gone when she heard Tonks voice and saw that she sat next to Remus. Still confused what she should think of her, and how to act around her, she sat down next to Sirius.
"And did I miss something?" asked Sirius directed to Remus and Rose.
"You were only a few hour away." said Rose.
"A few hours where anything could happened." said Sirius as casually as possible.
"Well, Rose and I spend the day together... nothing special happened." said Remus in a undertone of warning.
"Oh, before I forget," said Tonks, "now where Sirius is back, we could spend the rest of the evening together! You agreed to another date as soon as Sirius is back."
"Um... I... not directly, I said-" started Remus but was interrupted by Sirius.
"That's a great idea! So, Rose and I can spend some time together." A victoriously smile brightened his face. Maybe it'll be easier as planned.
"Great! I hope it's okay we won't eat here then and instead go to the three broomsticks, having a wonderful romantically candlelight dinner." her voice crack with ever word a little more.
She grabbed Remus arm and dragged him out of the room before he was able to say something.
Rose stared with a blank face at the table, still hearing Tonks ramble in the hallway. The door fell shut and a single tear escaped her eyes. This time, she doesn't care if Sirius notice.
She knew it was very childish but she was pretty angry and jealous of Tonks. Although Remus doesn't love her, doesn't mean she has the right to treat him like that, or even go on a date with him! It wasn't fair at all! Rose loved him since her third year, was always there for him, and had barely the chance to talk to him alone. She doesn't know what's wrong with that woman, but she knew she would never love Remus like Rose would. She would never understand him like Rose did. She just doesn't have any right to date or touch, or only ask him to go out with her Remus!
Sirius hugged her tightly. His plan might be drastic, and it'll hurt her, but something has to be done, before they hurt each other any longer. Since he wasn't allowed to talk about it, he planned to tickle the truth out of them. Tonks, who didn't know anything, already help him with his plan. He wanted to talk with Rose in private, and push her in the right direction. After this, he planned to talk to Tonks, and make her understand the truth, before he give Remus a proper talking, how much longer he wanted to waste time like that.
"The guy you're in love with... it's Remus, right?" he asked quiet.
Rose start sobbing against his chest. Her stomach cramped and her heart felt like it was blown up in a million of pieces. She gave up. She was tired up of hiding, of acting like everything was okay, while everything she wanted would never happen. The only thing she could do now, was hoping that Sirius would understand and doesn't hate her.
"Everything will be all right." he said in a hushed voice and drawing circles on her back.
"How can you say that?" she sobbed against his shoulder. "He'll never love me, and he'll hates me when he finds out that I love him! He'll be disgusted and-"
"Merlin, help me." said Sirius under his breath. Sometimes it was amazing how similar they're to each other.
"What?" asked Rose.
"Rose, please take a moment and think about what you said. Do you really think Remus hates you for loving him? He will never hates you. Never!"
"But-" she said uncertainty.
"Never. Rose, do you trust me?"
"Of course I trust you, but-"
"Talk to him. Please talk to him about your feelings." he begged.
"I just can't! I... It's hard enough to know he doesn't feel the same, and I already found out he's in love with someone else, so why bother telling him and getting hurt by his words?"
"So you want to give up, before you even try? And if you want to know, yes he is in love, but everything is possible if you try, sweetheart!"
Rose looked at him in disbelieve. Why would he suggest something like this, and risk his godchild got hurt, again. Does he knew something she should know? A moment later the front door bursts open and they could hear Remus shouting at Tonks.
Remus didn't know why Sirius would do this to him, but he knew he'd regret it. As soon as Tonks dragged him out of the house, she started to ramble how perfect they're together, again. The werewolf have had enough. He was sick and tired of Tonks being so stubborn and selfish. Until now, he was just nice and hoped she would understand soon enough he doesn't want anything from her. Apparently he was wrong. Besides this, what does his mate think of him now? Only a few hour ago he told her that he doesn't love Tonks, and now he was going to have a date with her. This wasn't what you call trustworthy.
