A/N - Okay guys, I've been trying to work on this story but every time I go to write, I'm just blocked, but I know where I want to go. It just got sort of confusing lol. But I really hope you guys come back to read it!
& a special shout out to "BigStuOU" - I so agree with you, but this IS Tori's first real relationship, she's just overwhelmed for her feelings, but trust me, theirs a point to everything that has happened. It's a bit vague in my mind, but I definitely know where I'm taking my versions of these characters. :) But I sooo agree lol.
Tonight was my birthday and Beck was planning a nice dinner date out. We hadn't really gone out as much as we used to. It had been a few months since the whole Jade ordeal, and a few weeks after that, Beck told me he loved me and of course I told him I love him too. I did. That's what made everything so complicated. I was happy in my relationship. I was with a great guy who never hurt me, he always supported me and he was really driven in life. It didn't hurt that he was gorgeous either. But I always felt like it was missing when we were together, and when we spent more than a short while apart, that feeling only got worse.
Like this one night a few weeks ago, Cat wanted to take me dancing for my birthday but Beck pretty much took over and said no. I was sort of taken aback that he would put his foot down to my best friend, over my birthday. It was MY birthday after all. But Cat said that she was fine with it, so I just agreed to make plans with Beck. I swear that night I could have heard Cat in her room crying, but when I went to knock, she didn't answer. The next day she acted like she was fine, and I didn't want to embarrass her so we both dropped it.
So back to my birthday dinner. Beck had told me the day before to dress nice, but not too casual, and that he would pick me up at 6. So I decided to get ready around 4. I did my hair and makeup and pulled out a cute black dress that went to the middle of my thigh. It was strapless but not in a slutty way, it was pretty classy, with a short slit in the back. I had maybe half an hour until Beck arrived so I went to sit on the couch and watch tv with Cat. She seemed bothered by something but she didn't speak up, so I left it alone. She was easily bothered so when she was in a mood, if she didn't say anything, I left it alone because I didn't want to bring it up, which would make her feel worse. This girl definitely wore her heart on her sleeve unlike anyone else I've ever met, but that's what I love about her.
It turns out she was watching some random sappy romance movie on Lifetime, so I just joined in, laughing when I almost ruined my makeup from crying. When the credits started to roll, I realized I had watched an entire movie, well most of it anyways. It was 7:30! Beck was an hour and a half late! I stood up and double checked my phone, no missed calls, no new text messages. This was weird, I went to the kitchen and dialed Beck's number. It rang and rang but he never answered, it just went to voicemail, I began to worry, but I steadied my voice "Hey babe, it's like 7:30..where are you? Are you okay?" I hung up the phone and went to sit next to Cat. I heard a sigh, and I could feel her looking over at me, but I didn't want to speak first. Thankfully, she did.
"Tori, where is he? He's an hour late!" she looked really worried, almost like SHE was being stood up. I sighed and looked over at her, "Don't worry about me Cat, he'll be here. He'd never miss my birthda-" She cut me off with a gasp so loud that the neighbors must have heard it, "TORI I ALMOST FORGOT IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY! OMIGOD! I'll be right back, okay? DON'T MOVE!" She ran back to her room faster than an actual cat, and was back in less time than it took her to leave. I giggled as she handed me a slim box wrapped in bright pink wrapping paper covered in hearts, wrapped in purple ribbons. I read the card first which was really sweet. Then I opened the box and pulled out a gorgeous teal minidress with a low cut neck line. It was amazing, "Thank you Cat, I love it!" I set the dress down and hugged her. She hugged me back and said "I was hoping we could go out and you'd wear it, but we'll go out tomorrow night." She gave me a small sad smile, like a child would give. She was being such a good sport about this.
I stood back up and grabbed the dress and went to my room. I let my hair down and switch out my black classy dress for this super sexy mini dress and walked back out to the living room. Cat's eyes lit up as she ran to get changed. That's one thing I love about our friendship, we don't always need to speak to communicate. She came back in a bright pink, of course, mini dress and high heels, with silver studs all over them. I smiled at her and said "Cat, I'm all yours! Screw Beck!" She smiled back at me, even though I could still see a hint of sadness in her eyes "Yay!" We ran downstairs and hopped in her car, and drove down to our favorite club. Inside the club we danced to the hottest music and sipped on red bull, we didn't think who'd be the designated driver but we still had a blast. A few hours later we were starving so we went to a small 24 hour diner down the street and got some late dinner.
