Well here you go the next chapter after the cliffy. did you really think I'd kill her after only two chapters? So here you go enjoy and thanks for all the people who've faved this and subscribed and reviewed so far :D Keep reading...also I have to appologise in advance for how fast I made time go...I just didn't want to write anymore Lily abuse.

I woke on my bedroom floor the light in my eyes and checked my watch seeing two days had passed.

Today was the day I caught the Hogwarts Express. I knew my parents wouldn't drive me so I took the fifty dollars of muggle money I kept hidden under the floorboards and snuck downstairs calling a cab. I threw my trunk out the window before landing beside it in the bushes.

The cab showed up and I grabbed my trunk and my cat, Sapphire before going into the cab telling him to go to the station. I knew I looked a mess but I didn't care I'd change once I got on the train.

"Here you go ma'am King's Cross Station." I smiled and grabbed my trunk and Sapphire before grabbing a trolley and loading my stuff onto it and going onto the train into an empty compartment. I immediately changed into my wizarding clothes and stashed my bloodied muggle clothing in the bottom of my trunk.

I sighed and put my legs up on the seat leaning against the window as tears rolled down my face every built up emotion spilling out.

"Evans?" I looked up and unfortunately saw Potter in the doorway.

"What do you want?" I asked wiping my eyes.

"You okay?" He asked and I nearly laughed.

"Do I look okay to you, James?" I asked feeling ashamed for breaking down in front of him.

"So why are you upset? Do I need to beat up Snivellus?" I shook my head willing him to go away.

"I'm fine, Potter just leave me alone." He nodded before turning back probably going to laugh with his friends about how pathetic I am.

I let the tears fall again as I waited for the train to approach Hogwarts.

I got off the train and smiled seeing Beatrice and Rachel. They smiled hugging me and we went getting onto one of the carriages. The thing is this was the sort of thing Cinderella would've ridden to the ball but I sure didn't feel like any Cinderella.

We got off the carriage and went into the main hall preparing for the feast. I didn't want to eat though I looked better than I had in months; I finally looked pretty and perfect. I rested my head on my hand as the first years got sorted and Dumbledore made his speech. Mostly just about how dark times were upon us and how we shouldn't give in to the dark lord's influence, blah, blah, blah.

Food came and my mouth watered seeing everything. I spooned a little bit of corn, broccoli, biscuits and some chicken and ride onto my plate. I spread it around so it looked like more before eating it slowly trying to act casually.

As dinner faded and desert was served I simply grabbed a tart and took tiny bite fulls until everyone around me was done. "Lily are you okay? You didn't eat that much." Nicole said and I only smiled and shrugged.

"I'm okay just had a bit lunch and snacks on the train." I said casually and they nodded believing me automatically. The tables cleared and I knew it was time to take the kids up to the dormitories. I looked at Potter and we got up at the same time. "First years this way to the Gryffindor dormitories." James and I called out as younger kids started following us.

"You sure you're okay, Evans?" Potter asked staring at me and I nodded wondering if I'd been wrong, maybe he wasn't so arrogant. We sent the kids on their way before I went to the Prefects bathroom starting myself a bath before I saw the toilet and had an idea.

I grabbed my toothbrush and went to the toilet kneeling in front of it. I stuck the toothbrush down my throat and vile started coming up filling my mouth.

I did this routine until my stomach felt empty again. I smiled contently and rinsed off my toothbrush before getting into the tub moaning as the warmth surrounded me. I hadn't realized how cold I was until now. I scrubbed off all the emotions from this summer and starred at the healing cuts and scars telling myself it'd never happen again.

I got out of the bath and put on my nightgown, one of the few I'd kept at the bottom of my trunk out of harm's way. I climbed the stairs to the head girl's dormitory and smiled as I passed Potter. He was only across the hallway in a sense. The hallway was about ten feet long and on his side it went down to all the boy's rooms and on my side to all the girl's rooms. Yet like the dormitories only I was allowed on his side not the other way around.

"Goodnight Potter."

"Sweet dreams, Evans." He said before I went into my room closing the door and collapsing onto my bed and falling asleep.

OKay so there's the end...kinda sweet :) So I hoped you liked it I'll update again tomorrow :)