"Nymphedora." she said quiet but firmly.
"What?" she snapped when hearing her first name. "Don't call me-"
"Just shut up for a moment and listen to what I have to say!"
His were almost glowing golden now, and all blood drained from her face.
"Why don't you understand that I'm not interested in you?" he growled.
"But we're perfect for each-"
"No, we're not! I. Don't. Love. You. How can we be perfect for each other, when I'll never love you? Now excuse me, but I've better plans for today." he turn around and walked back into the house.
"Remus! You can't leave me like this!" she shouted and run after him.
"I can." he said coolly.
"No, you now listen to me, Remus!"
"There's nothing left to say, Dora! Nothing! I told you before, but I like to remind you: I found my mate, I love my mate, and I do not and never will love you!" he shouted.
Remus entered the kitchen and stopped dead on his tracks when he saw Rose's tear-stained face. He almost totally forgot about Tonks and just wanting to know what happened. Rose looked at him, her distressed expression made it hard to control the wolf inside him, who just wanted to sooth his mate. Suddenly a thought hit him. She cried because of him. Because it looks like he was lying, and because he told her he would spend the rest of the day with her, but now leaving her for a date with a person he denied having dates with. He took a deep breath and wanted to explain everything, (and shouting at Sirius for being such an idiot) but Tonks already entered the room. Her face had a dark red shape, and to say she looked very angry was understated.
"Can we talk in private, please?" she said through her teeth, doesn't took her eyes off Remus.
Rose stood up and waited for Sirius to follow, but he didn't moved.
"Actually, no. Remus, Rose, please let me and Dora alone for a moment." he said.
"Sirius-" Tonks started.
"No, I really need to talk to you. Now." he said and closed the door, seeing through the shrinking slit how the soon-couple walked upstairs. Now it was up to him.
"Tonks, it's up to you, either you'll listen to me now, or I'll kick you out of my house." he warned her calmly.
"Why would you say-" Tonks looked at him in surprise.
"Will you listen to me?" he asked, still calm.
"Okay." she said rather annoyed for what his cousin disturbing her discussion with Remus.
"Remus. Doesn't. Love. You. And he never will."
She gasped but before she said something, Sirius continued.
"I really don't know what you're thinking, but when someone says no, you actually leave this person alone. You're obstinate trying shows how much you want him, but you just have to accept he doesn't feel the same."
"But- but I thought you're okay with that." she whispered.
"I'm okay with everybody who's making him happy, but you only annoy him. And me. And, to be honest everybody. And let me tell you, as I told you some weeks ago, I'm okay with you loving Remus, but I'm not okay with you practise upon his good-naturedness. He said no, and that doesn't mean continue dating him, until he gives in. And besides this, I think he already told you that he found his mate I'm sorry Tonks."
"Oh yes? And who is his mate? I never saw him with anybody, and I though werewolfs and theirs mate are inseparable...?"
"Isn't it obvious?" Sirius and Tonks jumped when Severus spoke.
"How did you came in?" asked Sirius surprised.
"What do you mean it's obvious? If you know then tell me!" said Tonks.
"You want to tell me you didn't notice how close Potter and the wolf are?" Snape smiled mischievous.
Tonks look stunned. Was it possible? First Sirius' words and now this. She really didn't know she was such a burden for Remus... well, for everybody. She get him to known last year because of the order, and found him very attractive from the beginning on. A few month ago she started to flirt with him, though he never responded to it. It was Sirius who took her aside, and told her she has to try harder when she wanted the werewolf to understand. And now, the same person was standing in front of her, telling her she was annoying and he would never love her.
Yes, Remus denied any feeling for her, still she knew he liked to keep people at distance, scared people would mind his lycanthropy.
At some point Sirius were right when he said she would try until he gives in, though not because she was selfish, she just loved him, and eventually he would feel the same. Though one thing was clear, she wouldn't lose him because of a teenager who probably doesn't even knows what love means. She collect herself and rushed through the door. Shortly after she left, Sirius and Severus heard Mrs. Black's voice screaming in anger and disgust.
