A/N: The long awaited chapter 6! After this you'll probably be like "Wow she enjoys suicide" But think, angst is awesome hehehe ;) Anyway I'll update faster next time because I know my couple and the plot. So enjoy and by the way Jubilee's ghost is doing the POV.

Disclaimer: Christmas is comin up soon so maybe.

Chapter 6 Tourniquet

Relationship: Bobby and Jubilee

"Jubilee!" I hear someone call my name. "Jubilee!" I hear again but more frantic. "OH MY GOD!" the same voice yells. I start running toward the voice down the hall, around the corner. My feet hitting the red-carpeted floor, my heart pounding over the screams that flutter in my head and now I can't hear a sound. I keep running until I come across my room. Everyone is there staring, not moving and white. "What's going on?" I ask calmly behind everyone but no hears me. I walk through the crowd and no seems to notice or care but I suddenly realize why. I can see myself there lying on the floor, wrists covered in blood, and Bobby by my side squeezing my hand. I scream but no one hears me.

I tried to kill the pain but only brought

more.

I lay dying and I'm pouring

crimson regret and betrayal.

I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming.

Am I too lost to be saved and I to lost?

My god, tourniquet, return to me

salvation.

My god, my tourniquet, return to me

salvation.

I suddenly find myself in a hospital waiting room and all is quiet. There aren't that many people but there are two people I know. Logan sat in a chair with his head down and his hands on his head. The professor was next to him and he had his fingers in twined and his head down like he always did when he thought. I walk up to him slowly and I step in front of him and ask, "What's going on, professor?" He looks up but he doesn't hear me. He wheels his way to a doctor and Logan follows. "Doctor," the professor says quietly, almost silent. "So what's goin' to happen to her, Doc?" Logan asked solemnly (A/N: I was going to have Logan say "What's up, Doc?" but for obvious reasons I didn't). "Not much I'm afraid," the doctor paused. "She died 5 minuets, I'm sorry," doctor walked away. They can't be talking I about me it's impossible I can't be dead. I scream again but no one hears me.

I'm at a funeral, standing there like a moron not knowing what's going on, again. Everyone is there again, crying, I try to find me standing in the crowd but I suddenly realize where I am. I scream but no one hears me.

Do you remember me?

Lost for so long.

Will you be on the other side

or will you forget me?

I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming.

Am I too lost to be saved and I to lost?

My god, tourniquet, return to me

salvation.

My god, my tourniquet, return to me

salvation.

I'm in the boy bathroom at the mansion and I see Bobby sitting on the toilet and on the sink there is a bottle of Aspirin and a bottle of vodka. "Well, Jubes since you took your life I guess I'll take mine," Bobby said looking down quietly and crying.

"NO!" I scream

"Jubes?" he said standing up in disbelieve.

"Bobby, you have too much to live for," I said smiling. He came over to me and kissed me for the last time. Finally someone heard me.

My wounds cry for the grave.

My soul cries for deliverence.

Will I be denied Christ?

Tourniquet

My Suicide