Olivia raised her eyes from her desk and her paperwork to see her partner smiling in her direction, as he'd been doing a lot of for the past few months-since she's been pregnant, if she really thought about it. Elliot is the one who was really there for her so far. Her other boys were too, but Elliot held her hand as she was inseminated and when she found out she was pregnant, he was sitting on her bed waiting for her while she was in the bathroom. At every doctor's appointment since the beginning, Elliot had been there.
Elliot, no matter how hard he tried not to, found Olivia's change to be beautiful. The once barely-there bump was now pretty obvious. It hadn't made her waddle yet, but the bump was very obvious now.
"You come up with names yet?" Elliot asked, "Kathy had names…damn, I think she had names from the time she was 14."
"I don't know yet. Something traditional, but a name that means something, you know."
"What about Odafin?" Fin said from beside her, "I mean, who has more personality than your favorite detective?"
"Fin, please. She's naming the baby John." Munch smiled.
"I don't even know if it's a boy or not."
"If it's a girl, you can name her Jane. Close enough."
Olivia rolled her eyes. Almost instantaneously, the click of high heels resounded through the precinct. The sound of Alexandra Cabot filled her ears. Alex appeared at the door of their bullpen, dressed in a gray skirt cut just above the knee, a white blouse and her jacket slung over her shoulder. Her eyes were trained on her in the most possessive way, yet lovingly all at once.
"Alex? When did you get back?" Fin asked.
"A while ago. I'm sorry I haven't been by sooner. I'm just here for Olivia right now." Alex smiled at Olivia, who was just now starting to get up, "Ready to go, babe?"
"Go where?" Elliot asked, standing up alongside Alex, perplexed as to why Alex was calling Olivia babe.
"Doctor's appointment."
"I could've taken you."
"You always take me. Just giving you a break." Olivia turned back to Alex, "I'm just going to go tell Cragen I'm leaving."
When Olivia left, Elliot kept his eyes on Alex. Just who the fuck did she think she was, showing up in their bullpen and taking his Olivia to the doctor? No. Elliot Stabler would not stand for it.
Under his breath, Munch whispered, "Thank God she left. I thought they were about five seconds from trying to pee a circle around her."
Fin smiled in response and watched the action from across the room. He could see Elliot starting to fume. It was not unknown around the precinct that Olivia and Elliot were inseparable. Most thought that they'd been sleeping together, but those close to them, like Fin and Munch, knew that anything more than friendship was unrequited from Olivia's end.
"You know, just because you came back, it doesn't mean that you get to reign supreme here. You can't just walk in here like you own the place." Elliot growled.
"I never said I owned anything and let's not make this about the job when we all know it's about Olivia."
"You fuckin…" He snarled, but Alex wasn't going to back down.
"What? Bitch? That's no way to talk about your partner's girlfriend, now is it?" So maybe she wasn't sure if she was really Olivia's girlfriend, but so what? They hadn't talked about it, but they'd seen each other almost every night of the week and most nights, ended up making out feverishly on Alex's couch (much to Alex chagrin really because as much as she loved Olivia's lips, kissing only made her want more.)
As if on cue, Olivia walked over to Alex with a smile, "Ready?"
"If you are."
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Olivia and Alex sat in the room they were assigned waiting for Olivia's doctor, Dr. Sobchack. As much as she wanted this, Alex felt slightly uncomfortable with all of this. She wondered what the doctor would think? Did she know that Olivia was a lesbian, that Alex was hoping for a place in Olivia and this child's life? How did she feel about that? As excited as Alex was to see Olivia's baby for the first time via monitor, she knew that at the moment she didn't have any claims over him or her and that broke her heart any time she thought about it.
When Dr. Sobchack entered the room, the sweet-faced, short woman smiled, "You must be Alex."
"Oh…um…yeah, that's me." Alex smiled and looked at Olivia, who looked away blushing.
"Olivia, how are you?"
"Good." Olivia smiled at her doctor.
"Let's get started, shall we?"
The doctor first did preliminary tests—blood pressure and all and found Olivia to be in good health. Dr. Sobchack then smeared the gel across Olivia's stomach. Alex had actually never seen Olivia's stomach uncovered and she couldn't fight the grin. So cute. The resounding sound of a heartbeat could be heard in the room.
"Is that the baby's heartbeat?" Alex asked, absolutely astounded. It was real. The baby was really there.
"Yes it is." The doctor looked up and smiled, "Now, Olivia, you're at 16 weeks now. You should start trying to sleep on your side. It'll be hard to break habit, but eventually you won't be able to sleep on your back. And there is your baby." The doctor pointed at the screen.
"Oh my God…" Olivia whispered, "Could you tell us the sex?"
"Mm hm. It looks like you have a baby boy."
Alex saw the tears spring from Olivia's eyes, "Can you print two copies?" Olivia asked. He was so little, but so present and so…he was perfect already.
"Sure." After printing two images for Olivia and Alex, the doctor turned back to them, "I'll leave you alone to get cleaned up."
"Wow…" Alex whispered as she looked at the picture, "He looks like a big bean." Alex chuckled.
"Alex?"
"Yeah, baby?" Alex never took her eyes off the picture in her hands.
"I'm hungry." A smile spread across Alex's face as she looked away from the picture.
"Chinese at my place?"
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Alex watched Olivia move, the way she maneuvered around with her rounding belly. She found it remarkable, watching Olivia's body change and she'd never seen someone so beautiful.
"Tell me about your donor. Do you know him?" Alex asked as they sat on the couch beside one another after dinner. Alex placed her hand on Olivia's stomach with a smile on her face.