"That's was almost too easy." said the potion master.
"You have no clue right?" ask Sirius darkly.
"No, but I thought you would like it, isn't it the way you like mischief? Oh and before I forget, I came through the door." were the last words before Severus walked over to the fireplace.
"Bastard!" growled Sirius and run after Tonks, who were already yelling upstairs.
~ And a floor up again ~
Rose and Remus didn't talk while walking up the stairs, too absentmindedly about what happened and what would happens next.
Rose wanted to go straight to her room, but when she stood in front of the door, Remus grabbed gently her arm. She turned around, only now she noticed his sad and concerned expression.
"May I talk to you? I think I do owe you an explanation." he said.
Rose struggled with herself. Actually she wanted to be alone, and digest what happened today, but the hope that there was an easy explanation for all this, made her nod, and she followed Remus to his room.
"I know what it looks like," said Remus while closing the door behind him. "But believe me, I'm not together with Sory, and I never will. Yes, we dated a few times, but I didn't really want it. And Sirius' knows it, I don't know why he's is doing this."
Tears pooled in her eyes again. She didn't wanted to cry again, but it was all so overwhelming. Why would Sirius kind of force his best friend on a date with someone he doesn't love?
"Just tell me what's going on here!" she pleaded.
Remus sat down next to her on his bed. He wiped away the single tear that escaped her eyes, and wondered how much of the truth he'd tell her.
This moment will decide about their everything. Either he'd tell her everything, seeing what will happens, or he'd go on like this, telling her every now and then a little more, but risk that she'll notice he's hiding something and lose her trust forever.
"Rose, do you know what a werewolf's mate is?" he asked carefully.
She closed her eyes for a second, composing herself.
"Snape mentioned it, but I don't know much about it." she said as calm as possible.
"Every werewolf has a mate, I thought mine to be dead, because it's unusually to find a mate after the werewolf's twenties. But it can happen... it happens to me. One day, a werewolf will feel its mate, it's like a pull that brings the him or her to this person.
The werewolf will do everything for the mate, because the mate is effectively everything for the werewolf. It's, like humans would say, the love of its life, although it's more literally and more serious. The mate and the werewolf are made for each other, and once the mate is found, the werewolf will stay with its mate, for the rest of its days."
Rose swallowed the lump in her throat, mentally saying goodbye to the chance to ever being his girlfriend.
"And... what does it has to do with..." she nearly choked out.
"Well, actually the werewolf, I, will do everything to make the mate happy, but I only seem to upset her."
He took a deep breath, lifting her chin carefully and looked deep in her sad eyes.
"Rose," he whispered. "you... you're my mate."
She didn't trust her ears, and almost asked him to repeat it. It was like adrenaline run through her body, she felt light-headed, her heart was racing, her palms sweaty, her finger shaking.
"I'm sorry." whispered Remus and looked down at the floor.
"I love you, too." she managed to say.
Remus head shot up, and he felt Rose's lips on his. He hesitated for a moment, but then he pulled her closer and deepen the kiss. His tongue found its way in her mouth and the world around them seems to disappear. He heard a small groan in the back of her throat and felt her pushing herself even more against him. The hands around her waits, he pulled her completely on his lap. Just before his trousers became too small, he broke the kiss. Rose slowly opened her eyes, the love to him was written in it, and feared to get lost in it.
"Are you really sure?" he asked.
"Remus, this is all I want, since I saw you for the first time, on the train! I-"
The door burst open and Tonks started shouting immediately.
I really start to consider to write a book calling "How to ruin perfect moments". You probably hate me for ruin such a sweet Rose/Remus moment again but hey, at least the story made a major step forward. :) I know I'm mean to Tonks, but seriously, can you imagine her giving up so easily? Okay, maybe she would, but that would be boring and doesn't give me another reason to write another chapter. ;)
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