On the ride home Cat seemed anxious, and I didn't want to let it go, again. "Cat is something bothering you?" She seemed surprised but then she replied, "I don't like how Beck treats you. Half the time, he's a prince and he treats you like a queen, but the rest of the time, he's late, he acts shady and he just gets on my nerves! Standing you up on your birthday! You deserve way better!" She had begun to cry a little so I told her to pull over and she did. I pulled her into a hug, blinking the tears that had formed in my eyes away. "I love you for caring so much Cat, but I think you just see the bad more than the good and it seems worse." She didn't agree. She pulled away from me and wiped her eyes, "I'm not telling you to not date him Tori, I'm just saying what's wrong. You did ask me." She was looking straight ahead, avoiding my eye contact. I didn't know how to respond because part of me felt like she was right. But I loved Beck, so shouldn't I forgive the little mistakes he did make? After a few minutes Cat sighed and started the car, not a word was spoken on the rest of the drive home.
As Cat pulled into her usual parking space, I recognized a car in the visitor's spaces. It was Beck's. How long had he been there? I silently wondered if I was just seeing things, but as we headed up to our apartement on the second floor, I saw Beck sitting at the foot of our door. It WAS his car. Cat let out a slight gasp and turned to me "Tori" she whispered urgently, as if I hadn't seen him. "I know" I replied. It was clear Beck wasn't harmed in a car accident or anything of the sort, and from the look of him, he hadn't been dressed like we were going out either. I walked up to him and as he saw me approaching he stood up and waited till I got the door. "Beck where have you been?" I asked, trying to keep my voice steady. He glared at me like I was at fault, and sighed, "I've been waiting for you, but I guess you ditched me to hang out with HER" he pointed to Cat who squeaked and looked down, "I guess I shouldn't be fucking surprised though right? She's your best friend, I don't even matter right?" I couldn't believe what he was saying "Are you serious Beck? I turned her down to spend tonight with YOU and YOU'RE the one who didn't show up OR answer your phone so you're the one who has some explaining to do, not me." He just shook his head. I was about to say something when he spoke again, "Whatever babe, let's just go home. I left my present for you at my apartment, I thought that's where we'd go. We missed dinner though, so let's go." He grabbed my arm and started to pull me towards his car but I shook his hand off of me "Let go Beck, I'm not going anywhere with you!" he grabbed my arm again, "Yes you are, you're coming to stay the night with me!" I tried to shake him off again, but he grabbed my arm harder, it was starting to hurt, "Ow Beck you're hurting me!" I kept struggling until he swung around and slapped me across the face. Cat gasped and started crying but I was so stunned I couldn't even more. Beck instantly let go of my arm. He was in tears as he reached for my face, "Tori, oh shit I'm so sorry baby, I didn't mean to do that. I'm so sorry babe." He just stood there apologizing as I stood there with my mouth open, tears starting to form in my eyes. I pushed him off of me and walked towards the door. "Come on Cat, let's get inside"
Once inside, Cat collapsed into me, sobbing louder than before, "Omigod Tori are you okay!" I barely had the energy to hug her back, but I assured her I was fine. I took her to her room and told her I'd be fine. I just needed to take a bath. She nodded and gave me another hug, then went to bed. As I reached the bathroom door, I got a text. I was almost afraid to look at it, but I did anyways. It was from Cat, "Hey Tor, I'm in here if you need me. Even if I'm asleep, just wake me up, K?" I texted back that I would if I needed her, then I went to start the bath. Once it was scadling hot, I plugged the drain, stripped my clothes off and lowered myself into the tub. Not caring that it burned. I needed to distract myself, but I knew that would be impossible as I started to cry. At first tears just rolled down my cheeks but shortly after it turned into an uncontrollable sob that I couldn't be bothered to contain. After an hour or two, it could have been weeks atually I had no sense of time, I just had a headache. So I wiped my tears off, blew my nose, and went to bed. I crawled under the covers. I was completely exausted so I started to drift off soon, but not after I realized what hurt me the most. Not that Beck had hit me. Not that Cat saw, but Cat was right and I had been upset with her for not supporting Beck and I. I had been so in love with Beck, that I couldn't even see what a terrible person he was. But now I clearly did. I knew I had to end things. The last thought I had in my mind before I feel asleep was a feeling of confidence, mixed with an overwhelming sense of lonlieness.