So yeah, I took my time uploading this chapter because I have just been so so so busy with exams and stuff! Please review it people because I don't want to waste time writing something that nobody is really enjoying! Thank you all for reading the first chapter anyway, this chapter deals with Kurts reactions. My chapters are probably going to be very short but that's just kinda the way that I write enjoy anyway! – Elis
Urghh my head. Last night was way to much for me and I didn't even drink! I can't even imagine how Blaine must be feeling! Oh yeah, Blaine. I'd forgotten how much of an arse he was last night! I'm not forgiving him until he apologises! But I know him well enough to know he will apologise, he wouldn't have said those things if he was sober ... But maybe he meant them, maybe that's what he has wanted to say for ages. You know, I think maybe I have been a bit single minded about all of this, I mean, there may be nothing wrong with a little fooling around right? Oh I dont know it's such a difficult decision to make on the spot! I know, I will think things over and after opening night tonight I will speak to him. OH GOSH IT'S OPENING NIGHT TONIGHT! I hope everything goes well, I must make sure I go over my lines today so I don't mess up. And my song! Everything's just left my head, I need to concentrate. Now, where did I leave my ...
"kurt?" I hear a voice from the doorway. I turn round to see Finn stood in the doorway with a look of despair on his face. That's odd, Finn never shows emotions.
"umm ... Are you ok?" he trembles. What's he talking about? Surely he isn't this emotional over the school musical!
"yeah, why? What's the matter?" oh gosh what if something bad had happened, what if Dad has had another heart attack! This can't be happening, he has just got into congress as well!
"what? I thought you would have heard by now? Ab ... About Blaine" Finn replies, hesitating on the last few words
"no, what had happened to Blaine?" I start panicking, something can't have happened to Blaine, it's opening night tonight! He better not be in hospital for over drinking! This is so irresponsible of him. Irresponisble drink Blaine as usual!
"well you know Puck cleans the andersons pool" Finn starts up "well he was working there this morning and he arrived to see everyone looking sad, and I mean really sad, and he overheard about Blaine and he text me asking if you were ok and I asked what happened to Blaine and he told me and ..." Finn was getting really flustered now, he still hasn't told me what happened!
"Finn!" I cut him off, "just tell me, what happened to Blaine"
"oh I don't want to be the one to tell you .." he continued nervously
"Finn!" I shout, I am really starting to panic "just tell me, please?"
Finn looks like he is about to cry, I have never seen him like this. "well umm, ok kurt take a seat, Blaine was walking home last night from the centre of town and as he got near his street it seemed that ... Umm... He was crossing a road, and a car wasnt looking, and he wasn't concentrating and ..." I know where this is going, my heart is sinking, I feel like I am going to faint.
"where is he?" I ask quietly.
"still where he was hit, it's just down the street from his house" Finn replies with a comforting hand on my back. I push it off and run downstairs, out the door, down the path and out down the street, still in my pajamas and night mask. I don't care who sees me, I just have one thing on my mind: Blaine.
Where, where am I? I, I can't see anything except blurs. The last thing I remember is crossing a road, looking out and seeing a car ram right into me. That must of hurt! Wait, why don't I feel any pain then? Wait, what's that sound? Is, is that mum? Why is she crying? And screaming my name? I can hear you mum! I'm not speaking, why aren't I speaking? So many questions yet I can't even ask them! This is strange! Am I still on the road? I can't move at all, I can't speak. Am I dead? No I can't be! I can still hear and see, kind of. Maybe I'm dying? That would make more sense. I can't be dying! Please don't let me die god! ... Well death is taking his time! Dont know why I'm being left here, I'm not serving any purpose. Wait, my vision is getting a bit clearer, my hearing is too! I can hear others now, a few male voices. They sound like they are trying to calm mum! It's fine mum! I'm ok! Still no speech then. I can see outlines now. I can see her! Her eyes are red, she must be so worried! can she not see that my eyes are open? Maybe if I try getting up. I put my arms out and get up, looks like my limbs are working now. I'm standing up now, but everyone is still looking on the floor where I was. I look down and see why. My body is lying there, limb and lifeless. This has to be some sort of practical joke! I know that isn't my body, I am in my body. Hello! Everyone? I'm over here! They are all still just crowded round the fake body. My mum looks like she is distraut though, she is a terrible liar. Maybe ... No! I can't be ... Am, am I dead? It makes sense, that car hit me at some pace. So, does that mean I am a ghost? That is so awesome! It's just like that film, what's it called, Ghosttown! The one with Ricky Gervais I watched it the other day with ... Kurt. Kurt. Kurt kurt kurt kurt kurt. If I'm a ghost it means no one will ever be ever to talk to me again. That means I will never make up with kurt again. It means I will never be able to explain how sorry I am (because I am sorry!) I was drunk, I didn't mean it. I would have waited forever for him. And now I can never kiss him again. Never hold him. He will never get to hear how much I love him. I am such an idiot! I can't believe I let this happen. What's this? Kurt is running through the crowd to my body now; I don't think I will ever get used to saying that. And he is in his pyjamas? That must have taken a lot of courage for him! He runs up to my mum and put his arms around her. How could I cause this much pain to the people I love? I need to talk to them? How? They can't hear me! This is nowhere near as awesome as I thought it would be! Kurt grabs my hand now and holds it tightly. He is shouting my name, screaming it whilst the tears are flooding down his face. I can't see him like this, I just can't! He is normally so strong. He needs comforting, why isn't anyone comforting him. Finn runs through now to see kurt. He is telling him to calm down, good old Finn! Kurt is just yelling at him. Telling him that he can't leave me on the floor. I don't like seeing kurt cry, i never see him cry. This is all too much, I need to clear my head get used to this. I walk away from the crowd, from the spot I was hit by the Chevrolet not 8 hours ago. I am a ghost. I, Blaine Criss Anderson am a ghost. This isn't going to be good