"No, but I chose him for his characteristics." Olivia took a deep breath, "I chose him with you in mind. I…I always thought if we'd been given the chance, we'd have a family. So, I picked a donor who sort of looked like you. Tall, blonde, blue-eyed, and a Harvard graduate."
Alex's tears had been on the brink of falling all night after seeing the baby, but hearing that Olivia had chosen the donor based on Alex—well, it was too much for the lawyer to handle. To afraid to say anything about it—to mess up this thing that was going so well by pushing Olivia too far, Alex looked away for a moment to collect herself.
"I hope that the baby turns out okay," Olivia continued, "because I've always worried about what I might be passing on. My mother was a drunk and my father was a rapist…"
"And you're you. You're this fantastic, no nonsense, super-heroine, compassionate woman whose son will be so lucky to have a mother like you." Alex placed a soft, chaste kiss on Olivia's lips, "And I hope he looks like you too."
Olivia smiled and rested her head on Alex's shoulder, "I'm sleepy, baby."
"Want to stay the night?"
"Please?"
"You don't even have to ask. Anything I have is yours." Alex looked at Olivia with such honesty that Olivia could barely stand it, but she couldn't bare to look away, either. "Come on, let's get you and Junior to bed." Alex stood up and took Olivia's hand.
"Junior?"
"I think he should be named Oliver. Like Olivia Jr."
"No, Alex. Just no."
Inside Alex's bedroom, Alex began rummaging through drawers to find clothes for Olivia and pulled out an oversize t-shirt. Behind her, Olivia quietly stripped her clothes off until she was left in her panties. When she was honest, this wasn't about changing. She wanted Alex to see her. To know that if Alex saw her, she'd like what she'd see.
When Alex turned around, her breath…it had been taken away from her. She dropped the shirt she was holding. Olivia….Alex didn't know what to say or do, but she knew how she felt when she saw Olivia, pregnant, naked, and beautiful and waiting for her to see.
"Olivia." Alex walked over to her slowly, "You are so beautiful." She placed a warm hand on her cheek, "If you don't want this right now, we don't have to do anything."
"Do you want me?"
"God, you have no idea how much."
"Kiss me."
Alex smirked and complied. Alex's lips, as tentative as they were, made Olivia's body tremble. It's been so long since she's been touched like this, so long since she's wanted to be touched like this. She couldn't speak for Alex, but there had been no one between her first kiss with Alex and now and, in this kiss, she knew it was worth the wait. As Alex kissed lower, on her jaw and then neck, she could feel her pulse rising.
Alex took in Olivia's scent, the light musky, almost slight spicy scent of her skin made Alex's synapses light. Kissing Olivia, her lips on her, was an experience as close to godliness, to religion as Alex thought she would get. Alex led Olivia over to the bed and lowered her to the softness of the blanket. Alex crawled over Olivia and hoisted herself onto her knees. She pulled her shirt over her head, anxious to feel skin against skin. Olivia reached up and tugged on the sweats Alex changed into when they got home. Holding herself up on her hands and leaving room for Olivia's new baby bump, Alex wiggled herself out of her pants and soon she was able to feel Olivia's warm skin against her own.
Alex looked down at Olivia's stomach and smiled. Yes, this was hers. Her love and her child. Not Elliot's or anyone else's.
"I love you, Alex." Olivia whispered softly into her ears, "And I want you so badly."
Alex smiled against Olivia's lips before responding, "You have no idea…"
"No idea what, baby. Talk to me."
Alex pulled back to look at her. There were so many things that Olivia didn't know she felt, "You have no idea how long I have waited for you. You have no idea how I longed for you and how, now that you're here, I have no intentions on ever letting you leave my side. You have no idea the lengths to which I will go in order to keep you happy and safe."
Olivia smiled through tears, but the words not only moved Olivia emotionally, they moved her sexually as her hips pressed insistently against Alex's.
"Please, Alex…"
"Tell me what you need and I'll give it to you…"
Olivia purred. Olivia Benson fucking purred, "Take me, Alex."
If she'd been standing, Alex knew she would have fallen over—her knees went weak. The woman she loved so much wanted her so badly and she would be foolish not to give her what she wanted. She ran her hand down Olivia's body, to the patch of curly hair already saturated with desire. Her fingers parted her lips and moved slowly inside. She was so tight. So hot and warm. She gasped at the wetness there.
So completely enthralled in making love to Olivia, she hadn't noticed that Olivia's thigh was between hers. But when she made contact, she couldn't avoid the movement of her hips against the muscled thigh.
Alex stroked Olivia faster, moving her own hips and grinding herself against Olivia. She knew she would cum soon, but she needed Olivia to peak with her, if not before. She felt Olivia's nails in her lower back, felt the muscles of her sex clenching against her fingers—she was tumbling over the edge.
Olivia called her name and her body arched into her. Alex followed shortly after.
Alex moved away and Olivia immediately missed her presence. Alex wasn't gone long, though, as she pulled Olivia's body to her and the pair drifted into a restful sleep.
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When Alex woke up the next morning, Olivia was already gone. Left on her pillow was a note.
Went to work. Didn't have the heart to wake you. Maybe dinner tonight? Love you, Olivia.
PS. You have something waiting for you in the kitchen.
Alex grinned as she shuffled out of bed and into the kitchen. There was freshly brewed coffee and muffins from her favorite bakery. There was also a small square picture that she recognized as the ultrasound from the day before taped to a card.
Good morning, Mommy! From Olivia Benson and "Junior" Cabot….