A/N : Sorry that it's taken me ages to complete! You've probably all been really patient. This is the final chapter and I've put a little twist at the end because i think they could be cute together; enjoy!

With Prongs all loved up he didn't notice the Black was less than his banter-filled self, and Wormtail always followed James round in some kind of daze so he was just as oblivious. Remus Lupin, however, took note of Sirius' mood; it was unlike him to be down for more than a few hours let alone the week that he'd been in this mood for. He watched as James gorged him with details about Lily Evans and Wormtail went 'ooh' and 'aah' in all the right places. He watched Sirius just sit with his back against the wall staring at the floor. It troubled Lupin greatly.

Sirius Black drifted in to the library reluctantly to return the books he'd needed for that stupid essay he'd spent all the night before working on. He hated the library now. Before the Evans saga he hadn't gone in but he didn't hate it but after a brief interlude of it being his favourite place in the world he now firmly disliked the cavernous room. He looked around, scowling, as he waited for the librarian and that was when he saw her for the first time since the incident with James came to light. She sat there like she had on that day. Her flame gold hair fell over her face slightly, just a strand, just like before. Lily tried to blow it out of her face. She didn't break her gaze from the book she was reading to tuck the hair behind her ear with her delicate, pale fingers. Her green emerald eyes were focused on the words that filled the page; until she chanced to look up, only for a second, and saw Sirius.

She smiled and got up from the table where she was sitting. Inwardly, Black was panicking, what on earth could he say to her? What could he do without telling her everything?

"Hello Sirius, haven't really seen you around…" Lily smiled hesitantly, lingering for a response.

"Yeah, well, I've been busy." He didn't mean for it to sound as forceful and harsh as it did but Sirius couldn't take it back. He watched as her face fell. He felt like a prat.

"Oh. I see… I just thought… Have I done something wrong?" Lily Evans' eyes began to fill with tears.

"No" said Black bluntly as the librarian appeared to take his books, "It's a nice day, go have fun with James." He was now so aware of how bitter and sarcastic his voice sounded as he stalked out the library with his hands deeply thrust in his pockets.

Lily was left standing in the library as she realised what she had inadvertently done. She put a pale hand out almost to call Sirius back and apologise, say she hadn't known, but she knew him well enough to know that the best she could do for him was just to disappear from his life until he felt he could handle her again.

When Padfoot had slammed the door to his dorm behind him, there was someone in there. He had wanted to be alone so he could have time to just be weak and stupid to himself. He looked fiercley in to the familiar grey eyes.

"Why are you up here Remus?" he demanded, trying to contain the emotion in his voice and face and doing a poor job of it.

"I just came up to get some parchment," soothed Remus, "what's up?" This was the question that broke Sirius. He collapsed down on to his bed and let out all the pain that he had felt in an almost howl, rather like his animagus. Lupin quietly sat beside him and propped Black's head up on his shoulder; he held him as he cried out everything about Lily and how stupid he felt. Remus knew he was seeing a side to Sirius that probably no one would ever see again, he felt honoured as he felt for his friend.

Sirius' tale came to a close as he sat there despondently next to the werewolf in human form and stared at the wall.

"No one could ever love me and be my side like she is with James. No one" Black whispered out to the stone.

"I'll never leave you, Sirius" murmured Lupin into the mane of black hair. He risked a small peck on the crown of the head. Sirius relaxed in to him even more. Lupin allowed Prongs to sag in to him and thought quietly about his situation to himself.

He could never let Sirius know. Never.